father abraham

there is a programme on bbc being shown aout abraham - and for me the central message there is
HOw come that three faiths that share soooooooooooooooooooooooooo much, have so much hostility towards themselves...

we are all claiming abraham, - claiming abraham is not worth any clout - is that a promise to paradise??
what did abraham stand for - one god - worshipping one God - now lets ask ourselves - are we all worshipping one God only..... abraham forsaked the worshipping of other than God, he stood true to his calling and he stood for God only - in the face of persecution - he trusted and trusted implicitly - this is what all our scriptures tells us.

abrahams covenant - Worship God only - devote religion to God only..

Remember there is only one truth - it is how we relate to this truth that creates divisions in society - but for where we rememebr God, worship God, observe his words, remember tolerance, remember to hold on to God only.. so where is the hostility if we rely and trust in God....

infact we human beings are stupid and crazy - we are all mad.......
God guide us all.




this life is funny,
i will watch this programme gw when i get back to g-town

untitled...

thia life is interesting and it is doing my head in...
i want to know soo much, i am consumed by wanting to find out answers, but it gets sooo complicated, it gets sooo hard.

infact thi slife is tiring, and i am tored, so much divisiom, so much insecurities, no much hardship, so much choice, so much wahala.....

maybe i have a preconvieved idea how i want the message to be, how i want the knowledge to be - but then that is not knowledge but rather that is self dellusion...

truth does not seek to agree or disagree with whatever notion that you may have in your head - Truth is truth, it is a fact, it is what it is -its how you relate to it that brings the chaos or order in your life.

God, help me to know your truth, help me to understand your truth, help me to worship thee, help me to glorify and praise thee... it is hard on th eonset and it is easy with hindsight, help m elord, direct me and accept me as a righteous servant of yours, a believing servant, a patient servant, a trusting servant, a submitting servant, a honest servant.
Guide me to the truth, above all deceptions, above all misrepresentations, and help me to realise, understand and accept. in my heart help me with the right logic, meaning and application of thy words...

God really this life is hard, i am finding all this information sifting hard to comprehend...
protect me from blaspheming against thee like others before me have, forgive me and pardon me, you alone are my Lord and master, on thee i depend, in thee i trust, grant me from thee acceptance in this life and the hereafter...

floor

you know what i have not done in a long long time... sleep on the floor...
in my lowest of lows that i can ever imagine, i was at the mercy of God, i was sunk low low and i slept on the floor for abut 9 months consecutively.

i remember the position exactly, where i was, how i was, how i felt, ...

anyways i am grateful that i am past all that , lord, yes i am past all that,

but i do miss sleeping on the floor, just the simplicity of it all, no stress of bed covers, no stress ot pillows or mattress, etc, it was just simple and easy, the floor , there is nothing more natural than that....

its funny isnt it... well for me it is

tonto had a bath!!!

i walked by you and i almost missed you.
i would not believe my eyes.
it cost a tenner for a wash and vacum and clean and heck!! is was a job well done

I have never seen ur wheels so clean - i was flabbergasted..
damn!! tonto you looking sexy.
on the way home, people were checking you out, wow!! my head was swelling with pride!!
imagine, my tonto, you is sexy!!!!!!

but nevertheless, whilst i am swelling with pride, i have to cut it down for i dont want it to lead to arrogance.
i will enjoy this moment for today, for tonight only, and with this pride we have to remember to thank God for his blessings and his mercy.

We thank God for the opportunty to remember that you had to be washed ( i have been evading this for like 4 months)
we thank God for the funds to wash you, for the dear man who cleaned you with love and attention, for the labour of love and for the job that i say was well done.
we thank God for the happiness that i feel right now - each time i get to smile and be filled with simple happiness, tha mad laughter that is inside of me now, the sunshine smile that is beaming from my heart. hmmm
tonto yes indeed we thank God.

My Lord direct me to be appreciative of the blessings that you have bestowed on me and to do righteous works that please thee. I am grateful and i am thankful Lord , my Provider, My King.
Be thou Glorified always!!!

be firm and be strong, your weakness is not fone or display,

I am crying Lord, because i am sad, i an fraught with insecurities, i am worried , i am not worried, i am tired, i am not tired, infact everything is just topsy turvey at the moment,

but i seek refuge with thee, and i find solace in knowing that you are my provider, you are my lord. you are in control, you have all authority.
so adetutu, dry your eyes, the Lord is with you, and He will not let you go. He will comfort you, and He will provide you with peace.

so adetutu, be firm, be strong

fear and mind

the mind is an interesting concept you know...
in your mind you can amplify fear, loss, grief, to a level that you make yourself in awe of it,
you then start to fear it and it overtakes your thought and mind...

but never!!!, for where the Lord is in crontrol, you cannot fear any harm or injustice, you cannot fear fear - except to fear the good Lord...

so my mind is playing tricks on me and it is wanting to capitalise of my fear of lonliness and heartache, it wants to build on my yearnings and longings and thus make me afraid of myself..

But alas, The good Lord has shown me, what is there to loose if there was nothing there in the first instance..

why should i fear, why should i let it rule me, Never,

what is for you will always be for you, i have a strong belief in that and remember Adetutu does know that whatever the Good Lord does provide, is surely the best for her- however long she has to wait for it, the sweet taste of finality and success from God is surely the best thing ever in this life and in the hearafter, surely its worshipping God in paradise..

so mr and mrs fear, that is compounding on me tonight, i have sought, refige in my Lord and gw you cannot, shall not, will not, gain hold of me.... I fear my Lord ansd i believe in him and i trust in him that my welfare is sorted out, I trust that my hopes are before him and the best outcome will result... so dont ply me with insecurities, and dont torment me with heartache...

My God is in control, has always been and will always be... end of!!!

BRALESSSSS>>>

so aparently i have been wearing the wrong size, for what seems - straightforward to guess - i reckon i didnt even think of it properly -

went with my friend to so a spot of window shopping in debenhams and for whatever reason w elanded in the bra underwear department.

it was funny - i never know why but whenever i go into a shop and i pass the undwear section i cannot help but chuckle and laugh at the funny shapes and designs of some things that i may find utterly ridicoulous and some which are highly overpriced - imagine me - Adetutu buying a bra for £39.99 - Can you imagine that - for anyone who knows me - my money must go a long way - besides bloody heck - its a piece of cloth - it definitely aint worth that amount of monet -

what if ink spills on it - i mistakenly add bleach to the washing - and the color fades within 3 days of buying it - that means £39.99 is down the drain...

dont misunderstand me - i am not a cheapskate for the pure fact that i love a good bargain - but really its a piece of cloth - there is no cloth that is worth that amount of money - my moto is quality at ridicoulously cheap prices - that is my shopping mantra - its alla case of where you go to buy the stuff - will i go to debenhams and buy a wonderbra for £50 or i will go go ***** and but exactly the same bra for £2. (**** - you think i will be telling you the name of my shop - you must ne joking thats is how i used to sing the praises of tk maxx and tell everyone they sell designer gear at drop dead prices - and not the stupid shop is no expensive - imagine wanting to sell me a alexanger mcqueen jackt for £199 - who has that amount of money for a jacket - a jacket!! what if bird shit dropps on it or ink pours on it - then you have to spend extra cash to get the stain out and if you are unfortunate enough you cant get the stain out and thats the end of the jacket you bought for £199.... )

so back to this bra fitting - so the woman there got ne stripped to the waist with my back turned to her and she took one look at me and said try a 30D - i laughed my head off and said it cant be because i have aways wore a 34b - and she said no she was serious and went to get the bra -

she then got me hunched back and proceeded to explain why she thought a 30D was the right size for me she then changed her mind and went to get another one and said that i am a cross between a 30d and a 30e depending on the shape of the bra.. - i must admit it was a tight comfortable fit

generally she explained i have a shamm body = i have a small waist - so in effect the cylindrical shape of my body is the same from ny waist all the way to the underside of my armpits -

this woman blew me off - 30D....

so i just kept going what of all the bra's i have in my house that is 34b - she just said point blank that is the wrong size..

herein lies my delima - where the heck am i going to get a bra that is 30D that is within my price range...

you know what i mean - if i buy a bra for £40 you bet that that bra should be made of gold and be sewn with silver thread - and you might as well guess that the whole world must see and admire the bra ... can you imagine £40 for a bra - ridicoulous..

so i checked primark and the sizes they have there goes as low as a 32. marks and spencers and Next - i generally dont shop in as a rule - cos i find them ridicoulously over priced - in generall i am not a Next fan - unless there is suit sale..

anyway i digress - like you will find me in debenhams buying bras for £40 lolololol

so unfortunately i am at a loss - from now on you will see me crawling the debenhams blue cross sale or everything must go sale looking for size 30D or 30E cup bras - if all else fails and the bra is not priced between £1 and 3 at a max i may go for £4. then sorry it seems i will have to settle for a 32D from most shops where i know for a fact that i can get them for £1.... besides its only a couple of centimeters off the real mark so it should not make too much of a different - besides i am handy with a needle and thread so i can alter the band to a 30 circumference bra....

look - stop goint cheap skate - i prefer my money to be spent on quality food for me to eat and on fulfilling my obligations - rather than on clothes that of just fabric and insignificant anyways

help

YOU WOULD THINK THAT I HAVE LEARNT MY LESSON BUT NOOOOOO - it seems that i like to punish myself necessarily..

here i am in all my crown and gallantry - trying to coax my sphincters to release it grips so as to allow me to deficate successfully...

why did i have to eat... i knew i was not hungry - my body did not want anything to eat - but noooo - because i had a crappy stressful day ( i dont know what stressfull if yet until tomorrow - Day two of this female onslaught)

now the food is going no where any my bowels are not doing any movement - but my doby is telling me that it needs to off load - so the saga continues over and over again...

i have asked for tomorrow off as an emergency holiday - because i have to be honest here - with what i knwo is coming tomorrow - going by what today has shown me - i will be as cranky as muck- in pain as PAIN, and i will be dripping like an over run fountain.

today i had to cry - the shame of it can you imagine - i had an accident( of the female kind) with my chair at work - i did not leave the offivce till 8pm - by then every staff in my department had gone - so i would wheel the chair over to the bathroon to try to get the stain off - and trust me it wasnt any thing like a small stuff, i had sat there unbeknown to be overdripping and for whatever reason it did not figure in my head that this is what had happened - what if i had got up and people had seen - the embarrassement of it... what am i a 13 year old girl or what....

i am sure i managed to get the stuff out - but the only thing now remaims will it dry in time or not - so really the mortifying shame of it all + pain + pain +pain +pain + constipation+headache +cranky really is not inspiring me to go to work tomorrow -

so my routine - whch i hate to do is one painkiller every 2 hrs till tomorrow is over....

i rememebr when i was younger and i went to my friends house to do my hair, that day for whatever reason i felt special, i wore my yellow skirt that was tough to iron and a shirt ( not sure of the colour) i sat there paitiently while my hair was being done - and lo and behold when it was time for me to get up and go home - the coin dropped - i has messed myself up without knowing it, the shame of it and embarrasseemnt - so i had to borrow a wrapper and walk home... it wa snot that far - but this brought back memories again and......they are not things i want to remember....


arrrgh,....
i am still here, my bowels wont move, my spinchter is clamped and will only release for 30 seconds then clanps shut by which anny attempts to push without any successful defacation means i have to jump up before the clamping pain paralyses my leg ---
on a whole it is quite funny,,, but in reality the pain is blodddddddddddddddddddddy awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwful.......

i need help, hekp you hear i seriously neeeeeed help.... helppppppppppppppppppppp

my mind is ablaze this morning......

oh any by the way, a couple of things are fact and will always remain fact.

MUSLIM and SUBMITTER means the same thing, i reckon by translation submitter is the english of Muslim,, so to all them people when they ask you are you a musim and they say no and they say i am a submitter, these ones are starting to become disillusioned and sstarting to create a new sect out of what has always been.
yes you want to seperate yourself from those who you feel worship God and prophet, but the religion of god has never been about God and prophet but God alone that is what our scriptures tells us....
whatever we are saying now is nothing new, it has always been there for those who chose to grasp it and look to God alone, those who chose to listen to human beings get whatever they want...

yes we may have different understandings on how thngs may be , but should that be enough to divide us. NO it cannot because if on the onset we all say we worship God alone and we see that we do in terms of behavious and action, then everything else is understanding and all that is left to God..

everybody wants something to call their own, they want to feel superior to others, in terms of growth, spirituality, advancement,,,, that is our ego's work... but Gods truth and in my view the worship of God alone is past all these egoic stances because if we truly believe in god and yes i agree with the scripture on this - if we truly believe in God, we will know that God controls everything.. we will fear no injustice or harm.


the message of God has always been the same.. it as always been worship God alone devote the religion to GOD ALONE.... anyone who does different to this is just kidding themseves - May god guide us to his truth and his path...

Islam is not a new religion but rather is a culmination of what has aways been, from judaism to christianity to islam - they are all the same.. if we dig deep down we will see that....

i have always said, how can all three main religions share som much but yet they hate - and yes that is the truth - some misguided people - themselves.. they were all given the same messag but down the line MAN through the trappings of power, greed and envy have all but try to distort the messge of God. But God be praised that he has said His truth will reign supreme over any falseness or untruth..

it is one God, when we all ask who created the earth, who is controlling all things we all say God dont we,, so why can we see that it is GOD - one GOD that we all want to worship....
jews have scripture of abraham, torah from moses and psalms from david - to these they have in my view added subtracted and just plain lef out whatever they want, christians have gospel - to which they have added and subtracted and made their own version of what is and what isnt and muslims have quran to which they have added and transated to suit themselves... when will this all stop.......

one day when the truth all comes out the world will be shocked, esp for those who seem to think that they are doig the right thing.. everybody every grou every sect is claiming right but as we all know, there is only one right!!! Gods right - so we cant all be claiming and still think that we are sure of the right.... the only right thing in my view is worship God alone and devote the religion to God alone, while maintaining righteousness...

for those who cannot see God but for his messengers, then i have ti tell you that it is a liberating logical sequence to relate to God directly - for thse who hold on to mohammed or jeus as their salvation, then good for you... may God guide us sll and show us his truth....

if you are a king and you have a servant, would you tell people to give your servant more praise than they give you....?? then whoo is the servant and who is the King....

for me its logic, when you have three things holding on to one thing and each saying theirs is the right thing, would it not be good to list things in agree and disagree... the agree part is the truth because that remains unchanged, the disagree part is their interpretation of things and that each year is subject to change and personal inferences..

so in effect I am a jew I am a christian and I am a muslim - whatever label title you want to give me... the most important of all is that I am a worshipper of God and i worship God alone and devite the religion to Him alone , everything i do is dedicated to God alone, my praise, my practice and my Life.... to God alone.....

themysteries of the okder generations intrigue me, somethings i dont understand and i cant imagine, like to have a prophet of God in your midst relaying the word of God you you, like to see the red sea being parted bfre your very eyes, infact God is just amazing.....

sometimes i feel i am tired of this world, and its true because with each year going with each envy, greed,, claim fr power and lies that are being shown by everybdy, i may not be able to cope an di far to loose my soul in all the iniquity and sin.... anyhow whenever i die whevener that day may be , i hope that by then god has forgiven me for all my sins and assured me paradise, and by that i mean that my time in life remaining be kept seeking Gods forgiveness for my many sons and keeping me from comitting new ones, my time be kept in righteousness as a servant of my God- The God who created us all, worshipping him and being devited to him, single, married or otherwise, working, housewife or otherwise, driving or public transporting, eating or cooking - regardless of whatever situation i may be in, God allw me to worship thee, hold onto thee only and allow me righteousness to be devoted onto thee only.

Conscious Action - Delete the emails..., and i leave it to God to guide me to his path, to hold me close and to grant me steadfastness..

precdents have been set for us in the scriptures with regards to Gods messengers, when someone who is claiming wont leave you alone but incessantly sends you emails upon emails, - remember there is no compulsion in religion - why isnt it enough for you to state ur message and leave it as that?? why must you email at 2.41 then at 2.44 then at 2.48 for example.. at this point i am thinking you have nothing better to do with your time, and also you are clutching at straws... because logical behaviour in my view is to say what you want to say and leave it to people to decide afterall you are not their guardian...
but when you start to email incessantly and in the course of these emails, you turn arrogant, rude, and you assume authority, when there is none..... then at this point i reckon ... "God help us all"...
because for one who is clear of his message states his message without any ambiguity or mis intent - that is who i feel is guided by God, but for one who is not sure of what he is saying and continually spins everyone around, slowly antagonising each person and slowly drawing people into the arena with his choice of words. - that person is a mischief maker... God does not like mischief....i am clear of that fact..

from the scriptures, the examples of messengers message have been simple direct and to the point, they state their message and leave the people to it.. when they see they are not getting anywhere they revert to God, not incessant barrage on the people.

when you start shrouding any explanation in lenghty words and grammer, then for me there is something wrong, because Gods message is simple and direct and lacks no ambguity

i will admit sometimes i see things from ur statements but most of the time especially when you quote the quran, your logic in my view ends up as nonsence because in effect, its like you are adding 1+1 and getting 55.
by that i meam you take half a statement from one verse and take half a statement from another verse and join them up to arrive at your reaon.. for me such a reason is severly flawed... Gods words are complete and need no abbrogation, this action of 1+1 equals 55 is for me like abrogation....

experience has taught me to listen to my heart especially when God is concerned.. the very first time i met you, i was suspicious and when i listened to your explanations i was even weary because i felt i saw a micheief maker at work.. your company and comments have caused a dispersal of a group - i feel you have antagonised everyone and played a part in boosting the egoic stance of some people...and it is a shame most people dont see this... but nevertheless this is how i feel... god guides us all and if i am wrong, may god forgive me... couple of things that i have deduced from emailing you, is that you are intelligent, but intelligence and stupidity goes hand in hand, you are averse to arab people, i dont know what they have done to you but this is slowly poisning your mind, and i am quite sure you know what you are doing... what i would rather be more interesting in finding out is the people who you were in contact with with in america when you were there, this part is by an large an open space for me and i wonder why i am interested in finding this out.... because you have arrived into a group with deceit( your intentions were wrong in my view) and as such any message that you spout can only ever be deceit... this divide and conquer in my view is how you gain attention for yourself, and it is is interesting to view....

I am clear what is in the scripture( may god increase in my knowledge) and i am clear that all truth belongs to God,
my initial thoughts are as thus.. so what if you are a messenger so what? what is your message - worship God devoting the message to God alone.. well fair enuff, that is the same message as before and this never changes...

I cannot seem to reconcile the rudeness, arrogance and what i call stupid talk from someone who claims to be a messenger of God... I will trust that God will guide me to righteousmess and he will grant me steadfastness in his cause...
my last word in the matter is as thus and this is a conscious effor from me to stop reading the incessant emails that i am being bombarded with, my mind is clear at the moment regards this.. anyones emails re this topic i will be deleting, it does not cost me a penny to delete ...

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XXXXX peace and blessing of God upon you and the same goes for everyone as well

i am rather bemused by this word - clarifying messenger.
What is there to clarify -
to clarify would imply that the message of God is ambigous and is not clear - but i feel otherwise, The message is quite clear in content and intent and as such any understanding needed would come only from God - as God holds all knowledge and understanding.

if you feel the quran is not clear would you not seek to God to help you with understanding-

what is there to clarify - some issues that are not tackled in the Quran - let uus remember that they are not tackled for a reason - Gods has the plan and he knows - if it is an issue that affects me directly - i would seek God for guidance and direction - although as with human nature i will seek otehrs opinions - OPINIONS - not answers or guidance - with the hjope that God will inspire me to the best outtake - God has reveleaved that the Quran is complete - what other guidance or clarification is needed - we cannever be the first not will we be the last to ask about issues in the Quran that we feel are not covered - but remember the risk of loosing your soul in trying to find out about what the same other people have tried to find out...

This instinct we have from birth about God, if we develop it then surely God willing our own explanation will become clear for us - sometimes it may not be a one size fits all - your conscience will tell you wether something is right or not or wether you are pushing your luck or boundaries - who gives you that conscience - God does...That is the inspiration that he sends to us - These are my views.

What is there to clarify. the smoke - if the smoke is inevitable what action can we do to avoid it???.. none - will there be an underground tunnell for us to hide in until it clears?, is there a special way for us to board up our houses and windows so it does not enter our houses?, is there a special gas mask for us to buy? - Gods retribution is imminent but God has provided us with his mercy at the same time -Our Lord, relieve this retribution for us, We are believers. it is only the disbelievers that suffer at Gods retribution - let us remember the story of Lot and noah and other messengers whose story are detailed in the Quran.

What is there to clarify - that we should worship God alone and devote the religion absolutely to Him - does that need clarity... That has always been the message - Does this message need clarity???
God guides those he wills and he sends astray whomever he wills - we know that from teh scripture and also by looking at history and we should know that with God is the authority to Guide and provide clarity.

if i am not sure about a certain thing - will i run to any human being or will i implore God for understanding and clarity - in doing so if i say i trust in God i will have assurance and patience that at the best time that is right for me God will make it clear by providing me with the opportunity to experience and reflect and grasp what is at hand...
Who is more apt to give us these opportunities other than God...

My mind is always open - my life experiences has taught me that - but at the same time i am clear what is and what isnt and I seek to God to direct me in teh righteous path as a believer unto him alone, seeking his mercy and forgiveness daily.

alaykum salam
fatty fatty fats
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Peace Fatima,
You are right. There is much division within the submitters. For over a year now, one of those divisions has remained unresolved. It is interesting that both sides of the division used the Koran to support their stance, yet the division remains. Could it be that our egos have got in the way of us all? Interestingly, it was Alban who pointed out that a simple meeting between some submitters could have sorted out this problem. I get the feeling that we are not seeing the wood for the trees, the trees being ALL OUR EGOS. If you look back at that period, it was a big ego fest when everyone was keen to have their say. I for one was very vocal. Yet if I had pulled back and thought to try and deal with the issue quietly then perhaps it might not have become so big and perhaps those involved could have been better supported by us all.

It is the same with the **** issue. It is becoming blown up and verses from the Koran are being thrown back and forth. If people can, perhaps they could take their time to slowly mull over what is being presented by **** and then make their decisions. I don't believe there is any need for decisions to be made quickly. Perhaps someone would care to explain why the urgent need to say yes or no.

I agree with you Fatima on one point especially. That of ****'s explanations. They are often lengthy and involved. I don't know what skills of clarity a messenger should have, but as **** says he is a clarifying messenger, then I feel his explanations should be clear so that we get clarity. Having said that, when I take the time to really understand what **** is saying I am often impressed.

As I said in an earlier email echoing Tasleem, I think it is best to keep an open mind.

Peace,
xxx.


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sorry?
****** salam alaykum, and salam alaykum everyone -

****** I have said all i want to say with my previous email to you , please do nto include me in this matter, because for me it is a plan to slowly incite people - in this case me - into actions that are unbecoming of them.. it is funny - in the begining i said it was a divide and conquer and i am enjoying it because it is slowly taking shape....

after much consideration, i am seeking refuge with God from all these show of ego and counter ego and i do nto wish to be included in them.

although i am rather enjoying the rhetorts back and forward i am also at this point rather much getting sick and tired of it now because it is a shame.

a couple of things are facts for me and i reckon as submitters - wanting to worship God - we should all consider.

regardless of his claim as messenger or not, **** is not saying Worship other than God.
his explanations for me are far fetched and in no way can i reconcile then with what is in the Quran - which i find clear
if you dont like his explanations or feel that his explanations are wrong - then do a couple of things - ignore him or tell him, and provide your own logic or avoid asking him questions.
all understand and knowledge belongs to God - he bestows it upon whomever he wills.
We are all learning ( at least i am) so therefore we have patience tolerance with everyones elses understanding and grasp of things.
i believe that people can contribute and can grasp things and want to share it with the wider group of those who want to worship God alone - this does not make them a messenger of God, nor does it not not make them a messenger of God. - look at all those who contributed with regards to RK's translation of the Quran.

we need to define what we mean by messenger of God and i guess this is what is antagonising most peoplle - to a certain extent we are still identified with the human being far more than we identify with God.. because i reckon if we identify with God alone - what ever anyone may say, write or distribute should not matter in the slightest because we should know that God holds all truth and that the truth of God will always outshine any false claim or message. We should be secure with that knowledge and confident that God guides those whom he chooses.
as long as the message remains worship God alone and seek your guidance from God alone and clarification through the Quran - then why are we splitting hairs left right and center...
because someone who calls himself a submitter says he is a messenger of God, ok then good if they are a messneger of God so what? are they giving me automatic entry to paradise? can they absolve me of all my sins? Can they change any law of God,
the answer is no..
whatever message i need is in the Quran and god willing in the right time God will provide me with it, The most important message is Worship God alone. god knows our intentions and he sees our inner mischiefs - why on earth will i be splitting my hair over anyone who says ther are a messanger of God, - they are a dime a dozen - whatever religious demonination - they are all plenty out there. so why should this claim be any different in the way we respond to it and view it..

if that was the case that we fell strongly that we fully understand a particular message in the Quran then we may as well call ourselves all messengers of God...( i am quite sure when reading the Quran we feel strongly about a certain surah and we feel we have got to grips with the message and intent it is relaying)

We are creating havoc when there need not to be one - we are slowly creating division when there needs not to be one...

Let us remember God -

who are we arguing for, we are not arging for Gods sake, God is in no need of our arguements - we are all doing that individually for the sake of our own soul to grant us favour with the good Lord.

we are forgetting tolerance, understanding and patience....

look as far as i am concerned and i said this a while back, - if we focus on God surely we cannot fail, the time and energy it is taking for all these emails to be read, composed would rather in my view be better spent on praising, glorifying, exalting and imploring God to provide us with knowledge and understanding.God is the one who provides guidance, and by His grace He will guide us all.


everything in life is a lesson and it is a opportunity to reflect and see if we are true to what we say we believe in.

i am rather a simplistic person and i have very simple outlooks - and this is my own opinions in the matter.

salam alaykum everyone.
ps: fatima is about the only one that she knows that even with a spell checker - you will still find errors in her correspondence - so if you do find any errors, apologies - but i hope you get the gist of what i am trying to say.

pps: my french is awful - and i would have loved to translate - but i have used some non grammatical lingo that may be hard to grasp in my translate site.

pps: some of you have said for **** to stop email you, then why he still including you in his emails, and also why are you concerned and emailing him back.... lol

alaykum salam everyone.

as usual - if i have offended anyone by my email - it is not intentional - and i apologise, i can only state as i see it - let us remember God, Worship God alone, Remember unity, remember tolerance, and lastly remember We cannot guide anyone at all, God is in charge of everyones guidance.

Fatty Fats
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this has to be said.

Thank You God, Most Gracious

my lord, i am worried and at the same time i am not worried and then again i am worried that i am not worried.
it is in my nature to worry and to fret but i have started to learn that as i grow older that there is nothing to fear or worry about - for if i trust in thee dear lord then all is as it should be.. everything in life is a lesson for me, it is a development and a chance to redeem myself in thy sight.

i have a longing , i have a dream and it is that which i am quite sure you have given me... i lay patiently for the day with high hopes and and with joyous wait... but whenever i see the possibility of it arising something just happens that leaves me slightly dejected..

but i refuse to be let down because i trust in thee dear Lord, i trust that you will provide for me, i have asked from thee a specific request, a request that only you know, i have asked from thee a longing that only you know, in the face of lifes taunts and friends mocks in the face of heartbreak , i have asked of thee, but i trust that you will provide.

thus, i write this to remind me adetutu, to still hold strong to God. remember your lord has never forgotten you and he has always provided for you. he has showered on you mercy that in your wildest dreams you would have never imagined, you know what i am talking about,
Take heart and gw This ssame God will give you courage to withstand - whatever the journey may be, however the shape takes.

My Lord, many a call have i made to thee asking for the ultimate gift - mercy, forgiveness and acceptance, many a times the void in my heart has done its own calling asking from thee and thee alone.
I have no one to run to, i have no one to ask,
i cannot run to anyone , and i cannot ask anyone but thee - Thee who is my God, My Lord my Provider.

in a way its like bringing it back all over again - when you think you have found something good, but lifes circumstances manage to tear it out from you...

in any case dear lord, can i complain - any bad or mishap that happenes to me is only as a result of my sins nand transgressions - this is the way i see it, becaue if i am honest things do have a way of catching up with you...
nevertheless, dear Lord, you are full of mercy and forgiveness, of this i know and i trust and hope that you shower me with your forgiveness and mercy.

I am all but loosing patience lord I am all but doubting, but i wont, even in the face of friends mockings, even in the face of bleakness... i will trust in thee dear Lord.

i have asked of thee a specific gifit - My own, not any other, but my own - from thee with thy approval, with thy blessings and with thy guidance -there is nothing else better than that. and that which the good Lord does provide is the best for adetutu, however long it takes.

so adetutu, tear yourself away and be firm. have courange and be patient for God has heard your call and he will not let you go, He will give you as he as shown you and the words on your lips will be Thank you God, Most Gracious...

Get away.. for shizyyy for really

there are words and there are the associations you make with words.

These are two different concept.

with every word is a mental idea of how you have been conditioned to accept it... so that whenever the word is spoken is invokes in you the previous thought or idea

This plight affects some people i am sure because it affects me.

a lot of it has to do with my mind and how it assimilates information - i remember conversations and events and i replay them in my head - the problem is then when a person has said something and whenever i hear the same phrase or part of phrase or sentence or see something that is associated with a sentence that i have heard, i immediately think back and i replay what was said in my head - wether i agree with the statement or not.

This is what is my problem - and why i keep asking God to protect me from blaspheming against him like others before me have done. The people in my midst are those who sometimes utter words that i am privy to hear, or in my closest environment i am faced with images that i dont agree with, or through songs i get to listen to stataments that i dont agree with - some of them i dont agree with and whenever i am alone and my mind starts doing what it does, and it replays the statement and utterences over and over again in my head.

I have to be able to block my mind out to utterances that i am not aggreable with or better still make a judgement to move away from people who utter such statements around me.
God willing this is a battle i will win and i will be able to train my mind properly.
GoD is my strenght and with Him i find Salvation.
by His grace and with His help i will conquer...

vibe.....

when there is happiness and joy in my heart, i have to give thanks to the creator.
When i am filled with unbridled energy i have to be juilatious and praise my Lord.

today, My heart is singing, My heart is happy, I have energy and I am restless, restless in a good positive vibe sort of a way.

So dear Lord I am grateful and I give you all the Praise.

i picked up this song and i was moved by its words

1. Be still, my soul; the Lord is on thy side;
Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain;
Leave to thy God to order and provide;
In every change He faithful will remain.
Be still, my soul; thy best, thy heavenly, Friend
Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.

2. Be still, my soul; thy God doth undertake
To guide the future as He has the past.
Thy hope, thy confidence, let nothing shake;
All now mysterious shall be bright at last.

i have only included the pat the strikes a chord in me - some of the words in ths song i dont understand and some i dont agree with.



and

Because I have been given much, I too must give; Because of thy great bounty, Lord, each day I live. I shall divide my gifts from thee, with every brother that I see who has the need of help from me. Because I have been blessed by thy great love, dear Lord. I'll share thy love again, according to Thy word. I shall give love to those in need; I'll show that love by word and deed: Thus shall my thanks be thanks in deed."

Resolutions, Longings, hoping and aspirations

every year i have formed a habit of naming the year with a theme and this year is not exception.
2008 was a year realisation, 2009 was the year of actualisation and now gw 2010 is the year of fulfillment.

in this year dear lord, i ask for so many things - some i asked for last year and still applies to this year

Strenghten my heart dear Lord, Strenghten me in my faith, for in thy path i choose to walk, glorifying thee always.
Protect me from blaspheming against thee, Protect me from blaspheming people, shield my mind from blasphemous thoughts, Keep it praising thee always
Forgive me Lord from sinning against thee, Keep me away from sinning people, Protect my mind from sinning thoughts against thee, Keep it in devotion to thee always
make me one who prays to thee o lord, my obligation to thee let me keep, grant me steadfastmess in thy service lord, let me forever be devoted to thee
Make me one who gives her charity lord, this obligation I want to keep, help me remember to give to others lord, For your blessings on me are great.
Help me lord to see the truth, holding to thee alone, guide me straight, help me to worship thee O lord, in life and in death devoted to thee
Provide me with understanding Lord, learning your scripture, understanding the meaning, help with wisdom and knowledge lord, teach me Lord and help me to learn
Provide me with patience to withstand lord, lifes struggles, lonliness and whatever may come, Provide me with patience to hold on, seeking to thee when things get too tough
in the face of all adversity dear lord, let me never forget thee, but let me turn to thee and feel you near, in the face of progress and jubilations let me not forget thee, let me not turn arrogant let me praise thee still
My ego - keep in check O lord, let it not lead me to sin against thee, make me humble, gentle and softly spoken, let me not rise to the devils bait.
my life is simple and my wants are simple dear lord, but lifes fleeting journeys seek to complicate things, Let me stay true to thee O lord, forever in your debt i will surely be.

Most Gracious -MErcy and forgiveness are some of your attributes and mercy and forgiveness i implore from thee, let me never for a second forget to praise thee, whereever i am whatever i do, Let this heart of mine be devoted to thee, let it never feel proud or arrogant to worship thee.
Protect my mind O lord and protect my head, from thoughts and words and images that i pick up - let my only concern be of worshiping and praising thee.

i am still the simple girl with simple wants, with simple needs and simple thoughts - i am forever grateful for all the blessings and kindness and support and joys and tears of last year i will forever be grateful for the lessons learnt - i hope by your will not to make the same mistakes this year, i hope to worship and praise thee still.

all the good things in life that you provide, my Lord provide for me, keep me praising thee always..