Saturday, 21 July 2012

Ramadan and fasting 2

As it turns out the timing given by the mosque  here are out of sync.. as i checked online and had different times re fajr times and sunset..
 i used as comparison  http://www.gaisma.com/en/dir/gb-country.html for sunset and dawn times and this is far off from the ones in the central mosque??
i also checked myself this  morning and as far as my knowledge is, it is in sync with the web searches that i used..
 so a bit of my worry is taken off my shoulder as its means fasting begins around 4am for where i am and ends around 9:45pm..
 so today i tried woke up  to eat a meal of porridge and milk and loads loads water..
  right now i have a big big headache and i have 4 hours to go.. i don't know if i can last that long though..
  my milk supply feels funny now, i was able to pump 120mls this morning before going out and in the afternoon baby ate direct from source.. this evening at around 5pm i could only manage about 60 mls when pumping.. i don't know why? given that i have hardly expressed 60mils unless when  i first tried the pumping??
 but  i will monitor it and see how it goes..

 also i was able to read some info on http://www.babycenter.com.ph/baby/breastfeeding/breastfeed-during-ramadan-fast/

on another note... My Lord i need help from thee.. for i am having those feelings again..i don't know what to do i don't know  how to deal with it..
When he cries  and anguishes, i feel like killing myself.. I don't know what to do to help him stop crying.
I know all he can do - communication wise is to cry, he wants to eat he will cry, he wants to sleep he will cry, he wants to fart he will cry.. but some cries are ok for me to deal with but at times when i go into this low mood and he cries, i feel  like death is approaching and dying myself.

 i remember Mr Lord.. Abide with me, fast falls the eventide, the darkness deepens, Lord with me abide.. O help of the helpless, Abide with me

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