Thank You God, Most Gracious

my lord, i am worried and at the same time i am not worried and then again i am worried that i am not worried.
it is in my nature to worry and to fret but i have started to learn that as i grow older that there is nothing to fear or worry about - for if i trust in thee dear lord then all is as it should be.. everything in life is a lesson for me, it is a development and a chance to redeem myself in thy sight.

i have a longing , i have a dream and it is that which i am quite sure you have given me... i lay patiently for the day with high hopes and and with joyous wait... but whenever i see the possibility of it arising something just happens that leaves me slightly dejected..

but i refuse to be let down because i trust in thee dear Lord, i trust that you will provide for me, i have asked from thee a specific request, a request that only you know, i have asked from thee a longing that only you know, in the face of lifes taunts and friends mocks in the face of heartbreak , i have asked of thee, but i trust that you will provide.

thus, i write this to remind me adetutu, to still hold strong to God. remember your lord has never forgotten you and he has always provided for you. he has showered on you mercy that in your wildest dreams you would have never imagined, you know what i am talking about,
Take heart and gw This ssame God will give you courage to withstand - whatever the journey may be, however the shape takes.

My Lord, many a call have i made to thee asking for the ultimate gift - mercy, forgiveness and acceptance, many a times the void in my heart has done its own calling asking from thee and thee alone.
I have no one to run to, i have no one to ask,
i cannot run to anyone , and i cannot ask anyone but thee - Thee who is my God, My Lord my Provider.

in a way its like bringing it back all over again - when you think you have found something good, but lifes circumstances manage to tear it out from you...

in any case dear lord, can i complain - any bad or mishap that happenes to me is only as a result of my sins nand transgressions - this is the way i see it, becaue if i am honest things do have a way of catching up with you...
nevertheless, dear Lord, you are full of mercy and forgiveness, of this i know and i trust and hope that you shower me with your forgiveness and mercy.

I am all but loosing patience lord I am all but doubting, but i wont, even in the face of friends mockings, even in the face of bleakness... i will trust in thee dear Lord.

i have asked of thee a specific gifit - My own, not any other, but my own - from thee with thy approval, with thy blessings and with thy guidance -there is nothing else better than that. and that which the good Lord does provide is the best for adetutu, however long it takes.

so adetutu, tear yourself away and be firm. have courange and be patient for God has heard your call and he will not let you go, He will give you as he as shown you and the words on your lips will be Thank you God, Most Gracious...