Low

Blessed is the name.of God our creator.
It is hard lord.. very hard.. sustain me please.and help.me..it is very hard...
My demons are surfacing.. keep them at bay lord...

Help me.progress o lord

Rabbi anzilni munzalan Mubarakan  wa anta khayru munzilin...
My lord, let me disembark onto a blessed location.. you are the best deliverer.

So today marks the day I leave my manager Whois leaving.. a. Lady I like... into the jungle of what i call.crazy management and people who manipulate and take advantage.. I seek Gods blessing with my new team and ask for his blessing and grace in my working life and my whole life.. I seek progress from my Lord and i seek advancement in work.. I.come.to the Most Gracious with my self as i ask of Him..He who is my sustainer and provider..
In everything in life and death..He is God..with control over all things.. so I ask of.the most gracious Lord to kunfayakun my progress and advancement..

Projecting to the Most Gracious...

Tabaraka llahu rabbil alamin.. Allah-ul hayyu -ul qayumu... la illaha illa huwa yuyhii wa yumitu.. fa idza Qaida amran..fa innama yakulu llahu kun fa yakun.

Blessed is God, lord of the universe. The Living, the self subsisting God..there is no other God but he who controls life and death. To have anything done, he.simply says  to it be and it is..

My lord... please kunfayakun my success and progress in this life and hereafter.. kunfayakun my righteousness and accept me in thy service.. kunfayakun my wishes and provide for me and my children abundantly in this life and hereafter.. keep us close to thee always.. to praise and glorify your name..guide us to thee and protect us from sin and harm..guide us to thee and provide for us success with thee in this life and hereafter.. For all praise is yours.. all authority kingship and glory.. in this life and the hereafter be thou glorified o lord..

i need your help and counsel...

i come before thee O lord.. this evening.. i come before Thee needing your counsel....

Arrahman

Arrahman anta llahu. Subhanallahi rabbil alamin.
Most Gracious is my God. Glory be to God Lord of the universe

Hoodwinkle

So I went there Lord.. I was not able to get a quick resolution bit o was asked to text the man and he will Check for me.. o habe done so and await.a response

hoodwinkled

so dear Lord,
 i cannot sleep.. and it may be that is is a slight issue but it worries me.
 yesterday my dad called to say the money i said i was to send them they never received it. that they think i have been hood-winkled.
 this money in question i wanted to send since  new year but something always held me back  and i just  felt  like  i could not part with so much to give but  i said i have not done any monthly  zakat to my dad and i had to send something in any fashion.
 on this day i plucked up the courage to  call my dad and ask him for his account number and i went to the shop to send money at the  shop.
   i gave the man the money and he said he will send it.
 not there are no issues here because i have sent money through him before and i left the shop.
 i had not called or spoken to my dad since until  yesterday when he called to drop me this bombshell.
 not its one of three issues
 1 - either  my dad is confused as he believes the money came from another person -  the account name of the sender will not be me so maybe  he did get money but he  is not linking it to me
 2 - either the man did not send the money  - in which case it will be a breach of trust for me because i have been to their shop since then as i buy other foodstuff from them - then i ask myself since them why not  tell me there is an issue
3 - either i am deluded and i didn't not send anymoney..
 i am quite clear i send the money as there is verification and i know in this instance i am not lying.
 4   - i am trying to  be hood-winkled by my dad.

 so in all likely-hood my mind is open and i am veering towards the first  because a similar situation occurred with my mum but she later came back to say she received it.. not i cannot be sure if she was trying to hood-winkle me but she was most efficiently clear when she accused me saying  she  never received any money until i went back to the people and challenged her again.

 so  i am in a quandary.. i am just rather put in a situation i don't like..
 i hate returning things in a shop - i just learn to live with it and move on
 - i hate challenging people  so to go back is for me to say to the man who send the money on my behalf that  he is lying that he sent it.
 it will be a easy thing to verify in all honesty but i am not relishing it..

 whatever the situation Lord - please give me courage to see it through - whatever the outcome help me to  deal with it.

 may your name be forever praised and glorified always..

Jaa al Haq qa zahaqa batila.. innaa batila kana zahukan

Support me lord and progress me in this life and the hereafter

admit me lord a honorable admittance and let me depart a honorable departure and grant me from thee a powerful support..

 such is the words on my  tongue this afternoon and i forget the arabic f it

 rabbi adkhilini mudkhala sidqimnwa akhrijni mukhraja sidqin waj alni min ladunka sultana nasiran

  and from this sura is the part which says establish  prayer from the setting of the sun until darkness of the night  

 and from the night arise from sleep for prayer with it as additional for you  - one translation

 And during the night, meditate (singular) with it for your (singular) own benefit and perhaps your Lord may raise you (singular) to a praiseworthy position - another translation

During the night, you shall meditate for extra credit - another translation

 this part i dont do and by the grace and support of the most gracious this is what i plan to adopt..

 a little bit of the night dedicated to my creator - be it 5 mins be it 1 minute i seek to dedicate to God alone..

 may my Lord accept it from me..

night time ramblings

Each time i come to you lord i have words i need to express but i do not know how to express it.
 so many issues i have on my mind and i want to talk to you.. and i do talk to you but i want to keep a log of what i talk to you about so i don't forget any promises or pledges i give on my  behalf.
 -  i need to save money and i need to control my spending.. please lord help me with this
 -  i am hungry for more of your progress and blessing lord i am hungry and  i want your prosperous grace in my life n whatever i do so i can be proud i can sing and i can shout to anyone who engages me to hear how wonderful my lord has been onto me..  i should not feel ashamed i think - for pekingese my lords bounties - i should not be afraid - but i am afraid because too much of anyone thing may lead me away from thee - that is why i ask of thee also that wherever wherever i am  let me never forget to keep praising you.
 -  i want to be able to meditate on your name as before - i know it is harder for me with kids but i still want that part of myself back.. it is there but i want it back
 -  i want to be able to pray without my mind drifting out without my thoughts  drifting.. i just want to be focused on my praise to thee
 - i want to be able to progress at work and get more money and  praise or find  another job where i will be adequately paid as i want for the duties i will offer them. ultimately all honour comes from thee  lord so i put this before you as you  have advanced me advance me some more.. let all my detractors cower in shame
 - i want to be a better mum and have more time and patience for the chikkis..i want them to know that i love them i want them to know i am always in there corner but i also want them to realise that i am tough and wont let them take bat habits or standard

 keep me safe o lord help me to be better devoted to thee and walk in righteousness. help me to praise and worship thee in all that i do.. help me lord and support me..
 without you i am finished
 without you i am a goner
 so i seek to hold onto thee in everything in my life whatever it is  my lord i seek to put everything before thee

I need thy support lord in all that i do

Yes i am greedy and insatiable for the mercy and bounty from my lord..
Guide me to thee o lord.. and provide for me in this life and the hereafter... keep me praising thee always..

Honour thy parents

Help me o lord to do the right thing by you.. I know what I want and i see the difficulties ahead and i know what i habe asked you for.. I need your grace to help me. This is a test.. I want to come thru with your blessing whatever the outcome so as it is coming I need your counsel as I bring it forward to tou. You already know.. you are already awareof this make it easy for me lord. Help me to be able to honour whatever my feelings.. whatever my hurt whatever my grievances..help me to honour as you have asked of me..
You have set me free please do not let the chains take hold of me.. I walk in thy light and want to walk in the light always.. truth and glory to God.. whatever I have is because of you..Thy name be praised always

Thank you

Something as insignificant as hair but thank you god for giving me the jump to do the hair
. How i completed it I dont know but i know beforehand I asked of you and you came to my rescue.
All praise is yours now and forever. Thank you

There is no other God but GOD The Most Gracious The Best Proviser

La ilaha illa lllahu Arrahman khayru razziqin

Huwa Arrahman amana bihi wa alayhi tawakalna

He is the Most Gracious.. (we)i believe in Him and i(we) trust in Him..

THANK YOU

A quick thank you for bous day