Tuesday, 8 May 2018

hoodwinkled

so dear Lord,
 i cannot sleep.. and it may be that is is a slight issue but it worries me.
 yesterday my dad called to say the money i said i was to send them they never received it. that they think i have been hood-winkled.
 this money in question i wanted to send since  new year but something always held me back  and i just  felt  like  i could not part with so much to give but  i said i have not done any monthly  zakat to my dad and i had to send something in any fashion.
 on this day i plucked up the courage to  call my dad and ask him for his account number and i went to the shop to send money at the  shop.
   i gave the man the money and he said he will send it.
 not there are no issues here because i have sent money through him before and i left the shop.
 i had not called or spoken to my dad since until  yesterday when he called to drop me this bombshell.
 not its one of three issues
 1 - either  my dad is confused as he believes the money came from another person -  the account name of the sender will not be me so maybe  he did get money but he  is not linking it to me
 2 - either the man did not send the money  - in which case it will be a breach of trust for me because i have been to their shop since then as i buy other foodstuff from them - then i ask myself since them why not  tell me there is an issue
3 - either i am deluded and i didn't not send anymoney..
 i am quite clear i send the money as there is verification and i know in this instance i am not lying.
 4   - i am trying to  be hood-winkled by my dad.

 so in all likely-hood my mind is open and i am veering towards the first  because a similar situation occurred with my mum but she later came back to say she received it.. not i cannot be sure if she was trying to hood-winkle me but she was most efficiently clear when she accused me saying  she  never received any money until i went back to the people and challenged her again.

 so  i am in a quandary.. i am just rather put in a situation i don't like..
 i hate returning things in a shop - i just learn to live with it and move on
 - i hate challenging people  so to go back is for me to say to the man who send the money on my behalf that  he is lying that he sent it.
 it will be a easy thing to verify in all honesty but i am not relishing it..

 whatever the situation Lord - please give me courage to see it through - whatever the outcome help me to  deal with it.

 may your name be forever praised and glorified always..

Jaa al Haq qa zahaqa batila.. innaa batila kana zahukan

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