Friday, 11 September 2026

issues

Its been a while and i have loads to say but i drafted this to sum up my exact thoughts anout a certain person whose behaviour is diabolical.. that is how i can perceive it.. no way else.. all because i am bringing to the forefront issues that have been identified and are not improving time and time again.. let me start with how i know this person....  via work.. i would not  term it a friendship because we have a working relationship and all contactnis from her and i respond..only exception will be birthday greetings and generic seasonal greetings....how did they acces me os a ork.. they asked for my number to send me a massage person  number.. in hindsight i should hsve said email me it at work.. i felt cornered and i gave it... when i raised issues with performance  the first time she tried this before and i kept mum and i was clear that our occasional.laugh at work and my job role the boundaries were not clear to her..i have a job to do and i will give feedback if i notice something that is not right..it is what it is... i cut all outside contact but remained jovial at work..... so we have this other i codent where inhave identified same.repeated issue and i have had to call it out agai  and i am being told it is me.that is making her anxious that is why she is not ldoing well.or making these mistakes..my feedback is harsh..i am.too thorough when i review files..my feedback. Is not  collaborative(that was the first allegation last year) she does not gel well with me and wants the other lesder to be her manager..  she feels.i am personally targeting her and wonders if the scrutiny i am  giving her work is the same for others...... lord help.me.....

So here it is for my team....

It has come to my attention that there has been some discussion about me in regards a certain person amd some calls outside of work  and I wanted to address this directly so people understand where I stand and who I am.

First and foremost, my role is TL. I met each of you through work, and therefore work will always come first in our relationship. In my view, there should never be any conflict between a TL and a handler where we are all committed to doing our jobs to the best of our ability and working towards the same goals.

I consider myself a fair person. I am firm, but I am fair. I am not afraid to call out performance concerns where I believe standards are not being met, because that is part of my role. 

I will always review files, and where I identify concerns, I will raise them. There is an expected standard of performance required from all of us, and part of my role is ensuring risk is managed appropriately and that we continue to deliver the right outcomes for our customers and the business.

When I review files, I am generally asking myself three questions: What are you doing? Why are you doing it? And how are you doing it? There are certain regulatory and business standards that we have to adhere to, but there is also room for everyone to bring their own strengths and personality into the way they handle claims.

 It is in my ow  selfish interest to e.courage you to work independently  as it reduces my workload and more important gives you autonomy because this is what many of you are feeding back to the company.. that said with autonomy comes great responsibility..i need to see evidence that risks are understood that appropriate investigation have take  place and decisions are made on clear facts and evidence.... cos if we get this wrong consequence can be significant in ter.s of increased cost..poor  customer outcome....i will always encourage independent thinking   cos that is how people learn and build  confidence in their decision-making.. i dont micromanage..if i ever have to do that it will only be cos there would have been clear signs the same issues continue to arise despite feedback discussions and  commitment to improve...where there is a pattern or repeat mistake and lack of change my responsibility is to step in and have more oversight to ensure right actions are taking place...

What you can expect from me is that I will support you, encourage you and go the extra mile for you. I am not afraid to get into the work alongside you.. for.you and with you.. that is not ny job but i will do it because we are a team and i always advocate  one for all and all for one...I will stand up for my team and I will challenge criticism on any of you where I do not believe it is justified. If it is justified we take it on the  hin and we learn from it...

The only thing I ask in return is that everyone comes to work prepared to do their best and give their best effort. That is what I expect from myself every day, and therefore it is what I will expect from others.

A key part of my role is giving feedback. I believe we have to be honest about what is working and what is not. If I see behaviours that create risk, delay progress or impact customer outcomes, I will raise them..

From a our.job requirement , closing incoming post without acting on it is not acceptable.. not refering when you should is not accetable...Repeatedly moving files without understanding what is happening on the claim is not acceptable..not reading notes on files to be clear what is going on and making decisions without relevant facts is not acceptable. Not acting on referral feedback is not acceptable. Missing key actions on files is not acceptable. If I see these things, I will call them out.

My preference is always to deal with concerns directly through a one-to-one basis via refferals feedback...i will also give feedback on admin related tasks that may have been ommitted...If that resolves the issue, great. If it does not, I will start to formalise the feedback so there is a documented record. If the concerns continue and become more significant, then I will involve the Operations Leader. That is not about punishment; it is simply the appropriate process.

I should be able to have open conversations with any  handlers about files and decisions without every discussion requiring Operational Leader involvement. However, it is important to understand that Operations and Technical Leadership work very closely together. Our guidance is aligned because we share responsibility for supporting the team and ensuring standards are maintained. 

I am a loyal and trustworthy person, and I will strongly defend my integrity. I know who I am, I know the effort I put into this role,  and for my team and I know the standards I hold myself to. I am work-focused, and I appreciate that can sometimes be quite obvious, although those who know me well will also know I have my moments where my random thoughts take over.

I treat everyone equally. I do not believe in favourites or preferential treatment. If I provide feedback to one person for a particular behaviour, I will provide the same feedback to anyone else displaying the same behaviour. Consistency is important to me.

One of the biggest satisfactions I get from leadership is seeing people develop. Watching someone's confidence grow, seeing them improve technically and helping them achieve goals is a huge part of why I became a leader in the first place.

I am not perfect. There will be occasions where I get things wrong, when i am reviewing files...where I misunderstand something or where another perspective helps me see a situation differently. I welcome challenge where it is constructive and supported by evidence. Healthy discussion makes better decisions. When i call.to.discuss c a ses i do so to help me get better understanding from you at the frontline...

When I provide direction on claims, it is rarely based solely on my own opinion. I regularly seek views from other sources before making recommendations, particularly on more complex or contentious matters.

When I call to discuss a case, I expect handlers to have a basic understanding of their file because I want a genuine discussion, not simply a conversation where I tell somebody what to do. I want to understand your thinking, your consideration..investigations..and assessment of the evidence. This helps me understand the claim and supports better decision-making. It is one of the reasons I consistently encourage direct customer contact where appropriate.

Everything I do comes back to doing the right thing based on the facts and evidence available. Sometimes there is room to take a calculated approach, but only where the risks have been properly considered if i do this i tell you and reasons why...

The reason I am writing this is because I want everyone to understand who I am and how I operate. If I have not been clear in the past, I want to be clear now.

I generally avoid engaging in regular out-of-work conversations because I do not want to blur the lines between my work responsibilities and my personal life. That is simply a boundary I choose to maintain. However, if someone contacts me, I will usually respond. I am naturally quite private, it takes.a lk.g tome.to get to.know me.. i have a very strict code i adher to  in terms of who i associate with outside of work...but those who know me also know that I am a warm person and approachable.

When I first joined the team, there was some friction. In my view, that was because some aspects of our role responsibilities had drifted away from the fundamentals and we needed to re-focus on evidence, ownership and technical standards. My role was to support that change and help people become the best version of themselves professionally. We have now come.over that hump and we are doing brilliantly...

If you tell me what you want to achieve, I will genuinely do my best to help you get there. I will support you, develop you and invest my time in you.

feedback is never the end of the world. Mistakes happen. Files can be corrected. Learning comes from identifying what could have been done differently and improving next time. My intention when giving feedback is never to catch people out. It is to support development, reduce risk and help all of us succeed.

At the end of the day, if I have to take criticism, complaints or difficult conversations on behalf of the team, then so be it. That's part of being a leader. What I ask in return is openness to feedback, willingness to learn and a commitment to doing the right thing for our customers and each other.

I need you to be clear with me. If you would prefer our file review to be me telling you what to do rather than exploring your reasoning and decision-making, then so be it. My preference, however, is to take a development-led approach where I understand your thought process, challenge your thinking where appropriate, and help you build confidence in making independent decisions by understanding the risks involved in our approach to the claim. That, in my view, is how people develop and grow in the role.

Ultimately, I appreciate that my style will not suit everyone, However, the expectations I set are not personal preferences; they are the standards required of the role and the responsibilities we have to our customers, the business, and each other.

You do not have to agree with every piece of feedback I provide, but I do expect an openness to reflect, and engage constructively with it. My commitment is to support, develop and advocate for my team, but equally I will continue to challenge behaviours and performance issues where they arise. I will not lower my standards, compromise on quality, or avoid difficult conversations simply because they are uncomfortable.

My role is to lead with fairness, consistency and integrity, and that is exactly what I have always done and will do..

Saturday, 25 July 2026

to god belongs all praise

RafiU darajati zul arshi..la illaha ila huwa al wahidul qahar... possessor of the highest rank and rulernof the whole dominion..there is no other God but He the one the supreme....taken from 40;15-16

Sunday, 7 June 2026

discrimination

You can dislike someone for a variety of reasons ..it is ones right to associate or not with any person..i firmly believe so..... But you cannot discriminate against them due to something about them that you dont like...that is a notion i feel most people don't understand....

Sunday, 10 May 2026

God is Truth

Quote started...

There is One God
He is the Supreme Truth
He, the Creator 
Is without fear and without hate.
He, the omnipresent,
Pervades the universe.
He is not born,
Nor does He die to be born again.
By his grace shalt thou worship Him.

Before time itself 
There was truth.
When time began to run its course
He was the truth.
Even now, He is the truth
And evermore shall truth prevail.


Not by thought alone can He be known.
Though one think a hundred thousand times;
Not in solemn silence
Nor in deep meditation
Though fasting yields
An abundance of virtue
It cannot appease the hunger for truth
No, by none of these,
Nor by a hundred thousand other devices,
Can God be reached 
How then shall the truth be known?
How the veil of false illusion torn?
The righteous path- let it be thine.

2
By Him are all forms created
By Him infused with life and blessed,
By Him are some to excellence elated,
Others born lowly and depressed 
By His writ some have pleasure,
Others pain;
By his grace some are saved,
Others doomed to die.
His will encompasseth all, there be none beside Him
He who knows, hath no ego and no pride. 


Monday, 4 May 2026

voice message

So i have just realised onenof my brothers left me vouce message.. from last year i didnt listen tonit then.. not sure i want to.. life is interesting how money shows up peoples true colours... and their inner devils come out.. hmmmm..

Saturday, 2 May 2026

dreams

Last couple of days dreamt about my mum..weird dream..reminiscing about how she would go london buy foodstuffs  also chiding me to take paracetamol for headache..woke up with a headache by the way

Tuesday, 17 March 2026

voice onto the Lord

I always wonder why we sont all lift our voice to the creator to ask that he seal with these awful bully dictators whose actions bring misery on their people.. surely the more we cry on to the lord as one congregation i hope he will hear our call.. then again no one knows the innermost thoughts and deeds of each soul so not even sure pur prayers will be heard and also i believe  things happening today are following destiny and Gods plan ultimately Godnisnim control. We are reaping what.we have sown..so.in everything Lord for me amd mine..guide us and protect us im this life amd hereafter and allow us to continuously praise and glorify thee in every instance circumstance..protect us from blasphemy and sin against thee...
Forgive me for.my sins deliberate and undelibrate..for my anger..my stubbornness my potty mouth..Forgive me.for my laziness and  forgetfulness..with each day guide me..with each day have mercy on me.. with each day guard me from these whispers of evil and blasphemy..
Help me.to progress and be successful in this life and hereafter..your blessings in and on my life i seek my creator...most exalted are thou in everything and everywhere..you are my only Lord..the  Most Gracious.
.

Monday, 2 March 2026

01.03.2026

This day..my two took upon themselves to observe fasting..they lasted the day and i am proud of them..their very first proper one...may Gods guidance and mercy follow them wherever they go

Wahidul Qahhar

Al-Qahhaar (The Subduer) – His ability to dominate everything instantly. This energy is overpowering/dominating and resulting in Al-Wahidul Qahhar (the One and Only holding absolute power)......fa ta ala al Malikul Haqq..la ilaha ila huwa Al Wahudul Qahhar

Wednesday, 10 December 2025

passing dream

Weird mini dream of my mum leaving me a letter for me to read after her death.. i was crying in dream apologising why she never held me to her to know her understand her better. i just wanted her to be there for me..i didn't want anything off her i just wanted her to be there for me.... before i slept i watched a real how someone called a woman put of the blue.. her long lost family.. and i reminded myself i too am estranged from my dads family.. i dont know my mums family at all..  but i remember family wont get you to paradise..so family of righteousness people whether blood related or now is what i seek..

Tuesday, 9 December 2025

struck by being openly muslim

So i was on a work eoy special and one of the people in  leadership team recorded his message and the thing that struck me was the background photo which was a framed photo os a quranic phrase "Afahasibtum annamaa khalaqnaakum ‘abasanw wa annakum ilainaa laa turja’oon" which translate  roughly to mean "Did you imagine that We created you without any purpose, and that you will not be brought back to Us?”
I guess i was shocked first that he could flaunt his faith so openly like that.. and i think that was it...he could be himself openly and show his background faith proudly for everyone in business to see.

I also remember a training we attended where we were asked the q.. what inspires you each day.. i know i said my faith as this governs my moral code and interaction as much as possible.. i would not lie.. i felt naff saying that. Like i was a lost species and people would think me weird cos we live in a society where faith is a back burner...
Now am thinking of joining the muslim network at work but nah.. pas pour moi... because i dont subscribe to most things "mainstream muslim" hero worship and practice.  
Anyways..looking forward to 2026 insha Allah

Sunday, 23 November 2025

Oh He who is....

Last couple of days my mind went towards one of the memories of my childhood listening to taped sermons  and this phrase stuck in my head... Ya huwa, ya man la huwa, illaha huwa...ya man lah illaha illahu....
I dont knownif i have mentioned this before or searched before.. but ai ai ai.. found me a meaning.. it said it translates to "oh he..oh who there is no he but Him"....
It is a powerful statement and it is one i would like to think Abraham voiced when searching for God...
So in my turn...i utter same words from the depths of my heart.. seeking the one who is.. the one who created all.  Seeking God...for his blessings and direction in my life....

On a side note.. if i could find that sermon tape... what lovely memories it will bring for me...it was a yoruba sermon 

Friday, 24 January 2025

running

There are days i want to run away from everyone and everything . I feel lost..... days where i feel i am a failure...i am an imposter...but in these times i seek refugee with my creator to ask he holds me and covers me... ...

Tuesday, 2 April 2024

i wanted to hear your voice

Today i wanted to hear your voice..the sad part of you gone is despite everything all i wanted was to hear you say you are ok amd hear your voice and i dont have that opportunity again...i aam still processing your departure..but i will admit that i had already sort of detached from you before you left here aand in my mind i knew/felt that would be the last time i saw you..i wish i could say all the things i wanted to say but never said but that is not the way you raised  me..you never gave me a voice/choice to express my opinion my own thoughts but its ok..that's my life and burden..it is what it is... i am still conflicted in what i perceive to be the hurt  and pain and manipulation and my obligations as a daughter so i  still processing it all..but in everything i can only thank God for my life my journey as it is and i hope i learn lessons from.your mistakes and dont make the same myself 

Saturday, 20 January 2024

ask for see

There is that much friction in the family that i ask Llord to get the truth out about this woman and two men so we are all clear..amd about the theft of a life insurance policy to vindicate a boy and shame the perpetrators...a.family has been displaced cos of manipulation and greed..lord before we all pass please set this right