Priorities

Life is all about choices, "what to do", "how do i do", "what to say", "when to say" bla bla bla

choices - in my view is about making priorities, those things that are important to you, nourishing and developing people, interests that are dear to you.

most important priority is God, i reckon this should be the same for everybody else - establishing contact regularly, trying to be the best that you can be for God, for your soul and for the hereafter.
then i reckon family comes next - your loved ones, making time to know them, spend time with them, be there for them,
then i reckon life - this is all about your interests, your passions, living life, enjoying God's bounties.

choices differs, priorities differs......
so what to do when you cant reconcile choices and priorities??

i reckon, that there is no such thing as this, because its is all about tolerance, understanding that what is high on your list may not necessarily be high on another persons list - likewise what you consider to be important may be easily dismissed by another.

but then again i reckon that there needs to be an overhanging balance - or a give way point - for , which is common ground - priorities need to be within range of themselves - however the order of grouping may be different - but not tooooo different.

this life is weird MG, i wont lie - trying to understand it and make sense of it whilst at the same time, being true to myself, to thee... i guess as frank sinatra sings it - " Thats Life!!

MG

MG so many things are runing through my mind, some amplified, some stark realites and some a figment of situaitons.
in all circumstances Lord, keep me tied to thee always.

Nothing but it is still something

i guess in life there are 3 ways to look a situation.
There is my way
There is your way ... and
There is the way it is.

as such there are 3 ways to describe an activity

there is getting to know you
there is nothing

and there is nothing but getting to know you.

comme si comme sa.

then again in life it is not about my way, or your way... it is about the way it is.
the way it is is the fairest amongst all. it is the truth tht we must all strive to acknowledge and accept wether we like it or not...
Truth is reality and accepting reality is being in the present.

Subbuhum Quddusun - All glory be to the Most High Lord

Subbuhun Quddusun
Rabbul Malaikatu wa ruhu Alaa -Al-Arshi Istawa
La dafi 'a lima qada wa la mani'a lima a'taa
Yaf'allu man yuridu fi mulkihi
Wa yahkumu fi khalqihi bima yashau
Wa huwa ala kulli shayin Qadir.

Most Glorious The Holiest
Lord of the angels and the spirit - Who is firmly established in His Throne
No one hinders what You(God) have decreed and no one prevents what You(God) give
You (God) do what You(God) will in Your dominion and You(God) rule Your creation with whatever You(God) will. You (God) are Omnipotent.

this is what is on my lips tonght...
Most Exalted are You my Lord - the one true God, there is no other God but Thee. Be thou glofiied Most Gracious Lord.

my trust is in thee

MG,
in amidst the crazy events of today, i can see a blessing.
and i am reminded of solomons prayer - my lord, allow me to be appreciative of the blessings that you have bestowed on me and to do the righteous works that pleases thee. Admit us by thy mercy into the company of your righteous servants
i am truly grateful for monsieur, my lord, i was touched by his email of kind words to strenghten my spirit - i did not expect that - it made me proud and glad for the leader that you have made him and given me.

in some ways it also makes me sad, because i want to be with him i want to be his wife, i want us to live together but i dont know how/when this will come about

Yes my lord, it scares me but i have said that i am willing to give it all up and go away to be with him, to live under your guidance with peace and security.
but my greatest fear is that i dont want to be a financial obligation to him.
I am already a financial obligation to myself through my wrong actions but thanfully and with your help i am slowly removing myself from that.

remember God, many a times have i asked you crying to thee, in my times of despair - to remove me from this place, i have asked thee to give me an escape, and in some ways you have provided me with it, but i cant see the window that is open for me.

i guess Lord it is patience - and madamme tutu knows that she is very impatient - but by thy grace will learn the patience.

tonight my lord, my praise goes to thee as always - more than ever - for i am grateful for your support and help and guidance. and i ask for thy forgiveness, ease in time of difficulty, patience, determination to do that which must be done - to do the right thing -
i ask for us your support, and help and assistane, your blessings and direction - to make things easy for us, to guide us and keep our family together in thy path.

i am going to bed MG, as always my trust is in thee - Most Gracious, Exalted Lord.

For all praise is yours, All Authority, Kingship and Glory. In this life and in the hereafter, Be thou Glorified Most Gracious Lord.

accdnt

it is very easy to forget that God is in control.
When bad things happen or things we wished wouldn't happen, happen, the mind amplifies the situation
You get a flash in ur mind as if you can time rewind and do things differently.
You think if I hadn't done this then maybe this would not have happened. But we forget who is in real charge.
You think maybe that there is this force is out to get me maybe this that that that.but in my case God willing it wiil be ok with no adverse effects, no claims against me now or in future.

I could lie and deny fault, but that is not what the scripture teaches me or what God guides me to. I am at fault yes I accept and agree, should they claim fraudulently then it is for their own soul and judgement rests with God on this.
God knows what I dont knowand why the accident occured, of that I am clear.
What matters most is that I maintaiin righteousness annd serve God as best as I can.
Adversly its my claim history and its funny cos I will renew it next month. Soo in a way I know this was meant to happen, gw it will be well.

Monsieur

MG thank you for Monsieur.
that is the thought on my lips this evening
This is the thanks in my heart for thee O Lord this Night.
Most Gracious, Thank you for Monsieur.
Guide us O Lord in thy Path
Keep us devoted to thee
Strenghten our faith
Increase in our understanding
Grant us Patience, Love, trust for each other.

Most Gracious, as I have always asked of thee - One family, under thy guidane, Devoted to thee alone, worshipping thee alone,

Be thou glorified Most Gracious Lord

let the farting begin.... phew!!

And so it starts...

the human body is such an amazing organism..

it is a testament to the ingenuity of its Creator...

IT always amazes me each time,

so smelly farts, and pain!!! my belly says release the thunder!!!!

This Morning My Lord...

i am inspired by solomons Prayer in the scripture (38:35) this morning (and i have just realised something very very funny - and i laugh secretly - i seek refuge with thee My God in all circumstances in life and death)

the verse reads that solomon prayed

RK - He said, "My Lord, forgive me, and grant me a kingship never attained by anyone else. You are the Grantor."

Yusuf Ali - He said, "O my Lord! Forgive me, and grant me a kingdom which, (it may be), suits not another after me: for Thou art the Grantor of Bounties (without measure).

Pickthal - He said: My Lord! Forgive me and bestow on me sovereignty such as shall not belong to any after me. Lo! Thou art the Bestower.

Shakir -He said: My Lord! do Thou forgive me and grant me a kingdom which is not fit for (being inherited by) anyone after me;

Sher Ali - He said, `O my Lord, grant me forgiveness and bestow on me a kingdom that may not be inherited by anyone after me; surely, Thou art the Great Bestower.'

"Progressive Muslims" - He said: "My Lord, forgive me, and grant me a kingship never attained by anyone else. You are the Grantor."

(note with great interest that all the translations seem to concu with each other)

then i started to think - solomon asked for Kingship never attained by another...and i remembered the other part in the scripture where it goes along the line of "" Above every knowledgeable one, there is one who is even more knowledgeable"""


then i think inwardly to myself and i say - That God, i dont want kingship,sovereignity or authority... i dont desire such things for i can never handle them .... My Lord i desire from thee what i prayed/said/asked/implored to thee this morning...Gw you will provide and grant me as you have granted your servant solomon, and Gw just like your servant i will remember to hold fast onto thee, worship and praise thee always...

i am also reminded and inspired by Job (38:41) - who in times of hardship and Pain - went to his Lord... and this is a trait that i pray my Lord lets me emulate...

many a times we often forget that God is in control of everything - whatever hardship we may face, problems that we may be going through, i know we are all looking for an easy fix, we are all looking for easy escape, and unfortunately the temptation is there to seek help from other than God... but God please let us remember thee in such times, and increase in our faith and resolve to rely on thee and thee alone, to hold onto thee and thee alone, and Keeep us strong in thy path and provide us with timlely relief and ease from our difficult situation...

hmmmm

i miss you..
its hard not to count the days,
not to wonder how long this will go on for
not to hope that god willing everything will resolve and be ok...
i miss you...

a lot of it is a sacrifice from my end for all my vagrant exesses.
you see when you are young you never think of tomorrow, you never plan for tomorrow
now that tomorrow had come, you delay it because suddenly you have to plan,

if only i wasnt so carefree back in the days.. then maybe it would all be different...

but no regrets, what it is is what it is... that is how i have come to see it...
i will still hope in God and put my trust that all will be sorted God willing i just have to focus and get on with it..

it is my fault, the choices i made, the lack of regard, the excesses, the lack of self control - and now i am paying the price for it,

but i worry not because gw it willbe ok in the end.



Gw it wont be long....

inspiration

My Lord, cool my temper and make this matter easy for me- and untie a knot from my speech so that they may understand me........
Interesting.....such was Mosaes narration - we are reminded in the scriptures......

i seek refuge with God

you know, in each day i agree more and more that everything is in Gods control..

this evening i saw something i was not expected to see and it make me feel somehow..

i am trying to explore those feelings - because ordinarily i try to understand why i had them - feelings of exclusion, of missing out, envy perhaps, and i am trying to understand why....


it is all very perplexing, i saw faces that i had forgotten, and it brought back memories of before, how we all were, what we all were doing, but i guess each day too is a learning experience - to grow and develop each and everyone of us,

we all have our lives to lead, we are all so different in each our ways - God guide us to his path.

i seek refge with the Most Gracious

it was with great interest at work that i came upon this name and i decided to google it and here it is the link if interest.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yazidi

You know God be praised in all His entirety, and May his Dominion reign supreme over all that He has created..

this life interests me, it scares me, it holds me with fear and regret and i seek guidance from God to be able to walk through its many pitfals, traps, snares and walk free into the Path of the Most gracious.

Whilst it is not for me to berrate someones choice to believe whatever they choose to , or whatever they want to worship, i am rather intrigued because i have long held this notion that everything in this life is linked - the origins of our beliefs, the roots of whatever religion we want to worship through all stem from one source and through history it has been desiminated in disguise in one form or another through time the message has been lost and found and lost and found and lost and found again... we the later generations are suffering for the errors of the earlier ones .... but Lo!! there is always hope for God guides whom ever He wills. May God guide us in His path.


With every reported article in the media is always some( if we choose to believe the old adage) element of truth - how much is a matter for the person telling the story and how factual they have kept their narration..

in anycase the points to note from the article - which hold me with great interest and amazement and makes me seek refuge with the Most Gracious are -

In the Yazidi belief system, God created the world and it is now in the care of a Heptad of seven Holy Beings, often known as Angels or heft sirr (the Seven Mysteries). Preeminent among these is Tawûsê Melek (frequently known as "Melek Tawus" in English publications), the Peacock Angel

They believe that God first created Tawûsê Melek from his own illumination (Ronahî ) and the other six archangels were created later. God ordered Tawûsê Melek not to bow to other beings. Then God created the other archangels and ordered them to bring him dust (Ax) from the Earth (Erd) and build the body of Adam. Then God gave life to Adam from his own breath and instructed all archangels to bow to Adam. The archangels obeyed except for Tawûsê Melek. In answer to God, Tawûsê Melek replied, "How can I submit to another being! I am from your illumination while Adam is made of dust." Then God praised him and made him the leader of all angels and his deputy on the Earth. (This likely furthers what some see as a connection to the Islamic Shaytan, as according to the Quran he too refused to bow to Adam at God's command, though in this case it is seen as being a sign of Shaytan's sinful pride.) Hence the Yazidis believe that Tawûsê Melek is the representative of God on the face of the Earth, and comes down to the Earth on the first Wednesday of Nisan (April). Yazidis hold that God created Tawûsê Melek on this day, and celebrate it as New Year's Day. Yazidis argue that the order to bow to Adam was only a test for Tawûsê Melek, since if God commands anything then it must happen. (Bibe, dibe). In other words, God could have made him submit to Adam, but gave Tawûsê Melek the choice as a test. They believe that their respect and praise for Tawûsê Melek is a way to acknowledge his majestic and sublime nature.

One of the key creation beliefs of Yazidism is that all Yazidis are descendants of Adam rather than Eve.[15] Yazidis believe that good and evil both exist in the mind and spirit of human beings. It depends on the humans, themselves, as to which they choose. In this process, their devotion to Tawûsê Melek is essential, since it was he who was given the same choice between good and evil by God, and chose the good.

Yazidis, who have much in common with the followers of Ahl-e Haqq (in western Iran), state that the world created by God was at first a pearl. It remained in this very small and enclosed state for some time (often a magic number such as forty or forty thousand years) before being remade in its current state. During this period the Heptad were called into existence, God made a covenant with them and entrusted the world to them. Besides Tawûsê Melek, members of the Heptad (the Seven), who were called into existence by God at the beginning of all things, include Şêx Adî, his companion Şêx Hasan and a group known as the Four Mysteries: Shamsadin, Fakhradin, Sajadin and Naserdin

Yazidis have five daily prayers- Nivêja berîspêdê (the Dawn Prayer), Nivêja rojhilatinê (the Sunrise Prayer), Nivêja nîvro (the Noon Prayer), Nivêja êvarî (the Afternoon Prayer), Nivêja rojavabûnê (the Sunset Prayer). - However, most Yezidis observe only two of these, the sunrise and sunset prayers.
Worshipers should turn their face toward the sun, and for the noon prayer, they should face toward Laliş. Such prayer should be accompanied by certain gestures, including kissing the rounded neck (gerîvan) of the sacred shirt (kiras). The daily prayer services must not be performed in the presence of outsiders, and are always performed in the direction of the sun. Wednesday is the holy day but Saturday is the day of rest.[18][19] There is also a three-day fast in December.


It is with interest when you learn about other people belief system - i dont care to believe in it or over think their logic, because as far as i am concerned - i only want to worship the Most Gracious - and my time can be better spent deciding how best to serve my creator and not worring too much over life /belief systems are the way they are... like I state sometmes - God knows the future and the past, no one can attain any knowledge except in accordance wiht Gods will, God is the controller of all things. He shares no Kingship with anyone, He shares no power with no one, He is God, The one and only Lord, neither did He begat nor was He begotten.. He is my Lord, Our Lord, and wether we like ti or not, accept it or not, He is Lord if the Universe... the Most Gracious be praised in this life an din the hereafter,

Period..

when its there it is a literal pain in the arse....when its not it sometimes can be

really, some have it easy - no worries no issues, just comes and goes...and some have it worse - pain, cramps, headaches

Lord I am in PAin!!!! and yes it hurts...

in a short space of time, i have been on all fours, walking about like a cat, hoping that will give relief... hmmmmm NO
i have wiggled my jubbly behind, hoping that will give relief.......hmmmmmmmm NO NO
I have eaten biscuits - hoping i will get relief, hmmmm maybe yes....but it still hurts!!!!!!!

at this stage i want to cry, i want to shout i want to scream..........ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
But all in all, in moments of weakness, pain or anguish, we remember thee O God.
body and soul we remember thee O Lord,

in every pain, is a blessing, is a provision, is a sign from the Most Gracious...

words seemingly are not able to express my thanks to thee o Lord....

Most Gracious, if i dont say it i will be doing you injustice.... not that you need any thanks from me, because you are in need of no one.

you have provided for me and i am grateful, if i dont acknowledge it , I will err against my soul.

I am tremendously grateful for the opportunity, for the chance and the courage You have given me, to do something which has somewhat eluded me for soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo many a long time.

I did not have the courage to see it through.... but MG, this month, I have finalised two goals and I am very very very grateful for this chance.

There are others, My Lord, so i pray that you provide me with the courage, the opportunity to capitalise on, and the means to do that which i must do, that which i should do, without fear of looking back, but always looking forward onto thee o Lord as my saviour and my provider.

Dear God, you have never let me down, you have been more than generous, you have been exceedingly merciful to me and my situation... so it is a big big BIG thank you Most gracious Lord for this opportunity....

Indeed i can say, hand on heart that The Lord is good. The Lord is good to me... The Lord has been good to me and by My Lord's Grace, My Lord will be good unto me.

i am grateful, thankful and i want to dance, and i will daance, and i will jubilate for Dear Lord, i am happy,
but first time for prayer......