passing dream

Weird mini dream of my mum leaving me a letter for me to read after her death.. i was crying in dream apologising why she never held me to her to know her understand her better. i just wanted her to be there for me..i didn't want anything off her i just wanted her to be there for me.... before i slept i watched a real how someone called a woman put of the blue.. her long lost family.. and i reminded myself i too am estranged from my dads family.. i dont know my mums family at all..  but i remember family wont get you to paradise..so family of righteousness people whether blood related or now is what i seek..