i wanted to hear your voice

Today i wanted to hear your voice..the sad part of you gone is despite everything all i wanted was to hear you say you are ok amd hear your voice and i dont have that opportunity again...i aam still processing your departure..but i will admit that i had already sort of detached from you before you left here aand in my mind i knew/felt that would be the last time i saw you..i wish i could say all the things i wanted to say but never said but that is not the way you raised  me..you never gave me a voice/choice to express my opinion my own thoughts but its ok..that's my life and burden..it is what it is... i am still conflicted in what i perceive to be the hurt  and pain and manipulation and my obligations as a daughter so i  still processing it all..but in everything i can only thank God for my life my journey as it is and i hope i learn lessons from.your mistakes and dont make the same myself