At this very instant i will say to thee my God - Thank you.
i have just finished watching season of good wife.
the joy in my heart when i was watching them -
i started watching when i was away having the boy
when i was soooo desolate and alone
when my life felt like it was going to end
when i felt like - God what kind of a human being is this - no emotion, no tenderness
i was sooo down and felt soo alone
the joy i found at watching the programme was my little escape from the hell that i felt i was going through.
that and drop dead diva..
you see God i know you are a listening God, i know you are a working God
so just for the joy that i am back here - and the occasional peace of mind that i feel - that i knew when i asked Lord create for me an escape( there is a part in the Quran 65:2 t:hat says God will create an escape for you if you ask him - or something like that - this is my own view/how i want to understand it)
i felt like running away - but it felt like that was the coward way - i was ready to throw in the towel but God kept me strong... i was ready to kill myself.. God showed me some kindness and he kept my mind sane.
for that God - Thank you..
Wednesday, 6 March 2013
Sunday, 17 February 2013
test of time..
i try to be a good daughter, to look out for my mother.
but i fail in that i am quick to temper and react to her manipulations.
each time i fail
why is it that God uses her to test me.. this test i am doomed to fail
honor your father and mother.. i remember this but i try to do this but it is not easy.
God did not tell me that they will test your patience.. they will try to suffocate and stifle you
she can sometimes be vile and her actions can sometimes be cruel and i more than any siblings am at the receiving end of this..
i want to be a better daughter but most times i fail
i try to keep distance between us because experience has taught me this is sometimes best
when she is upset she has to look to upset someone close by and i am the rabbit receiving the shot
lord give me strength - each time i tell myself i will learn to do better but i keep falling back into the same old trap
each time i tell myself i will turn the other cheek but i don't
God give me patience
the old feelings of mistrust and fear keeps flooding back into my head
and i am trying to keep them at bay
for i ask myself what kind of a mother is this..
Lord help me to be different for my children,
to love them in totality to be honest with then, to support then to guide them in truth founded on reality.
not to be duplicitous with them, help me to be different.
i guess this should be the thought for each person - Lord i want to be better for my children than my parents were with me..By thy grace i can be better..
but i fail in that i am quick to temper and react to her manipulations.
each time i fail
why is it that God uses her to test me.. this test i am doomed to fail
honor your father and mother.. i remember this but i try to do this but it is not easy.
God did not tell me that they will test your patience.. they will try to suffocate and stifle you
she can sometimes be vile and her actions can sometimes be cruel and i more than any siblings am at the receiving end of this..
i want to be a better daughter but most times i fail
i try to keep distance between us because experience has taught me this is sometimes best
when she is upset she has to look to upset someone close by and i am the rabbit receiving the shot
lord give me strength - each time i tell myself i will learn to do better but i keep falling back into the same old trap
each time i tell myself i will turn the other cheek but i don't
God give me patience
the old feelings of mistrust and fear keeps flooding back into my head
and i am trying to keep them at bay
for i ask myself what kind of a mother is this..
Lord help me to be different for my children,
to love them in totality to be honest with then, to support then to guide them in truth founded on reality.
not to be duplicitous with them, help me to be different.
i guess this should be the thought for each person - Lord i want to be better for my children than my parents were with me..By thy grace i can be better..
Sunday, 3 February 2013
Burning in furnace -
My way, your Way, Our Way..
This is a good example of how we human beings like to confuse and stir things up.
the best intentions is left for God to decide.. We all think we are doing something worthwhile but in actual fact, It is god who oversees what we do and the final consequences of our actions.
..
i saw this on another site and it gives you a snap shot of different translations of surah 85 Burooj.
who is to say which translation carries more weight than the other?
who is to say that the author has used the best words to translate
who is to say that the author is correct..
it just goes to remind me of the issue with the bible and its different versions i.e king james, new kind james, gospel edition etc...
in fact truly there is noting new under the sun.. for century of years people have been before us.. and surely they may be some after us until God decides no more...
God help us find a way to YOUR TRUTH...to decipher through century old misconceptions, distortions, additions and subtractions.. to lead us to the pure truth - Your worship - no ambiguity no pretense, just unadulterated praise of THEE..
http://www.universalunity.net/quran4/085.qmt.html - this is the web i stumbled upon
Translations of the Qur'an, Chapter 85:
AL-BUROOJ (THE MANSIONS OF THE STARS, CONSTELLATIONS, THE GALAXIES)
Total Verses: 22
Revealed At: MAKKA
Order in which revealed: 27
Bismi Allahi alrrahmani alrraheemi
In the name of Allah, the Compassionate, the Merciful.
085.001
Waalssama-i thati alburooji
YUSUFALI: By the sky, (displaying) the Zodiacal Signs;
PICKTHAL: By the heaven, holding mansions of the stars,
SHAKIR: I swear by the mansions of the stars,
KHALIFA: The sky and its galaxies.
085.002
Waalyawmi almawAAoodi
YUSUFALI: By the promised Day (of Judgment);
PICKTHAL: And by the Promised Day.
SHAKIR: And the promised day,
KHALIFA: The promised day.
085.003
Washahidin wamashhoodin
YUSUFALI: By one that witnesses, and the subject of the witness;-
PICKTHAL: And by the witness and that whereunto he beareth testimony,
SHAKIR: And the bearer of witness and those against whom the witness is borne.
KHALIFA: The witness and the witnessed.
085.004
Qutila as-habu alukhdoodi
YUSUFALI: Woe to the makers of the pit (of fire),
PICKTHAL: (Self-)destroyed were the owners of the ditch
SHAKIR: Cursed be the makers of the pit,
KHALIFA: Woe to the people of the canyon.
085.005
Alnnari thati alwaqoodi
YUSUFALI: Fire supplied (abundantly) with fuel:
PICKTHAL: Of the fuel-fed fire,
SHAKIR: Of the fire (kept burning) with fuel,
KHALIFA: They ignited a blazing fire.
085.006
Ith hum AAalayha quAAoodun
YUSUFALI: Behold! they sat over against the (fire),
PICKTHAL: When they sat by it,
SHAKIR: When they sat by it,
KHALIFA: Then sat around it.
085.007
Wahum AAala ma yafAAaloona bialmu/mineena shuhoodun
YUSUFALI: And they witnessed (all) that they were doing against the Believers.
PICKTHAL: And were themselves the witnesses of what they did to the believers.
SHAKIR: And they were witnesses of what they did with the believers.
KHALIFA: To watch the burning of the believers.
085.008
Wama naqamoo minhum illa an yu/minoo biAllahi alAAazeezi alhameedi
YUSUFALI: And they ill-treated them for no other reason than that they believed in Allah, Exalted in Power, Worthy of all Praise!-
PICKTHAL: They had naught against them save that they believed in Allah, the Mighty, the Owner of Praise,
SHAKIR: And they did not take vengeance on them for aught except that they believed in Allah, the Mighty, the Praised,
KHALIFA: They hated them for no other reason than believing in GOD, the Almighty, the Praiseworthy.
085.009
Allathee lahu mulku alssamawati waal-ardi waAllahu AAala kulli shay-in shaheedun
YUSUFALI: Him to Whom belongs the dominion of the heavens and the earth! And Allah is Witness to all things.
PICKTHAL: Him unto Whom belongeth the Sovereignty of the heavens and the earth; and Allah is of all things the Witness.
SHAKIR: Whose is the kingdom of the heavens and the earth; and Allah is a Witness of all things.
KHALIFA: To Him belongs the kingship of the heavens and the earth. And GOD witnesses all things.
085.010
Inna allatheena fatanoo almu/mineena waalmu/minati thumma lam yatooboo falahum AAathabu jahannama walahum AAathabu alhareeqi
YUSUFALI: Those who persecute (or draw into temptation) the Believers, men and women, and do not turn in repentance, will have the Penalty of Hell: They will have the Penalty of the Burning Fire.
PICKTHAL: Lo! they who persecute believing men and believing women and repent not, theirs verily will be the doom of hell, and theirs the doom of burning.
SHAKIR: Surely (as for) those who persecute the believing men and the believing women, then do not repent, they shall have the chastisement of hell, and they shall have the chastisement of burning.
KHALIFA: Surely, those who persecute the believing men and women, then fail to repent, have incurred the retribution of Gehenna; they have incurred the retribution of burning.
085.011
Inna allatheena amanoo waAAamiloo alssalihati lahum jannatun tajree min tahtiha al-anharu thalika alfawzu alkabeeru
YUSUFALI: For those who believe and do righteous deeds, will be Gardens; beneath which rivers flow: That is the great Salvation, (the fulfilment of all desires),
PICKTHAL: Lo! those who believe and do good works, theirs will be Gardens underneath which rivers flow. That is the Great Success.
SHAKIR: Surely (as for) those who believe and do good, they shall have gardens beneath which rivers flow, that is the great achievement.
KHALIFA: Surely, those who believed and led a righteous life, have deserved gardens with flowing streams. This is the greatest triumph.
085.012
Inna batsha rabbika lashadeedun
YUSUFALI: Truly strong is the Grip (and Power) of thy Lord.
PICKTHAL: Lo! the punishment of thy Lord is stern.
SHAKIR: Surely the might of your Lord is great.
KHALIFA: Indeed, your Lord's blow is severe.
085.013
Innahu huwa yubdi-o wayuAAeedu
YUSUFALI: It is He Who creates from the very beginning, and He can restore (life).
PICKTHAL: Lo! He it is Who produceth, then reproduceth,
SHAKIR: Surely He it is Who originates and reproduces,
KHALIFA: He is the One who initiates and repeats.
085.014
Wahuwa alghafooru alwadoodu
YUSUFALI: And He is the Oft-Forgiving, Full of Loving-Kindness,
PICKTHAL: And He is the Forgiving, the Loving,
SHAKIR: And He is the Forgiving, the Loving,
KHALIFA: And He is the Forgiving, Most Kind.
085.015
Thoo alAAarshi almajeedi
YUSUFALI: Lord of the Throne of Glory,
PICKTHAL: Lord of the Throne of Glory,
SHAKIR: Lord of the Arsh, the Glorious,
KHALIFA: Possessor of the glorious throne.
085.016
FaAAAAalun lima yureedu
YUSUFALI: Doer (without let) of all that He intends.
PICKTHAL: Doer of what He will.
SHAKIR: The great doer of what He will.
KHALIFA: Doer of whatever He wills.
085.017
Hal ataka hadeethu aljunoodi
YUSUFALI: Has the story reached thee, of the forces-
PICKTHAL: Hath there come unto thee the story of the hosts
SHAKIR: Has not there come to you the story of the hosts,
KHALIFA: Did you note the history of the troops?
085.018
FirAAawna wathamooda
YUSUFALI: Of Pharaoh and the Thamud?
PICKTHAL: Of Pharaoh and (the tribe of) Thamud?
SHAKIR: Of Firon and Samood?
KHALIFA: Pharaoh and Thamoud?
085.019
Bali allatheena kafaroo fee taktheebin
YUSUFALI: And yet the Unbelievers (persist) in rejecting (the Truth)!
PICKTHAL: Nay, but those who disbelieve live in denial
SHAKIR: Nay! those who disbelieve are in (the act of) giving the lie to the truth.
KHALIFA: Those who disbelieve are plagued with denial.
085.020
WaAllahu min wara-ihim muheetun
YUSUFALI: But Allah doth encompass them from behind!
PICKTHAL: And Allah, all unseen, surroundeth them.
SHAKIR: And Allah encompasses them on every side.
KHALIFA: GOD is fully aware of them.
085.021
Bal huwa qur-anun majeedun
YUSUFALI: Day, this is a Glorious Qur'an,
PICKTHAL: Nay, but it is a glorious Qur'an.
SHAKIR: Nay! it is a glorious Quran,
KHALIFA: Indeed, it is a glorious Quran.
085.022
Fee lawhin mahfoothin
YUSUFALI: (Inscribed) in a Tablet Preserved!
PICKTHAL: On a guarded tablet.
SHAKIR: In a guarded tablet.
KHALIFA: In a preserved master tablet.
the best intentions is left for God to decide.. We all think we are doing something worthwhile but in actual fact, It is god who oversees what we do and the final consequences of our actions.
..
i saw this on another site and it gives you a snap shot of different translations of surah 85 Burooj.
who is to say which translation carries more weight than the other?
who is to say that the author has used the best words to translate
who is to say that the author is correct..
it just goes to remind me of the issue with the bible and its different versions i.e king james, new kind james, gospel edition etc...
in fact truly there is noting new under the sun.. for century of years people have been before us.. and surely they may be some after us until God decides no more...
God help us find a way to YOUR TRUTH...to decipher through century old misconceptions, distortions, additions and subtractions.. to lead us to the pure truth - Your worship - no ambiguity no pretense, just unadulterated praise of THEE..
http://www.universalunity.net/quran4/085.qmt.html - this is the web i stumbled upon
Translations of the Qur'an, Chapter 85:
AL-BUROOJ (THE MANSIONS OF THE STARS, CONSTELLATIONS, THE GALAXIES)
Total Verses: 22
Revealed At: MAKKA
Order in which revealed: 27
Bismi Allahi alrrahmani alrraheemi
In the name of Allah, the Compassionate, the Merciful.
085.001
Waalssama-i thati alburooji
YUSUFALI: By the sky, (displaying) the Zodiacal Signs;
PICKTHAL: By the heaven, holding mansions of the stars,
SHAKIR: I swear by the mansions of the stars,
KHALIFA: The sky and its galaxies.
085.002
Waalyawmi almawAAoodi
YUSUFALI: By the promised Day (of Judgment);
PICKTHAL: And by the Promised Day.
SHAKIR: And the promised day,
KHALIFA: The promised day.
085.003
Washahidin wamashhoodin
YUSUFALI: By one that witnesses, and the subject of the witness;-
PICKTHAL: And by the witness and that whereunto he beareth testimony,
SHAKIR: And the bearer of witness and those against whom the witness is borne.
KHALIFA: The witness and the witnessed.
085.004
Qutila as-habu alukhdoodi
YUSUFALI: Woe to the makers of the pit (of fire),
PICKTHAL: (Self-)destroyed were the owners of the ditch
SHAKIR: Cursed be the makers of the pit,
KHALIFA: Woe to the people of the canyon.
085.005
Alnnari thati alwaqoodi
YUSUFALI: Fire supplied (abundantly) with fuel:
PICKTHAL: Of the fuel-fed fire,
SHAKIR: Of the fire (kept burning) with fuel,
KHALIFA: They ignited a blazing fire.
085.006
Ith hum AAalayha quAAoodun
YUSUFALI: Behold! they sat over against the (fire),
PICKTHAL: When they sat by it,
SHAKIR: When they sat by it,
KHALIFA: Then sat around it.
085.007
Wahum AAala ma yafAAaloona bialmu/mineena shuhoodun
YUSUFALI: And they witnessed (all) that they were doing against the Believers.
PICKTHAL: And were themselves the witnesses of what they did to the believers.
SHAKIR: And they were witnesses of what they did with the believers.
KHALIFA: To watch the burning of the believers.
085.008
Wama naqamoo minhum illa an yu/minoo biAllahi alAAazeezi alhameedi
YUSUFALI: And they ill-treated them for no other reason than that they believed in Allah, Exalted in Power, Worthy of all Praise!-
PICKTHAL: They had naught against them save that they believed in Allah, the Mighty, the Owner of Praise,
SHAKIR: And they did not take vengeance on them for aught except that they believed in Allah, the Mighty, the Praised,
KHALIFA: They hated them for no other reason than believing in GOD, the Almighty, the Praiseworthy.
085.009
Allathee lahu mulku alssamawati waal-ardi waAllahu AAala kulli shay-in shaheedun
YUSUFALI: Him to Whom belongs the dominion of the heavens and the earth! And Allah is Witness to all things.
PICKTHAL: Him unto Whom belongeth the Sovereignty of the heavens and the earth; and Allah is of all things the Witness.
SHAKIR: Whose is the kingdom of the heavens and the earth; and Allah is a Witness of all things.
KHALIFA: To Him belongs the kingship of the heavens and the earth. And GOD witnesses all things.
085.010
Inna allatheena fatanoo almu/mineena waalmu/minati thumma lam yatooboo falahum AAathabu jahannama walahum AAathabu alhareeqi
YUSUFALI: Those who persecute (or draw into temptation) the Believers, men and women, and do not turn in repentance, will have the Penalty of Hell: They will have the Penalty of the Burning Fire.
PICKTHAL: Lo! they who persecute believing men and believing women and repent not, theirs verily will be the doom of hell, and theirs the doom of burning.
SHAKIR: Surely (as for) those who persecute the believing men and the believing women, then do not repent, they shall have the chastisement of hell, and they shall have the chastisement of burning.
KHALIFA: Surely, those who persecute the believing men and women, then fail to repent, have incurred the retribution of Gehenna; they have incurred the retribution of burning.
085.011
Inna allatheena amanoo waAAamiloo alssalihati lahum jannatun tajree min tahtiha al-anharu thalika alfawzu alkabeeru
YUSUFALI: For those who believe and do righteous deeds, will be Gardens; beneath which rivers flow: That is the great Salvation, (the fulfilment of all desires),
PICKTHAL: Lo! those who believe and do good works, theirs will be Gardens underneath which rivers flow. That is the Great Success.
SHAKIR: Surely (as for) those who believe and do good, they shall have gardens beneath which rivers flow, that is the great achievement.
KHALIFA: Surely, those who believed and led a righteous life, have deserved gardens with flowing streams. This is the greatest triumph.
085.012
Inna batsha rabbika lashadeedun
YUSUFALI: Truly strong is the Grip (and Power) of thy Lord.
PICKTHAL: Lo! the punishment of thy Lord is stern.
SHAKIR: Surely the might of your Lord is great.
KHALIFA: Indeed, your Lord's blow is severe.
085.013
Innahu huwa yubdi-o wayuAAeedu
YUSUFALI: It is He Who creates from the very beginning, and He can restore (life).
PICKTHAL: Lo! He it is Who produceth, then reproduceth,
SHAKIR: Surely He it is Who originates and reproduces,
KHALIFA: He is the One who initiates and repeats.
085.014
Wahuwa alghafooru alwadoodu
YUSUFALI: And He is the Oft-Forgiving, Full of Loving-Kindness,
PICKTHAL: And He is the Forgiving, the Loving,
SHAKIR: And He is the Forgiving, the Loving,
KHALIFA: And He is the Forgiving, Most Kind.
085.015
Thoo alAAarshi almajeedi
YUSUFALI: Lord of the Throne of Glory,
PICKTHAL: Lord of the Throne of Glory,
SHAKIR: Lord of the Arsh, the Glorious,
KHALIFA: Possessor of the glorious throne.
085.016
FaAAAAalun lima yureedu
YUSUFALI: Doer (without let) of all that He intends.
PICKTHAL: Doer of what He will.
SHAKIR: The great doer of what He will.
KHALIFA: Doer of whatever He wills.
085.017
Hal ataka hadeethu aljunoodi
YUSUFALI: Has the story reached thee, of the forces-
PICKTHAL: Hath there come unto thee the story of the hosts
SHAKIR: Has not there come to you the story of the hosts,
KHALIFA: Did you note the history of the troops?
085.018
FirAAawna wathamooda
YUSUFALI: Of Pharaoh and the Thamud?
PICKTHAL: Of Pharaoh and (the tribe of) Thamud?
SHAKIR: Of Firon and Samood?
KHALIFA: Pharaoh and Thamoud?
085.019
Bali allatheena kafaroo fee taktheebin
YUSUFALI: And yet the Unbelievers (persist) in rejecting (the Truth)!
PICKTHAL: Nay, but those who disbelieve live in denial
SHAKIR: Nay! those who disbelieve are in (the act of) giving the lie to the truth.
KHALIFA: Those who disbelieve are plagued with denial.
085.020
WaAllahu min wara-ihim muheetun
YUSUFALI: But Allah doth encompass them from behind!
PICKTHAL: And Allah, all unseen, surroundeth them.
SHAKIR: And Allah encompasses them on every side.
KHALIFA: GOD is fully aware of them.
085.021
Bal huwa qur-anun majeedun
YUSUFALI: Day, this is a Glorious Qur'an,
PICKTHAL: Nay, but it is a glorious Qur'an.
SHAKIR: Nay! it is a glorious Quran,
KHALIFA: Indeed, it is a glorious Quran.
085.022
Fee lawhin mahfoothin
YUSUFALI: (Inscribed) in a Tablet Preserved!
PICKTHAL: On a guarded tablet.
SHAKIR: In a guarded tablet.
KHALIFA: In a preserved master tablet.
Friday, 7 December 2012
Sunday, 4 November 2012
to call
this a conversation i had..
if a woman leaves for travel for a weekend and does not call.. is that right.
these are the issues we must consider..
Thursday, 1 November 2012
Subhanaka lahuma rabbil ala'miin - Be Thou Glorified Our Lord - Lord of the Universe
there are some times that some songs resonate in your heart.. in whatever language whether you understand or not.. the intent is always carried on.
this is one of the songs that i fell in love with...
Asmaa ALLAH (أسماء الله) Allah names
Lyrics and translation:
يا ذا الأسماء الحسنى يا خالقنا غفرانك نسألك وأنت الأسـمى نأمل عفوك سبحانك
O the one who belong to him the most beautiful names,
our creator we ask you the forgiveness
يا خالقنا يــــــا رب لعبـــيدك أنِر الدرب
O God...our creator for your slaves light up the road(x2)
واملأ عالمنا الحب يا ذا الأسماء الحسنى
and fill up our world with love, you the one who belong to him the most Beautiful Names(x2)
يا خالقنا سبحانك
الله التوّاب , الإله الوهاب , الرب القريب الطيب المجيب , الرقيب الحسيب
Allah, The Ever Returning, The Bestower,The One Who Is Nea,The Lord, The Closest, The Pure One, The Responsive, The Watchful, The Bringer of Judgment
يــــا رب
O lord
المقيت الوارث السبوح الودود , الفتاح الصمد الواحد الأحد
The Nourisher,The Inheritor of All,The One Praised,The Kind One, The Opener(The Victory Giver), The Eternally Besought of All(The Everlasting), The One(The Indivisible), the unequaledالجواد الهادي السيد الشهيد المجيد الحميد
The Magnanimous,The Guide, The master, The Witness, The All Glorious, The All Praiseworthy
يـــا رب
O lord
القهار النصير الغفار الكبير الجبار القدير , الظاهر الباطن القاهر
The All Compelling Subduer,The Helper, The Ever Forgiving, The Great, The Compeller,The All Powerful, The Manifest(The All Victorious),The Hidden One, The All-Conquering(The Dominator)
الغفور القادر الستير, الشاكر الشكور
The All Forgiving, The All Able,===,The Rewarder of Good, The Grateful
الآخر المؤخر الوتر المصور البر المتكبر المقتدر الخبير البصير
The Last(Omega),The Deferrer(The Keeper Behind) ,the independent, The Fashioner of Forms, The Most Kind and Righteous, The Tremendous, The All Determiner(the Dominant), The All Aware, The All Seeing
نور السماوات والأرض بديع السماوات والأرض
The Light of earth and heaven, The Originator of earth and heaven
(x2)
يـــا رب
O lord
العزيز القدوس , المعطي المحيط , الحفيظ العليم , القابض الباسط
The Almighty(the Self Sufficient), The Most Holy, the giver,All- Pervading, The Preserver,The All Knowing, The Restrainer(the Straightener), The Expander(The Munificent)
جامع الناس الحافظ العظيم
The Gatherer(The Unifier),The Guardian, The Magnificent
يــــا رب
O lord
الواسع السميع اللطيف الرءوف الخالق الرازق الرفيق الكريم الكافي
The Vast(the All Encompassing), The All Hearing, The Subtly Kind,The Compassionate(the All Pitying), The Creator, The Providing,The Most Kind, the Generous,The Sufficient One
الشافي الرازق الخلاق الحق الحليم
The Healer,The Ever Providing,The One who continously creates, The Truth, The Indulgent
مالك الملك الملك المليك الولى الوكيل , الأول الجميل
The Owner of All Sovereignty, The King(The Sovereign), The Protector , The Trustee(the Dependable), the first, the virtuous(x2)
متعالٍ رحيم العالم الحكم المقدم الأكرم
The Self Exalted,The Most Merciful,The Knower of All,The Judge(the Arbitrator), The Expediter(He who brings forward),The Most Generous
يــــا رب
O lord
ذو الجلال والإكرام
The Lord of Majesty and Generosity
السلام القيوم الحكيم
The Peace and Blessing, The Self Subsisting Sustainer of All, The Wise(x2)
المؤمن القوي المتين المهيمن العلي المولى الرحمن المحسن المنان المبين
The Guarantor,The All-Strong, the Steadfast,The Guardian,The Highest, The Patron,The All-Merciful,The Doer of Good,The Giver of Good,The Clarifier
الولي الحي العفو الأعلى الحفي الباريء الغني
The Protecting Friend, The Ever Living, The Pardoner(the Effacer of Sins),the Most High ,The Recognizer, The Maker,The self-sufficient
يا خالقنا يــــــا رب لعبـــيدك أنِر الدرب
O God...our creator for your slaves light up the road
(x2)واملأ عالمنا الحب يا ذا الأسماء الحسنى
and fill up our world with love, you the one who belong to him the most Beautiful Names
يا خالقــــــــــنا سبحانك يا خالقــــــــــنا سبحانكيا خالقــــــــــنا سبحانك
i got the translation from: http://arabicnasheedlyrics.blogspot.co.uk/search/label/Mishary%20Al-Afasy
i dont know if everything is word perfect translation - but i think "ya khaliqana subhaanaka" means our creator be Glorified.. this is the part that resonates with me... for one there is a phrase somewhere in the Quran that i read where the angels greet our Lord.. by saying - subhanaka llahuma - Be thou (you) glorified our Lord...
this for me is a good way to accord God, our creator...
this is one of the songs that i fell in love with...
Asmaa ALLAH (أسماء الله) Allah names
Lyrics and translation:
يا ذا الأسماء الحسنى يا خالقنا غفرانك نسألك وأنت الأسـمى نأمل عفوك سبحانك
O the one who belong to him the most beautiful names,
our creator we ask you the forgiveness
يا خالقنا يــــــا رب لعبـــيدك أنِر الدرب
O God...our creator for your slaves light up the road(x2)
واملأ عالمنا الحب يا ذا الأسماء الحسنى
and fill up our world with love, you the one who belong to him the most Beautiful Names(x2)
يا خالقنا سبحانك
الله التوّاب , الإله الوهاب , الرب القريب الطيب المجيب , الرقيب الحسيب
Allah, The Ever Returning, The Bestower,The One Who Is Nea,The Lord, The Closest, The Pure One, The Responsive, The Watchful, The Bringer of Judgment
يــــا رب
O lord
المقيت الوارث السبوح الودود , الفتاح الصمد الواحد الأحد
The Nourisher,The Inheritor of All,The One Praised,The Kind One, The Opener(The Victory Giver), The Eternally Besought of All(The Everlasting), The One(The Indivisible), the unequaledالجواد الهادي السيد الشهيد المجيد الحميد
The Magnanimous,The Guide, The master, The Witness, The All Glorious, The All Praiseworthy
يـــا رب
O lord
القهار النصير الغفار الكبير الجبار القدير , الظاهر الباطن القاهر
The All Compelling Subduer,The Helper, The Ever Forgiving, The Great, The Compeller,The All Powerful, The Manifest(The All Victorious),The Hidden One, The All-Conquering(The Dominator)
الغفور القادر الستير, الشاكر الشكور
The All Forgiving, The All Able,===,The Rewarder of Good, The Grateful
الآخر المؤخر الوتر المصور البر المتكبر المقتدر الخبير البصير
The Last(Omega),The Deferrer(The Keeper Behind) ,the independent, The Fashioner of Forms, The Most Kind and Righteous, The Tremendous, The All Determiner(the Dominant), The All Aware, The All Seeing
نور السماوات والأرض بديع السماوات والأرض
The Light of earth and heaven, The Originator of earth and heaven
(x2)
يـــا رب
O lord
العزيز القدوس , المعطي المحيط , الحفيظ العليم , القابض الباسط
The Almighty(the Self Sufficient), The Most Holy, the giver,All- Pervading, The Preserver,The All Knowing, The Restrainer(the Straightener), The Expander(The Munificent)
جامع الناس الحافظ العظيم
The Gatherer(The Unifier),The Guardian, The Magnificent
يــــا رب
O lord
الواسع السميع اللطيف الرءوف الخالق الرازق الرفيق الكريم الكافي
The Vast(the All Encompassing), The All Hearing, The Subtly Kind,The Compassionate(the All Pitying), The Creator, The Providing,The Most Kind, the Generous,The Sufficient One
الشافي الرازق الخلاق الحق الحليم
The Healer,The Ever Providing,The One who continously creates, The Truth, The Indulgent
مالك الملك الملك المليك الولى الوكيل , الأول الجميل
The Owner of All Sovereignty, The King(The Sovereign), The Protector , The Trustee(the Dependable), the first, the virtuous(x2)
متعالٍ رحيم العالم الحكم المقدم الأكرم
The Self Exalted,The Most Merciful,The Knower of All,The Judge(the Arbitrator), The Expediter(He who brings forward),The Most Generous
يــــا رب
O lord
ذو الجلال والإكرام
The Lord of Majesty and Generosity
السلام القيوم الحكيم
The Peace and Blessing, The Self Subsisting Sustainer of All, The Wise(x2)
المؤمن القوي المتين المهيمن العلي المولى الرحمن المحسن المنان المبين
The Guarantor,The All-Strong, the Steadfast,The Guardian,The Highest, The Patron,The All-Merciful,The Doer of Good,The Giver of Good,The Clarifier
الولي الحي العفو الأعلى الحفي الباريء الغني
The Protecting Friend, The Ever Living, The Pardoner(the Effacer of Sins),the Most High ,The Recognizer, The Maker,The self-sufficient
يا خالقنا يــــــا رب لعبـــيدك أنِر الدرب
O God...our creator for your slaves light up the road
(x2)واملأ عالمنا الحب يا ذا الأسماء الحسنى
and fill up our world with love, you the one who belong to him the most Beautiful Names
يا خالقــــــــــنا سبحانك يا خالقــــــــــنا سبحانكيا خالقــــــــــنا سبحانك
i got the translation from: http://arabicnasheedlyrics.blogspot.co.uk/search/label/Mishary%20Al-Afasy
i dont know if everything is word perfect translation - but i think "ya khaliqana subhaanaka" means our creator be Glorified.. this is the part that resonates with me... for one there is a phrase somewhere in the Quran that i read where the angels greet our Lord.. by saying - subhanaka llahuma - Be thou (you) glorified our Lord...
this for me is a good way to accord God, our creator...
Sunday, 14 October 2012
I want to worship you Lord in all that i do...
I want to bless You Lord in all that I do
Let my life bring glory to You
Fill my heart so Your love can flow
Use me Lord, wherever I go
I want to bless You Lord in all that I do
Let my hands bring glory to You
Reaching out to the one in need
Touch me Lord, so You can use me
I want to bless You Lord in all that I do
Let my words bring glory to You
Guard my thought so that they might be
Filled with love and praises to Thee....
this is a song i remember from my childhood - @salamatu's house... and i fell in love with this song..
today the words resonate with me but i prefer to say - i want to worship you lord.. because i question the statement - i want to bless you lord.
i understand praise God, but i don't understand the phrase = "bless God" -
because God is in no need of anyone - whether we do what he asks or not - He is in no need.. He is the one to bless us with his mercy, guidance, provisions and not the other way round - this is my view and thoughts on the matter..
Ashira Adonai
This song is from The Prince of Egypt (part of "when you believe") - i fell in love with this part even before finding out what it means....
any song to praise god, gw resonates in my heart and soul..
may God be praised and glorified always....
Adonai means "Lord" - God, Most Gracious, Creator...
Ashira l'adonai ki ga'oh ga'ah
Ashira l'adonai ki ga'oh ga'ah
Michamocha, ba-elim adonai
Michamocha nedar-bakodesh
Nachitah v'chasd'cha, am zu ga'alta
Nachitah v'chasd'cha, am zu gaalta
Ashira, Ashira, Ashira...
Translation:
I will sing unto Adonai for He has triumphed gloriously.
I will sing unto Adonai for He has triumphed gloriously.
Who is like You, O Adondai, among the gods?
Who is like You, glorious in holiness?
In Your mercy, you lead the people You redeemed.
In Your mercy, you lead the people You redeemed.
I will sing, I will sing, I will sing...
any song to praise god, gw resonates in my heart and soul..
may God be praised and glorified always....
Adonai means "Lord" - God, Most Gracious, Creator...
Ashira l'adonai ki ga'oh ga'ah
Ashira l'adonai ki ga'oh ga'ah
Michamocha, ba-elim adonai
Michamocha nedar-bakodesh
Nachitah v'chasd'cha, am zu ga'alta
Nachitah v'chasd'cha, am zu gaalta
Ashira, Ashira, Ashira...
Translation:
I will sing unto Adonai for He has triumphed gloriously.
I will sing unto Adonai for He has triumphed gloriously.
Who is like You, O Adondai, among the gods?
Who is like You, glorious in holiness?
In Your mercy, you lead the people You redeemed.
In Your mercy, you lead the people You redeemed.
I will sing, I will sing, I will sing...
Tuesday, 31 July 2012
Help
My Lord, if i am falling catch me
If i am about to go wrong, set me on the right path
If i am digging a hole, then break my shovel
My Lord if i am going wrong set me right..
Help me always in each and every situation to do the right thing by you..
I need advise and counsel from thee alone Lord..
If i am about to go wrong, set me on the right path
If i am digging a hole, then break my shovel
My Lord if i am going wrong set me right..
Help me always in each and every situation to do the right thing by you..
I need advise and counsel from thee alone Lord..
Monday, 30 July 2012
Musings of a lonely heart
Dear Lord,
i started with asking for forgiveness for my sins of which there are many.
I need your counsel and direction.
i ask of thee so that i don't let stubbornness hinder my progress
I ask of thee so that i do not let nearsightedness draw me back.
I am seeking from thee humility and understanding but at the same time i need to be able to voice my fears and say what is on my mind..
i have lived there with you before first for 2 months then for 6 months..
the time was there for you to capitalise to show direction for us and to draw us together for us to bond and lead instead you focused on work.. as this was i felt the most important thing for you.. the human connection was not a priority for you..
i remember when i was always singing quality time quality time.. for you for me for us...
i dont want to be a broken record thinking all the time " i remember this and that"
i only know that my time there by and large was not enjoyable.. even the shorter visits initially also but i always overlooked and made excuses that things will get better
yes in life there is difficulty and adjustment... this much i agree.. i also agree that i don't like difficulty.. but i would have done anything for you, went to the ends of the earth for you..
i was eager to be with you and when i was there, you ignored me..
i was eager to love you but when i was there you brought your work home, cutting into the little time that we had anyways.. i felt you were more comfortable with work than you were with being alone with me..
maybe what i has envisaged was not what you had in mind.. maybe we should have been clearer
i envisaged being in love doing things that lovers do... and you in my view envisaged doing things that you want to do but that did not include what couples do
i am afraid to live with you.. and this is a recurrent thought that goes through my mind..
I am afraid that through no fault of yours other than condition, i will be left with no support and left by myself whilst you focus on your work and let it consume you... the issue of work/home balance always at odds and i am left in the lurch.
we have no common friends, we seldom go out.
I am trying to deal with this matter without letting emotion cloud my better judgement .. i am wanting to try to be fair but i have trusted you before and you broke my trust and it is hard for me to trust you again
you say you will take care of me and by all means you do, you feed me and get me provisions but all i required from you was for you to love me, show that you love me and care for me.. connect with me.. laugh with me, play with me, talk to me..patience, understanding and tolerance... all interactions on a "couple level" that is vital for their development.
i required you to be the leader for us.. to deal with things in matters of best and logical.
i didn't require you to bully me or oppress me or stifle me or disregard me because you didn't understand or didn't want to create time to understand..
i started with asking for forgiveness for my sins of which there are many.
I need your counsel and direction.
i ask of thee so that i don't let stubbornness hinder my progress
I ask of thee so that i do not let nearsightedness draw me back.
I am seeking from thee humility and understanding but at the same time i need to be able to voice my fears and say what is on my mind..
i have lived there with you before first for 2 months then for 6 months..
the time was there for you to capitalise to show direction for us and to draw us together for us to bond and lead instead you focused on work.. as this was i felt the most important thing for you.. the human connection was not a priority for you..
i remember when i was always singing quality time quality time.. for you for me for us...
i dont want to be a broken record thinking all the time " i remember this and that"
i only know that my time there by and large was not enjoyable.. even the shorter visits initially also but i always overlooked and made excuses that things will get better
yes in life there is difficulty and adjustment... this much i agree.. i also agree that i don't like difficulty.. but i would have done anything for you, went to the ends of the earth for you..
i was eager to be with you and when i was there, you ignored me..
i was eager to love you but when i was there you brought your work home, cutting into the little time that we had anyways.. i felt you were more comfortable with work than you were with being alone with me..
maybe what i has envisaged was not what you had in mind.. maybe we should have been clearer
i envisaged being in love doing things that lovers do... and you in my view envisaged doing things that you want to do but that did not include what couples do
i am afraid to live with you.. and this is a recurrent thought that goes through my mind..
I am afraid that through no fault of yours other than condition, i will be left with no support and left by myself whilst you focus on your work and let it consume you... the issue of work/home balance always at odds and i am left in the lurch.
we have no common friends, we seldom go out.
I am trying to deal with this matter without letting emotion cloud my better judgement .. i am wanting to try to be fair but i have trusted you before and you broke my trust and it is hard for me to trust you again
you say you will take care of me and by all means you do, you feed me and get me provisions but all i required from you was for you to love me, show that you love me and care for me.. connect with me.. laugh with me, play with me, talk to me..patience, understanding and tolerance... all interactions on a "couple level" that is vital for their development.
i required you to be the leader for us.. to deal with things in matters of best and logical.
i didn't require you to bully me or oppress me or stifle me or disregard me because you didn't understand or didn't want to create time to understand..
Wednesday, 25 July 2012
Supplication
La Ilaha illa anta, Subhanaka inni kuntu minna zalimiina.. faghfirli anta aRrahman aRrahim.
Sunday, 22 July 2012
Ta', Ra, Fa
Noun
| (14:43:7) ṭarfuhum | their gaze | مُهْطِعِينَ مُقْنِعِي رُءُوسِهِمْ لَا يَرْتَدُّ إِلَيْهِمْ طَرْفُهُمْ |
| (27:40:14) ṭarfuka | your glance | أَنَا آتِيكَ بِهِ قَبْلَ أَنْ يَرْتَدَّ إِلَيْكَ طَرْفُكَ |
| (37:48:3) l-ṭarfi | (will be) companions of modest gaze | وَعِنْدَهُمْ قَاصِرَاتُ الطَّرْفِ عِينٌ |
| (38:52:3) l-ṭarfi | (will be) companions of modest gaze | وَعِنْدَهُمْ قَاصِرَاتُ الطَّرْفِ أَتْرَابٌ |
| (42:45:9) ṭarfin | a glance | يَنْظُرُونَ مِنْ طَرْفٍ خَفِيٍّ |
| (55:56:3) l-ṭarfi | (will be) companions of modest gaze | فِيهِنَّ قَاصِرَاتُ الطَّرْفِ لَمْ يَطْمِثْهُنَّ إِنْسٌ قَبْلَهُمْ وَلَا جَانٌّ |
Noun
| (3:127:2) ṭarafan | a part | لِيَقْطَعَ طَرَفًا مِنَ الَّذِينَ كَفَرُوا أَوْ يَكْبِتَهُمْ فَيَنْقَلِبُوا خَائِبِينَ |
| (11:114:3) ṭarafayi | (at the) two ends | وَأَقِمِ الصَّلَاةَ طَرَفَيِ النَّهَارِ وَزُلَفًا مِنَ اللَّيْلِ |
| (13:41:8) aṭrāfihā | its borders | أَوَلَمْ يَرَوْا أَنَّا نَأْتِي الْأَرْضَ نَنْقُصُهَا مِنْ أَطْرَافِهَا |
| (20:130:17) wa-aṭrāfa | (at the) ends | وَمِنْ آنَاءِ اللَّيْلِ فَسَبِّحْ وَأَطْرَافَ النَّهَارِ لَعَلَّكَ تَرْضَىٰ |
| (21:44:16) aṭrāfihā | its borders | أَفَلَا يَرَوْنَ أَنَّا نَأْتِي الْأَرْضَ نَنْقُصُهَا مِنْ أَطْرَافِهَا |
This one is a bit trick as there seems not to be a clear correlation as before??
but i am inclined to - based on logic at present to go for a general meaning if a part, border
http://corpus.quran.com/qurandictionary.jsp?q=Trf
| The word(s) "tarafa" appears 3 time(s) in 3 verse(s) in
Quran. http://www.searchtruth.com/search.php?keyword=tarafa&chapter=&translator=6&search=1&start=0&re cords_display=10&search_word=all | ||||
| (1) Falamma
fasala talootu bialjunoodi qala inna Allaha mubtaleekum binaharin faman shariba
minhu falaysa minnee waman lam yatAAamhu fainnahu minnee illa mani ightarafa ghurfatan biyadihi fashariboo minhu illa qaleelan minhum falamma jawazahu huwa waallatheena amanoo maAAahu qaloo la taqata lana alyawma bijaloota wajunoodihi qala allatheena yathunnoona annahum mulaqoo Allahi kam min fiatin qaleelatin ghalabat fiatan katheeratan biithni Allahi waAllahu maAAa alssabireena ( سورة البقرة , Al-Baqara, Chapter #2, Verse #249) | ||||
| (2) LiyaqtaAAa
tarafan mina allatheena kafaroo aw yakbitahum
fayanqaliboo khaibeena ( سورة آل عمران , Aal-e-Imran, Chapter #3, Verse #127) | ||||
| (3) Waaqimi
alssalata tarafayi alnnahari wazulafan mina
allayli inna alhasanati yuthhibna alssayyiati thalika thikra lilththakireena ( سورة هود , Hud, Chapter #11, Verse #114) also on a different note please examine these two verses in relation to TRF..
waqabla ghuroobiha wamin anai allayli fasabbih waatrafa alnnahari laAAallaka tarda the Arabic is not the same.. whilst the top one is tarafayii, the second is atrafa.. ???? |
Zain, Lam, Faa,
Verb (form IV) - to bring near
| (26:64:1) wa-azlafnā | And We brought near | وَأَزْلَفْنَا ثَمَّ الْآخَرِينَ |
| (26:90:1) wa-uz'lifati | And (will be) brought near | وَأُزْلِفَتِ الْجَنَّةُ لِلْمُتَّقِينَ |
| (50:31:1) wa-uz'lifati | And will be brought near | وَأُزْلِفَتِ الْجَنَّةُ لِلْمُتَّقِينَ غَيْرَ بَعِيدٍ |
| (81:13:3) uz'lifat | is brought near | وَإِذَا الْجَنَّةُ أُزْلِفَتْ |
Noun
| (34:37:8) zul'fā | (in) position | وَمَا أَمْوَالُكُمْ وَلَا أَوْلَادُكُمْ بِالَّتِي تُقَرِّبُكُمْ عِنْدَنَا زُلْفَىٰ |
| (38:25:7) lazul'fā | surely is a near access | فَغَفَرْنَا لَهُ ذَٰلِكَ وَإِنَّ لَهُ عِنْدَنَا لَزُلْفَىٰ وَحُسْنَ مَآبٍ |
| (38:40:4) lazul'fā | surely is a near access | وَإِنَّ لَهُ عِنْدَنَا لَزُلْفَىٰ وَحُسْنَ مَآبٍ |
| (39:3:16) zul'fā | (in) nearness | مَا نَعْبُدُهُمْ إِلَّا لِيُقَرِّبُونَا إِلَى اللَّهِ زُلْفَىٰ |
Noun
| (11:114:5) wazulafan | and (at) the approach | وَأَقِمِ الصَّلَاةَ طَرَفَيِ النَّهَارِ وَزُلَفًا مِنَ اللَّيْلِ |
| (67:27:3) zul'fatan | approaching | فَلَمَّا رَأَوْهُ زُلْفَةً سِيئَتْ وُجُوهُ الَّذِينَ كَفَرُوا |
taken from site: http://corpus.quran.com/qurandictionary.jsp?q=zlf
my general view : zulfan - near, close to,
| The word(s) "zulfa" appears 5 time(s) in 5 verse(s) in
Quran. http://www.searchtruth.com/search.php?keyword=zulfa&chapter=&translator=6&search=1&start=0&records_display=10&search_word=all | ||
| (1) Wama
amwalukum wala awladukum biallatee tuqarribukum AAindana zulfa illa man amana waAAamila salihan faolaika lahum
jazao alddiAAfi bima AAamiloo wahum fee alghurufati aminoona ( سورة سبأ , Saba, Chapter #34, Verse #37) | ||
| (2) Faghafarna
lahu thalika wainna lahu AAindana lazulfa
wahusna maabin ( سورة ص , Sad, Chapter #38, Verse #25) | ||
| (3) Wainna lahu
AAindana lazulfa wahusna maabin ( سورة ص , Sad, Chapter #38, Verse #40) | ||
| (4) Ala lillahi
alddeenu alkhalisu waallatheena ittakhathoo min doonihi awliyaa ma naAAbuduhum
illa liyuqarriboona ila Allahi zulfa inna
Allaha yahkumu baynahum fee ma hum feehi yakhtalifoona inna Allaha la yahdee man
huwa kathibun kaffarun ( سورة الزمر , Az-Zumar, Chapter #39, Verse #3) | ||
| (5) Falamma
raawhu zulfatan seeat wujoohu allatheena
kafaroo waqeela hatha allathee kuntum bihi taddaAAoona ( سورة الملك , Al-Mulk, Chapter #67, Verse #27)
|
Saturday, 21 July 2012
Ramadan and fasting 2
As it turns out the timing given by the mosque here are out of sync.. as i checked online and had different times re fajr times and sunset..
i used as comparison http://www.gaisma.com/en/dir/gb-country.html for sunset and dawn times and this is far off from the ones in the central mosque??
i also checked myself this morning and as far as my knowledge is, it is in sync with the web searches that i used..
so a bit of my worry is taken off my shoulder as its means fasting begins around 4am for where i am and ends around 9:45pm..
so today i tried woke up to eat a meal of porridge and milk and loads loads water..
right now i have a big big headache and i have 4 hours to go.. i don't know if i can last that long though..
my milk supply feels funny now, i was able to pump 120mls this morning before going out and in the afternoon baby ate direct from source.. this evening at around 5pm i could only manage about 60 mls when pumping.. i don't know why? given that i have hardly expressed 60mils unless when i first tried the pumping??
but i will monitor it and see how it goes..
also i was able to read some info on http://www.babycenter.com.ph/baby/breastfeeding/breastfeed-during-ramadan-fast/
on another note... My Lord i need help from thee.. for i am having those feelings again..i don't know what to do i don't know how to deal with it..
When he cries and anguishes, i feel like killing myself.. I don't know what to do to help him stop crying.
I know all he can do - communication wise is to cry, he wants to eat he will cry, he wants to sleep he will cry, he wants to fart he will cry.. but some cries are ok for me to deal with but at times when i go into this low mood and he cries, i feel like death is approaching and dying myself.
i remember Mr Lord.. Abide with me, fast falls the eventide, the darkness deepens, Lord with me abide.. O help of the helpless, Abide with me
i used as comparison http://www.gaisma.com/en/dir/gb-country.html for sunset and dawn times and this is far off from the ones in the central mosque??
i also checked myself this morning and as far as my knowledge is, it is in sync with the web searches that i used..
so a bit of my worry is taken off my shoulder as its means fasting begins around 4am for where i am and ends around 9:45pm..
so today i tried woke up to eat a meal of porridge and milk and loads loads water..
right now i have a big big headache and i have 4 hours to go.. i don't know if i can last that long though..
my milk supply feels funny now, i was able to pump 120mls this morning before going out and in the afternoon baby ate direct from source.. this evening at around 5pm i could only manage about 60 mls when pumping.. i don't know why? given that i have hardly expressed 60mils unless when i first tried the pumping??
but i will monitor it and see how it goes..
also i was able to read some info on http://www.babycenter.com.ph/baby/breastfeeding/breastfeed-during-ramadan-fast/
on another note... My Lord i need help from thee.. for i am having those feelings again..i don't know what to do i don't know how to deal with it..
When he cries and anguishes, i feel like killing myself.. I don't know what to do to help him stop crying.
I know all he can do - communication wise is to cry, he wants to eat he will cry, he wants to sleep he will cry, he wants to fart he will cry.. but some cries are ok for me to deal with but at times when i go into this low mood and he cries, i feel like death is approaching and dying myself.
i remember Mr Lord.. Abide with me, fast falls the eventide, the darkness deepens, Lord with me abide.. O help of the helpless, Abide with me
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