Assurance

This week has been highs and lows for me.
My boy scalded himself wid cocoa.. He went into mums room to try lift a cup of cocoa.. Jus like an instant he was with us and making his food and the next I heard crying. God why is is not possible that we can shield our loved ones from pain and distress?
He cried for all but 1 minute and was back to his monkey climbing.. The next day blisters on his thigh and it looks a lot worse but he just does not act that way.
All the blisters burst now and am jus waiting for the skin colouration to go back.
And there I was telling you lord that how unappreciative I am and this happened to my boy..maybe its my fault and my punishment for being unappreciative.
I get that children like to explore but can they not explore with safety.. If I could take his burn I would and I went to u lord asking for ur assurance on the safety and wellbeing of my children. You who gave them to me and so effortlessly looked after then and kept then safe will continue to keep them safe. You lord who kept then through strife whilst in the womb and brought them out in one piece, you lord who cared for them.. I take your assurance Lord of their guranteed safety and protection and I take this assurance lord because u are the one Who has kept me safe and protected me all this long. I ask because you lord are my God and my protector, my master and my creator. I take this assurance from you lord because I want to worship you because I worship u alone my lord.. You God of abraham my God of ages now, today, yesterday and forever... You lord who have cared for me and granted me safety.. I take and ask this assurance from you lord for my children.. I am truly grateful for all ur help and guidance and care upon us and Long may it continue. Blessed art thou my lord the lord of the universe
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For granted

My dear lord, today I had the thought that I take for granted ur care and blessings on me and I have to admit that its true.
I take for granted that u so very well look after me and provide for me and I am sorry that I do.
I guess because I have alays been assured of ur care I assume that it will always be like that. Every care and provision u provide for me is a blessings and I am very grateful for it.
Yes I find that I am not able to thank you as before with meditation and praising ur name at night.. But I will try. To go back to doing this.. I don't want to loose your love and care and I want you to care for me always.
You have given me one wonderful child and the other is on the way so many a grateful I am to you for ur blessings. You are keeping us safe and healthy and that too is a blessing.. God from my heart THANK YOU because w/o you I would be lost W/o ur care I would be in despair.. Thank you Lord for everything
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Thanks

When I think of all the blessings I have enjoyed... I realise how good u r to me..
THANK YOU MY LORD...
Let me forever be appreciative of the blessings u have bestowed on me and allow me righteousness in this life and hereafter.. Keep me praising you always
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Careful of arrogance

It is very easy to be proud and arrogant at the blessings God does bestow on one. It is very easy to become complacent in thinking/assuming that this will be for you all the time. It is very easy to think that with all the blessings it must mean you are in the right and others are wrong...
God cause me not to be arrogant but keep me humble and grateful for all your care and love. Cause me not to be proud but make in me gentle that I may appreciate more and with unbounded gratitude for thee for your care and blessings on me.
Help me to you that I may understand and worship you, that I may glorify and praise you.
Help me to be charitable that I may share in the joys and blessings from you onto me.

Because I have been given much I too must give.....because of thy great bounty Lord each day I live.. I shall di ide my gifts from Thee, with every brother that I see- who has a need of help from me.

Guide me to thee o. Lord and help me in this life. Grant me peace and contentment.. Help me to know you to worship you to praise you. Never let me forget you O lord that I may forever be in the compounds of your grace.
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financial matters

the other day i was propositioned
 the use of my name to facilitate buying a house.
 i have thought long and hard on it and it i snot something that i am interested in.

 coincidentally, a day after i got a call from my father who advised he was leaving our family home because  - he had bought the house in his best friends name - at a time when he was in a position  of power and could not have the land trace back to him. he never changed the name of th house - and it turns out that so many years later about over 30 yrs the friend( according to my father) is planning to sell the premises he has build behind his back - because his name is on the deed. - i am suspicious about this whole thing to be honest as i have my ideas - but the are deep found with my mistrust and suspicions of family members... why after so many years would this person want to go behind my dad to sell the premises... there was opportunity to do it back then so why now..

 if anything defaults -  as my name is on the papers i will be implicated - not that anything is going to default -i dont know this.. but it is my view it is  not a win win arrangement.

Thanks and help my Lord

Dear Lord, it is a great joy when I feed this boy and he eagerly eats what I cook.
This I recognise as a blessing from you. And I thank you for this opportunity.
I remember when I was anxious at weaning and how I asked for your help and sure enough you made the process relatively easy. For me. With your blessing of the childminder u let him fall things into place.
Right now I put before thee the next stage of speech development and potty training and I ask for your inspiration and help with it. As I don't know what and how to do this please help me to help him along..

As you have bestowed on me the joy of another, I ask in advance again for this one all the stages we have to go through and ask for your ease and blessing upon this child too.. Grant me a healthy ablebodied child my Lord, one with your inspiration and guidance inbedded in their heart and mind and head. Grant my children righteousness my Lord.. Let then know you and understand you.. Let then accept and worship you..Let me be intune to my children, help me to understand their needs and wants.. to be responsive to them, help me to show them a good example guided by truth and righteousness.. Help me to be the best I can be for them and more.. Guide us all in your path that we may worship and glorify thy great name.
Blessed art thou my Lord the Most gracious Providing Lord.
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Praise to the Lord

Praise to the Lord, the Almighty,
  the King of creation!
Let my soul, praise Him, for He is thy
  health and salvation!
    All ye who hear,
Now to His temple draw near;
Sing now in glad adoration!

Praiseto the Lord, who o’er all
  things so wondrously reigneth,
Who, as on wings of an eagle,
  uplifteth, sustaineth me
    Hast thou not seen
How my desires all have been
Granted in what He ordaineth?

Praise to the Lord, who hath fearfully,
  wondrously, made me!
My Health hath vouchsafed and, when
  heedlessly falling, hath stayed me.
    What need or grief
Ever hath failed of relief?
Wings of His mercy did shade me.

Praise to the Lord, who doth prosper
 my work and defend me,
Who from the heavens the streams of
  His mercy doth send me.
    Ponder anew
What the Almighty can do,
Who with His love doth befriend thee.

Praise to the Lord! Oh, let all that
  is in me adore Him!
All that hath life and breath, come
  now with praises before Him!
    Let the Amen
Sound from His people again;
Gladly for aye I adore Him.

Source: http://www.hymnal.net/hymn.php/h/166#ixzz2faytXSRg

 at this time in this very instant  in my life - I praise the L lord for thou art good and kind and merciful. I praise thy name  with every cell in my body and i say Most Gracious art thou O lord - of my fathers and of ancient days. My Lord who is steadfast in his mercy and love who does care and provide for Me. My faithful Lord who does protect and shelter me - Be Thou Glorified O lord.

double

 i had a dream the other  day that i was going to have twins.. i was no going to tell anyone.. but on one hand i was elated and then on another i was soooo sad and scared.
Lord grant me a healthy child.
 these things we take for granted i know.
we always assume that nothing  ontowards happens till you hear about it in the news or someone you know.
 but i beg of thee my Lord grant me a healthy child.
 bestow on this child your love and care your blessings and support
 Grant me a righteous child dear Lord.
i will look forward to a day in the future when me and my children can congregate together fo rthe purposes of praising thee oh Lord - that we may sit and share the wonders of your glory and blessings in our lives - that we may give thanks and praise.
help me o lord and guide me to be the nest, show the best example that   i can
 let me lead by example and action not just words.
guide this child o lord  -
 i have no choice but to dedicate onto you as with before
 my ramadan miracle - how u  enable is still a wonder and amazement  to me but i thank you immensely for it.
 God  - my provider  and saviour
effortlessly you have been looking after one and now with another i beg of thee  - loving care, support and blessing on this one too.
Llahu khayru razziqin - God the best Provider.
 Blessed  art thou O lord, Lord - Lord of my fathers for ever and ever - of today, yesterday and always.

Appreciation

 st points in my life when i achieve something i never thought i would, i like to write a piece and today is no different.
 God - i thank you - did i ever think i would reach this stage - never  at all - did i think i could be free of it - no.

 it is still an issue -  the desire to have things - not knowing what is actually good for me or not.
 but with your grace and blessing - I will surely overcome it.

 so today i closed my RAC
 after about  almost 9 years - today i am doing what is right.

 i guess i put myself on this path because i never really understood money and its effect on my ego and desire.
 i always wanted what others wanted - i never wanted to be outdone - the people i looked up to were flashing at me and i wanted to stay on the same par - albeit as legally as i could
 so if someone could have "that something" so could i.

 i set myself on the path in that the friends i  had who influenced me in the wrong path -  my misguided loyalty at thinking people were my friends when in fact i was their sucker -
 friends who cannot tell you what for what - or at least tell you their truth or common truth/sense - are not friends at all.
 it  has  taken me a very very long time to realise this.
when i was someone i knew i was not just to please so  called friends.
 when i did  things i should not do just because i wanted to be part of a friend group  so i had people i could talk to/ socialise with - Even when i knew deep down it was wrong.
 I closed of my conscience for social interaction -
 i was  sooo lonely and soooo glad of a friendly word/affection i mistook that for trust and good intentions.

 but God willing we learn from our mistakes and God willing  i will learn  by Gods grace i will learn.

so God - a big resounding THANK YOU - that you have enabled me to be able  to reach this stage in my life - to be able to understand why i was in that stage. - My Lord thank you.

Blessed are thou My Lord of all ages and of all times. who does bestow upon my his grace and blessings.
 thank You

Translation

there was something i wrote before(alaa Llahi) in relation to my views on RK translation and  i can confirm that i do not want to be associated with its reproduction in any form /of  giving people to use as a source/truth to  Gods message.
 it is my  view that the translation is not perfect.  and my no means do i agree that it is an authorised translation from God.

The translation itself is not complete - words are not translated or at best are  omitted in translation.

 it is my view that this  attempt of translation is very much the same as the new testament - when someone trys to translate using the language of the time.

 You cannot use RK translation as a reference for finding words and its uses in the quran because the author is not consistent in this regard.

 what it is is what i will call it is n interpretation from RK as to what the verses mean.
 he has interpreted the verses - IT is  his viw  - this is what the verses mean.

 i will very much advise everyone/anyone wanting to study the quran - by all means it is an easy read - but easy is not necessarily the best ..
 find other  translations and read them to.
one is always weary of quoting verbatim that this is what  a verse means.. because in reality the translations is the translators interpretation of what such a verse means and it is not a source of law.

 for those who chose to translate from the RK version into other religions - i say this is poo poo -  because what they will do in my view is to translate from the english - from an interpretation -  making the same mistakes of omitted words and order of arabic.

 but as with all things - i hold to the belief that we all get different meanings of the Quran and it is God who is the teacher and will direct  us to the best meaning for each and our individual circumstances - our limits and our graces.

May God guide us all.

Appreciation

Appreciation modupe Onibu ore Baba gba ope mi.
Appreciation modupe Onibu ore Baba gba ope mi.

Eniyan ko ni Oloru mi O
Eniyan ko o ni olorun mi

Eda l'on gbagbe- Oluwa mi ko gbagbe enikan kan. Eniyan ko ni olorun mi.

Appreciation modupe Onibu ore Baba gba ope mi.

Blessed is thy name O lord, God of my fathers forever and ever.
Blessed are Thou who in your heighest height does bestow blessings and mercy upon me.
I am forever grateful for ur help and support, your care and love which unfolds in many ways that I don't expect. The blessings I see and that which I don't see.
And yes Lord it is very easy to take it for granted but let me say now in public, that You MostGracious are good to me and I am grateful for all that you do for me and what you are to me- My lord of all ages, my support and guide.
Help me to thee O lord that I may know and understand you.. Help me attain righteousness and to hold steadfast onto Thee.
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Despair

I haven't had a chance to speak to you oh lord..
Sometimes I feel so weary like the weight of the world is on mm
Despair that's what it is.. I get into a state of despair and I don't know why.
Lord I reach out to you to lift me out of this mood. Lift me out and keep me strong.. God I am calling on you my defender and protector.. Help me and save me from the depths
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Give thanks

Today I give thanks to my Creator, the Most Gracious, for the life of the boy. Today he is 18months.
I thank thee O lord for the wonderful care and love that you have on him. I am grateful and feel soooooo blessed to be him mother and I ask thee for good health for both of us, forgiveness of our sins and your grace and mercy on us daily in this life and the hereafter.
God I have asked of thee secretly and I will ask of thee in public that you place your wisdom and guidance and love in the heart of my children. That you show them and guide them to you, that you help them to walk through this life heads held high, confidant in your care, love and blessings. Help them to see your truth and give them a timely understanding of your creations.
Guide then against darkness and instill in them your light which illuminates and clears all things.

Help me too my lord to show then, to give then a good example to follow, don't let me play lip service but let me show them with conviction and action. Guide me to you oh lord and keep me with you, to worship glorify, praise and exalt thee always each day in this life and the hereafter.
My lord I have believed in thee and I trust in thee as my Lord and master. You are my Most Gracious Lord, my lord and only God. Blessed is thy Name master of all Glory, worthy of all Praise.
I thank thee and praise thy great name for your goodness, kindness and blessings in my life each day, that which I see and that I don't. I thank you for your care and love and guidance. And I ask that may it continue each time each day, in this life and the hereafter.
For all praise is yours
All authority kingship and glory
In this life and the next
Be thou glorified my lord
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When to end fast - from when the white is distinguishable from dark at dawn till Night - not sunset

 it is the popular assumption that we end fasting at sunset..
 but  on reading the Quran - i fint that it is incorrect this assumption.

 in relation to fasting the arabic read from the Quran

2:187
Ohilla lakum laylata alssiyami alrrafathu ila nisaikum hunna libasun lakum waantum libasun lahunna AAalima Allahu annakum kuntum takhtanoona anfusakum fataba AAalaykum waAAafa AAankum faalana bashiroohunna waibtaghoo ma kataba Allahu lakum wakuloo waishraboo hatta yatabayyana lakumu alkhaytu alabyadu mina alkhayti alaswadi mina alfajri thumma atimmoo alssiyama ila allayli wala tubashiroohunna waantum AAakifoona fee almasajidi tilka hudoodu Allahi fala taqrabooha kathalika yubayyinu Allahu ayatihi lilnnasi laAAallahum yattaqoona 

 the red bold is in relation to what i want to discuss..

حِلَّ لَكُمْ لَيْلَةَ الصِّيَامِ الرَّفَثُ إِلَى نِسَائِكُمْ هُنَّ لِبَاسٌ لَكُمْ وَأَنْتُمْ لِبَاسٌ لَهُنَّ عَلِمَ اللَّهُ أَنَّكُمْ كُنْتُمْ تَخْتَانُونَ أَنْفُسَكُمْ فَتَابَ عَلَيْكُمْ وَعَفَا عَنْكُمْ فَالْآنَ بَاشِرُوهُنَّ وَابْتَغُوا مَا كَتَبَ اللَّهُ لَكُمْ وَكُلُوا وَاشْرَبُوا حَتَّى يَتَبَيَّنَ لَكُمُ الْخَيْطُ الْأَبْيَضُ مِنَ الْخَيْطِ الْأَسْوَدِ مِنَ الْفَجْرِ ثُمَّ أَتِمُّوا الصِّيَامَ إِلَى اللَّيْلِ وَلَا تُبَاشِرُوهُنَّ وَأَنْتُمْ عَاكِفُونَ فِي الْمَسَاجِدِ تِلْكَ حُدُودُ اللَّهِ فَلَا تَقْرَبُوهَا كَذَلِكَ يُبَيِّنُ اللَّهُ آيَاتِهِ لِلنَّاسِ لَعَلَّهُمْ يَتَّقُونَ

Please note there is the alif missing at the beginning of this arabic paste.

in my  view translation is as thus on the red bolded parts - 

وَكُلُوا

wakulū

And eat

 

وَاشْرَبُوا

wa-ish'rabū

and drink

ḥattā

until

يَتَبَيَّنَ

yatabayyana

becomes distinct

lakumu

to you

الْخَيْطُ

l-khayṭu

the thread

الْأَبْيَضُ

l-abyaḍu

[the] white

mina

from

الْخَيْطِ

l-khayṭi

the thread

الْأَسْوَدِ

l-aswadi

[the] black

mina

of

الْفَجْرِ

l-fajri

[the] dawn.

thumma

Then

أَتِمُّوا

atimmū

complete

الصِّيَامَ

l-ṣiyāma

the fast

إِلَى

ilā

till

اللَّيْلِ

al-layli

the night.

 it is clear that sunset is not the night - at least for it it is ..
 night begins when sunset ends..
 so forthwith - end of any fasting is the start of night..
God be praised for helping me to see and to understand.

 also on some other issues based on a discussion with my friend today - sighting the moon is not a requisite in the Quran for the start of ramadan - i could not find anything in relation to sighting the moon - sighting the moon comes from one of the many hadiths  some people attribute to muhammed/his companions -i dont know how accurate that is over time.

 nevertheless i made a concise decision not to follow hadith over Quran.. Quran is from God and when else is there that is best?

http://www.quranse.org/QueryEngine/index.php?Cmd=BS&mv=0&BL=en&SearchQuery=2%3A18

InshaAllah bidafhli llaha wa bi rahmatihi.

Bifadhlillaha wa birahmatihi...
With Gods grace and his mercy.

I like this phrase
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