Thank You

At this very instant i will say to  thee my God - Thank you.
 i have just finished watching season of good wife.
 the joy in my heart when i was watching them -
 i started watching when i was away having the boy
 when i was soooo desolate and alone
 when my life felt like it was going to end
 when i felt like - God what kind of a human being is this -  no emotion, no tenderness
i was sooo down and felt soo alone
 the joy i found at watching the programme was my little escape from the hell that i felt i was going through.

 that and  drop dead diva..

you see God i know you are a listening God, i know you are a working God
 so just for the joy that i am back here - and the occasional peace of mind that i feel - that i knew when i asked Lord create for me an escape( there is a part in the Quran 65:2 t:hat says God will create an escape for you if you ask him - or something like that - this is my own view/how i want to understand it)

 i felt like running away - but it felt like that was the coward way - i was ready to throw in the towel but God kept me strong... i was ready to kill myself.. God showed me some kindness and he kept my mind sane.

 for that God - Thank you..