Ramadan and breastfeeding

My Lord i am at a crossroads right now.
I need your help  and advice.
How do i reconcile an issue of breastfeeding and Ramadan.
I know that i would prefer to fast, not in the least because the hardship will remind my soul of staying true to God, but also because the easy option for me will make me feel like i am skiving off.

 i remember last year when i was pregnant and i did not do Ramadan.. i intend to fast the days back.. as yet i have not had the chance to do it.. laziness i reckon and being nonchalant about it.. the option was there to ransom myself by feeding a poor person.. but i don't know any poor person.. who do i feed, the option was given to me to send money back home for feeding as they are generally considered to be poor there.. but i felt this was a cheats way of doing this as the money i would send will be far far less than if i found someone here.. I would rather find someone here that i can feed with the same food that i eat.. hopefully they will eat as i do.. but any hows, i can only feed then that which i can afford any case..
  Regardless of it, i am still yet to fast it all back.

this time around, its the issue of breastfeeding and fasting.
this years fasting is about 19-20 hours... i am considering how this will affect my milk supply as i am breastfeeding my baby constantly..
 i don't know how to do it my Lord.. I am already falling short of my obligations as i get more tired, baby needs my attention, and i am lacking in my duties to thee..

 i am afraid that 20 hours of not eating/not drinking for 29-30 days will impinge on my supply of milk and as i have been breastfeeding i don't want to loose the milk supply that i have.
 to be honest i don't know if it would only that i have been told and i have read milk supply is a use it or loose it sort of thing.

 then again i have to contend that we break fast at around 10pm and resume fast at around 2.15am.. this in effect given me about 4-5 hours to re-hydrate and eat... and i don't know if i can sustain this for the whole 30 days.

suggestions have been put to me to fast one day and not fast the next.. which seems a good plan as it will give my body time to rest and re-hydrate so in essence i will do 30 days of fasting over a period of 2 months.. which as i  note this down seems to be a good idea.

the other option  i was given my friends would be to fast but allow myself to drink water to re-hydrate myself.. to help my breast supply.... this i consider is beating about the bush.. you either fast or you don't fast.. there is no(for me) applying certain rules to suit ones situation especially when those rules don't exist.. its either fast or don't fast.. not saying i will fast and still drink but not eat, but then again..the Most Gracious alone knows our intentions and the hardships we face and it is to him we all must answer to for our actions.

The other  option given to me was to fast but to break my fast earlier i.e start fasting around 5am and break around 7pm.. to be honest if these were the  time constraints of fasting for this year i would gladly be able to do the Ramadan and will not have any issues as the time for not eating is not that bad... and i would have ample time to eat and re-hydrate to help and replenish me for the next day.. but my issues with this is as per the above option...  i don't subscribe at present to making up rules for ones self i.e cutting time to fast.. which is not something that is in the Quran..

A friend advised me that  the nutritional value of breast milk will not diminish cause of fasting... which is a good news  but i am not sure about  the availability of milk...

 i intend to express milk for baby to have whilst i am at work.. and i know that expressing milk at intervals throughout the day will help with supply.. i fear though that i will get more fore milk than hind milk...

 all thorough this thinking is the fact that i can feed my baby with formula milk.. but if i resort to formula milk  and i forgo the breast milk  the supply process will dry up and that is it..

I prefer to breastfeed my baby for as long as i can  - in my mind this is about 1 year but nevertheless.. man proposes and God disposes...
 so therein lies my delima..

SD says i should not fast and he cited the verse for me 2:184

Ayyaman maAAdoodatin faman kana minkum mareedan aw AAala safarin faAAiddatun min ayyamin okhara waAAala allatheena yuteeqoonahu fidyatun taAAamu miskeenin faman tatawwaAAa khayran fahuwa khayrun lahu waan tasoomoo khayrun lakum in kuntum taAAlamoona


RK edition: Specific days (are designated for fasting); if one is ill or traveling, an equal number of other days may be substituted. Those who can fast, but with great difficulty, may substitute feeding one poor person for each day of breaking the fast. If one volunteers (more righteous works), it is better. But fasting is the best for you, if you only knew.
YA edition: (Fasting) for a fixed number of days; but if any of you is ill, or on a journey, the prescribed number (Should be made up) from days later. For those who can do it (With hardship), is a ransom, the feeding of one that is indigent. But he that will give more, of his own free will,- it is better for him. And it is better for you that ye fast, if ye only knew.
PM edition: A limited number of days. Whoever of you is ill or traveling, then the same number from different days; and as for those who can do so but with difficulty, they may redeem by feeding the needy. And whoever does good voluntarily, then it is better for him. And if you fast it is better for you if you knew.
RK is Rashad Khalifa, YA is Yusuf Ali, PG is Progressive Muslim..

So my Lord i am in your hands entirely as ever and i feel it more than ever..
i need your guidance to choose the right thing, the right way to help me redeem my soul before thee..
if i can get assurance  and peace of mind from thee somehow that my milk supply will not diminish, that the quality will be great for my child then my lord, i will try to fast this Ramadan.. and i will suffer the hardships that the Ramadan will bring.. with this thought in my head i am reminded of somewhere i read of the issue of asking for miracles to be brought forth before doing anything.. but God this is not my intention in the slightest.. You are a Lord of Miracles.. this much i can testify to, for in my life alone is a miracle time and time again... and i do not mean any disrespect because You are a God that provides.. i mean to ask that i beseech Thee to provide for my child through the milk that You have produced in me.
Its like i tell my child,., that  in my view, breast milk is equivalent to "Manna and Quail" that You provided to the Israelite during their sojourn in the wilderness.. it is what You have considered as the best form of food and we should be grateful that we receive it..

but whilst i have these thoughts in my head.. i know that  you are the one who has given me the child, He belongs to you, He is dedicated to you.. should you want to take him.. you have every right to do so...
i said in the beginning that  i do not want any child or family member or husband or friend to take me away from thee o Lord that if they intend or want to do so.. please take that person away from or/me away from them...
Lord help me to make the right decision for me..
Help me to redeem myself, my soul and gain a place with thee in Paradise..
Help me O lord with my milk supply and best quality milk
Help my child tooo, to sleep by himself without fuss
Help me to always remember thee, never forget thee, always remember to pray, to praise, to glorify to exalt, to sing with joy and with remembrance to Thee o Lord...

My Lord, you are God, Creator of the world, You have decisive control over all things in my life and in this world.. For anything to be done you but only have to will it and it is.. this is the Kun fa ya kun that i read in the Quran.., So my lord I beseech thee to please Kun fa ya kun for these issues and more in my life and redeem me, accept me in they service to worship and praise thee.