my trust is in thee

MG,
in amidst the crazy events of today, i can see a blessing.
and i am reminded of solomons prayer - my lord, allow me to be appreciative of the blessings that you have bestowed on me and to do the righteous works that pleases thee. Admit us by thy mercy into the company of your righteous servants
i am truly grateful for monsieur, my lord, i was touched by his email of kind words to strenghten my spirit - i did not expect that - it made me proud and glad for the leader that you have made him and given me.

in some ways it also makes me sad, because i want to be with him i want to be his wife, i want us to live together but i dont know how/when this will come about

Yes my lord, it scares me but i have said that i am willing to give it all up and go away to be with him, to live under your guidance with peace and security.
but my greatest fear is that i dont want to be a financial obligation to him.
I am already a financial obligation to myself through my wrong actions but thanfully and with your help i am slowly removing myself from that.

remember God, many a times have i asked you crying to thee, in my times of despair - to remove me from this place, i have asked thee to give me an escape, and in some ways you have provided me with it, but i cant see the window that is open for me.

i guess Lord it is patience - and madamme tutu knows that she is very impatient - but by thy grace will learn the patience.

tonight my lord, my praise goes to thee as always - more than ever - for i am grateful for your support and help and guidance. and i ask for thy forgiveness, ease in time of difficulty, patience, determination to do that which must be done - to do the right thing -
i ask for us your support, and help and assistane, your blessings and direction - to make things easy for us, to guide us and keep our family together in thy path.

i am going to bed MG, as always my trust is in thee - Most Gracious, Exalted Lord.

For all praise is yours, All Authority, Kingship and Glory. In this life and in the hereafter, Be thou Glorified Most Gracious Lord.