night time ramblings

Each time i come to you lord i have words i need to express but i do not know how to express it.
 so many issues i have on my mind and i want to talk to you.. and i do talk to you but i want to keep a log of what i talk to you about so i don't forget any promises or pledges i give on my  behalf.
 -  i need to save money and i need to control my spending.. please lord help me with this
 -  i am hungry for more of your progress and blessing lord i am hungry and  i want your prosperous grace in my life n whatever i do so i can be proud i can sing and i can shout to anyone who engages me to hear how wonderful my lord has been onto me..  i should not feel ashamed i think - for pekingese my lords bounties - i should not be afraid - but i am afraid because too much of anyone thing may lead me away from thee - that is why i ask of thee also that wherever wherever i am  let me never forget to keep praising you.
 -  i want to be able to meditate on your name as before - i know it is harder for me with kids but i still want that part of myself back.. it is there but i want it back
 -  i want to be able to pray without my mind drifting out without my thoughts  drifting.. i just want to be focused on my praise to thee
 - i want to be able to progress at work and get more money and  praise or find  another job where i will be adequately paid as i want for the duties i will offer them. ultimately all honour comes from thee  lord so i put this before you as you  have advanced me advance me some more.. let all my detractors cower in shame
 - i want to be a better mum and have more time and patience for the chikkis..i want them to know that i love them i want them to know i am always in there corner but i also want them to realise that i am tough and wont let them take bat habits or standard

 keep me safe o lord help me to be better devoted to thee and walk in righteousness. help me to praise and worship thee in all that i do.. help me lord and support me..
 without you i am finished
 without you i am a goner
 so i seek to hold onto thee in everything in my life whatever it is  my lord i seek to put everything before thee