“My Lord admit me a honorable admittance
And Let me depart a honorable departure
And grant me from You a Powerful Support”
Yesterday I was mulling over these words and another part of the scripture jumped to my head.
“Any one who reverences God, He will create an exit for him”
The first part I remember as one of the things I put down in my little book of prayers as part of a quartet of verses from the scripture Surah/Chapter 17 which we know as Bani Israel or Children of Israel.
I have included the verse before it and the ones after it, so we can get a glimpse of what it is referring to.
17:78
You shall observe the Contact Prayer (Salat) when the sun declines from its highest point at noon, as it moves towards sunset. You shall also observe (the recitation of) the Quran at dawn. (Reciting) the Quran at dawn is witnessed.
17:79
During the night, you shall meditate for extra credit, that your Lord may raise you to an honorable rank.
17:80
And say, "My Lord, admit me an honorable admittance, and let me depart an honorable departure, and grant me from You a powerful support."
17:81
Proclaim, "The truth has prevailed, and falsehood has vanished; falsehood will inevitably vanish."
(Parenthesis are the translators own inference to bind the verses together)
The words didn’t strike me till yesterday.. Half asleep, half awake
But before I mull it over I want to look at the bottom statement.
This was from chapter/Surah 65, which people may know as Talaq or Divorce.
As the theme goes, it talks about divorce/separation of partners. I have included the verse before it and the verse after it.. So that one can get a glimpse of what it is referring to..
65:1
O you prophet, when you people divorce the women, you shall ensure that a divorce interim is fulfilled. You shall measure such an interim precisely. You shall reverence GOD your Lord. Do not evict them from their homes, nor shall you make life miserable for them, to force them to leave on their own, unless they commit a proven adultery. These are GOD’s laws. Anyone who transgresses GOD’s laws commits an injustice against himself. You never know; maybe GOD wills something good to come out of this.
65:2
Once the interim is fulfilled, you may reconcile with them equitably, or go through with the separation equitably. You shall have two equitable witnesses witness the divorce before GOD. This is to enlighten those who believe in GOD and the Last Day. Anyone who reverences GOD, He will create an exit for him.
65:3
And will provide for him whence he never expected. Anyone who trusts in GOD, He suffices him. GOD’s commands are done. GOD has decreed for everything its fate.
At first in some sort of weird way, I thought the two were linked in that it was referring to the same thing.. But when I am looking at it now I cant see it..
The first statement I feel relates to meditation…
You see, the other time about a year ago, I was thinking about meditation…
I found it especially hard to grasp the notion of meditation because for someone like me -with so many things jumping around in my head all at the same time - who finds it hard to calm down and be restful… it is quite hard to grasp the notion of sitting idle and focusing on one thing.. So I was researching meditation and how to meditate…
I came across this chapter and verse and as such I am hoping Gw, it will be a nightly occurrence - One of my chanting mantras to fall asleep to.
Anyhow,
The second part relates to divorce so in a logical aspect they are not linked, unless you look at the word exit from a different perspective.
Exit as in “removal from a place/situation/process” - which is the way I was looking at it..
But back to the first statement…
Honorable admittance.
Admittance into Gods mercy, into paradise, into everlasting peace and light, Admittance to be part of Gods righteous servants…
Honorable departure.
Departure from sin, from this world and its trappings, from darkness
Powerful support
Support in testing times, in times of hope and longings, support to carry out ones obligations, to be on the right path, to uphold God’s revelations
Need I say more..
Wednesday, 22 April 2009
Tuesday, 21 April 2009
Vauxhall pain...
I am in pain... OOOOOH it hurts so much...
My little tonto went to the doctor for its annual check up
My little tonto was certified not well
OOOOUCH! that hurt
Anyhow Tonto had to get fixed and what a SHOCKER!!
I was not prepared for what i got..
£300 just to have tonto back in order
AAAaaaaaRRRRRrrrrrGGGGGGggghhhhh!
I choked when i was given the estimate..
Wipers,rear registration lamp, Front brake pads, Rear coils,Rear Middle Seat belt, bearing..
I know tonto was slightly out of shape but not that much....
I defo was not prepared for that...
In retrospect, It could have been worse, so i just have to be thankful...anyways
I remember leaving tonto at the doctors, walking myself down the gravel path to the bus stop..
i was half laughing half crying.. asking God to look after my tonto for me.. hoping that the diagnosis didnt come out quite bad..."i commend my tonto in your hands Lord, let her be ok"
Darling Tonto... You are god sent...so what did i do...
Well got it paid, got tonto fixed and now tonto is in much better health and status
Not for me though, cos i am still fighting a cough/cold, which is intent on coming back...
My little tonto went to the doctor for its annual check up
My little tonto was certified not well
OOOOUCH! that hurt
Anyhow Tonto had to get fixed and what a SHOCKER!!
I was not prepared for what i got..
£300 just to have tonto back in order
AAAaaaaaRRRRRrrrrrGGGGGGggghhhhh!
I choked when i was given the estimate..
Wipers,rear registration lamp, Front brake pads, Rear coils,Rear Middle Seat belt, bearing..
I know tonto was slightly out of shape but not that much....
I defo was not prepared for that...
In retrospect, It could have been worse, so i just have to be thankful...anyways
I remember leaving tonto at the doctors, walking myself down the gravel path to the bus stop..
i was half laughing half crying.. asking God to look after my tonto for me.. hoping that the diagnosis didnt come out quite bad..."i commend my tonto in your hands Lord, let her be ok"
Darling Tonto... You are god sent...so what did i do...
Well got it paid, got tonto fixed and now tonto is in much better health and status
Not for me though, cos i am still fighting a cough/cold, which is intent on coming back...
Tuesday, 14 April 2009
in the spirit of being grateful .. a song rises from my lips.. Lord let it be acceptable unto thee
My Lord is wonderful
My Lord is Excellent
My Lord is Merciful
My Lord is Good
Compassionate King
Merciful Lord
You are my God
Yor are my God
Compassionate King
Merciful Lord
You are my King
You are my King
All Ihave is cos of Your mercy
You've been good to me
You've been good to me
Everything I own
Is because of thee
You are good to me
You are good to me
I am grateful Lord
I am grateful Lord
For all you have done
I am grateful Lord
I am grateful Bountiful
I am grateful Lord
Oluwa me sanu fun mi
Iwo ni kan ni Alagbara
Iwo ni kan ni Oba Aiye
Iwo ni kan ni Oba Rere
Iwo ni kan no Oba, Oba mimo
Olorun mii gbadura mii
Sanu fun mi Alagbara
Iwo ni kan no Oba Rere
Iwo ni kan ni Oba Anu
Iwo ni kan ni Olugbala, Oba mimo
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My Lord is Excellent
My Lord is Merciful
My Lord is Good
Compassionate King
Merciful Lord
You are my God
Yor are my God
Compassionate King
Merciful Lord
You are my King
You are my King
All Ihave is cos of Your mercy
You've been good to me
You've been good to me
Everything I own
Is because of thee
You are good to me
You are good to me
I am grateful Lord
I am grateful Lord
For all you have done
I am grateful Lord
I am grateful Bountiful
I am grateful Lord
Oluwa me sanu fun mi
Iwo ni kan ni Alagbara
Iwo ni kan ni Oba Aiye
Iwo ni kan ni Oba Rere
Iwo ni kan no Oba, Oba mimo
Olorun mii gbadura mii
Sanu fun mi Alagbara
Iwo ni kan no Oba Rere
Iwo ni kan ni Oba Anu
Iwo ni kan ni Olugbala, Oba mimo
@
what people call Pillars of Islam... 3 Vs 5
Belief in God and devoting the religion to God only
Salst which invilves the act of bowing and prostration to God.. at specific times,, as designated by God in the scripture
Charity which should go to parents, poor, needy traveling alien
These three are my own take on what the creed is islam is all about...
remember the surah.. proof. Bayinnah.. Surah 98 All that was asked of them was to worship God, devoting the religion to Him alone, observe salst and give the obligatory zakat. SUCH IS THE PERFECT RELIGION
This is how i understand Islam to be..
The notion of 5 pillars to include fasting and pilgrim is not new to me because it was what was taught to me from young.. but when i look through the quran all i find repeatededly is these three points... Belief, Prayer and Charity..
Why has this come to my mind now.. i dont know,, i was thinking about it before but it wasnt until when Dr. K was grilling me that i gave him my own opinion as i understand it to be.. God be my Guide and provide me with wisdom and knowledge...
I find this interesting and perplexing slightly...
Oh point to note.. i am not discouraging fasting or pilgrimage.. far from it.. Fasting is there for a reason.. and it is up to each person to do or not do... ( it is better to fast as teh quran advises us.... Pilgrimage as well is there if we can go.. it is incumbemt on each person to fast and if possible complete pilgrimage..
my point being though.. in the quran as i understand this tobe.. There is no other alternative for belief, prayer or charity.. it is a MUST with a capital MUST. anything else i guess is disbelief in God.
I seek refuge with thee O Lord, You are Hearer and Seer
2:183
O you who believe, fasting is decreed for you, as it was decreed for those before you, that you may attain salvation.
2:184
Specific days (are designated for fasting); if one is ill or traveling, an equal number of other days may be substituted. Those who can fast, but with great difficulty, may substitute feeding one poor person for each day of breaking the fast. If one volunteers (more righteous works), it is better. But fasting is the best for you, if you only knew.
2:185
Ramadan is the month during which the Quran was revealed, providing guidance for the people, clear teachings, and the statute book. Those of you who witness this month shall fast therein. Those who are ill or traveling may substitute the same number of other days. GOD wishes for you convenience, not hardship, that you may fulfill your obligations, and to glorify GOD for guiding you, and to express your appreciation.
as for hajj
2:196
You shall observe the complete rites of Hajj and`Umrah for GOD. If you are prevented, you shall send an offering, and do not resume cutting your hair until your offering has reached its destination. If you are ill, or suffering a head injury (and you must cut your hair), you shall expiate by fasting, or giving to charity, or some other form of worship. During the normal Hajj, if you break the state of Ihraam (sanctity) between `Umrah and Hajj, you shall expiate by offering an animal sacrifice. If you cannot afford it, you shall fast three days during Hajj and seven when you return home - this completes ten - provided you do not live at the Sacred Masjid. You shall observe GOD, and know that GOD is strict in enforcing retribution.
2:197
Hajj shall be observed in the specified months. Whoever sets out to observe Hajj shall refrain from sexual intercourse, misconduct, and arguments throughout Hajj. Whatever good you do, GOD is fully aware thereof. As you prepare your provisions for the journey, the best provision is righteousness. You shall observe Me, O you who possess intelligence.
22:27
"And proclaim that the people shall observe Hajj pilgrimage. They will come to you walking or riding on various exhausted (means of transportation). They will come from the farthest locations."
As for the three that i am talking about..
22:78
You shall strive for the cause of GOD as you should strive for His cause. He has chosen you and has placed no hardship on you in practicing your religion - the religion of your father Abraham. He is the one who named you "Submitters" originally. Thus, the messenger shall serve as a witness among you, and you shall serve as witnesses among the people. Therefore, you shall observe the Contact Prayers (Salat) and give the obligatory charity (Zakat), and hold fast to GOD; He is your Lord, the best Lord and the best Supporter.
other verses if interest are 2:83, 2:110. 2:117. 2:227, 4:162, 5:12, 8:3, 9:18, 22:41, 22:78, 31:4, 73:20, 98:5
Salst which invilves the act of bowing and prostration to God.. at specific times,, as designated by God in the scripture
Charity which should go to parents, poor, needy traveling alien
These three are my own take on what the creed is islam is all about...
remember the surah.. proof. Bayinnah.. Surah 98 All that was asked of them was to worship God, devoting the religion to Him alone, observe salst and give the obligatory zakat. SUCH IS THE PERFECT RELIGION
This is how i understand Islam to be..
The notion of 5 pillars to include fasting and pilgrim is not new to me because it was what was taught to me from young.. but when i look through the quran all i find repeatededly is these three points... Belief, Prayer and Charity..
Why has this come to my mind now.. i dont know,, i was thinking about it before but it wasnt until when Dr. K was grilling me that i gave him my own opinion as i understand it to be.. God be my Guide and provide me with wisdom and knowledge...
I find this interesting and perplexing slightly...
Oh point to note.. i am not discouraging fasting or pilgrimage.. far from it.. Fasting is there for a reason.. and it is up to each person to do or not do... ( it is better to fast as teh quran advises us.... Pilgrimage as well is there if we can go.. it is incumbemt on each person to fast and if possible complete pilgrimage..
my point being though.. in the quran as i understand this tobe.. There is no other alternative for belief, prayer or charity.. it is a MUST with a capital MUST. anything else i guess is disbelief in God.
I seek refuge with thee O Lord, You are Hearer and Seer
2:183
O you who believe, fasting is decreed for you, as it was decreed for those before you, that you may attain salvation.
2:184
Specific days (are designated for fasting); if one is ill or traveling, an equal number of other days may be substituted. Those who can fast, but with great difficulty, may substitute feeding one poor person for each day of breaking the fast. If one volunteers (more righteous works), it is better. But fasting is the best for you, if you only knew.
2:185
Ramadan is the month during which the Quran was revealed, providing guidance for the people, clear teachings, and the statute book. Those of you who witness this month shall fast therein. Those who are ill or traveling may substitute the same number of other days. GOD wishes for you convenience, not hardship, that you may fulfill your obligations, and to glorify GOD for guiding you, and to express your appreciation.
as for hajj
2:196
You shall observe the complete rites of Hajj and`Umrah for GOD. If you are prevented, you shall send an offering, and do not resume cutting your hair until your offering has reached its destination. If you are ill, or suffering a head injury (and you must cut your hair), you shall expiate by fasting, or giving to charity, or some other form of worship. During the normal Hajj, if you break the state of Ihraam (sanctity) between `Umrah and Hajj, you shall expiate by offering an animal sacrifice. If you cannot afford it, you shall fast three days during Hajj and seven when you return home - this completes ten - provided you do not live at the Sacred Masjid. You shall observe GOD, and know that GOD is strict in enforcing retribution.
2:197
Hajj shall be observed in the specified months. Whoever sets out to observe Hajj shall refrain from sexual intercourse, misconduct, and arguments throughout Hajj. Whatever good you do, GOD is fully aware thereof. As you prepare your provisions for the journey, the best provision is righteousness. You shall observe Me, O you who possess intelligence.
22:27
"And proclaim that the people shall observe Hajj pilgrimage. They will come to you walking or riding on various exhausted (means of transportation). They will come from the farthest locations."
As for the three that i am talking about..
22:78
You shall strive for the cause of GOD as you should strive for His cause. He has chosen you and has placed no hardship on you in practicing your religion - the religion of your father Abraham. He is the one who named you "Submitters" originally. Thus, the messenger shall serve as a witness among you, and you shall serve as witnesses among the people. Therefore, you shall observe the Contact Prayers (Salat) and give the obligatory charity (Zakat), and hold fast to GOD; He is your Lord, the best Lord and the best Supporter.
other verses if interest are 2:83, 2:110. 2:117. 2:227, 4:162, 5:12, 8:3, 9:18, 22:41, 22:78, 31:4, 73:20, 98:5
Monday, 13 April 2009
is it so hard to believe...
Is it so hard to believe that there is only one God and everything around us, attests to this fact..
Is it so hard to grasp that it is only one message through out time, from our Lord, Our God..
I am priviledged to see in various many religions, various many faiths and practices - these same religions that have divided man and nation apart- that it is still one God. when you look deep down, you can see, when you think to the roots, you can know.. and when you think about it, it all becomes clear..
i saw this bahia prayer and i was moved by its words.. As ever our Lord is one God.. once we stop spouting the words and practices of man and then concentrate on the words and direction from God... i think we will have started our journey...
My Lord, direct me in the path of righteousness and allow me to uphold thy words and commandments. Shine your light of truth upon me and provide for me from thee understanding and wisdom. For thine is the truth, Thine is all things, Knowledge and Guidance... fats
Is it so hard to grasp that it is only one message through out time, from our Lord, Our God..
I am priviledged to see in various many religions, various many faiths and practices - these same religions that have divided man and nation apart- that it is still one God. when you look deep down, you can see, when you think to the roots, you can know.. and when you think about it, it all becomes clear..
i saw this bahia prayer and i was moved by its words.. As ever our Lord is one God.. once we stop spouting the words and practices of man and then concentrate on the words and direction from God... i think we will have started our journey...
My Lord, direct me in the path of righteousness and allow me to uphold thy words and commandments. Shine your light of truth upon me and provide for me from thee understanding and wisdom. For thine is the truth, Thine is all things, Knowledge and Guidance... fats
Praise be to Thee, O Lord my God! I am the one who hath sought the good pleasure of Thy will, and directed his steps towards the seat of Thy gracious favors. I am he who hath forsaken his all, who hath fled to Thee for shelter, who hath set his face towards the tabernacle of Thy revelation and the adored sanctuary of Thy glory. I beseech Thee, O my Lord, by Thy call whereby they who recognized Thy unity have sought the shadow of Thy most gracious providence, and the sincere have fled far from themselves unto Thy name, the Most Exalted, the All-Glorious, through which Thy verses were sent down, and Thy word fulfilled, and Thy proof manifested, and the sun of Thy beauty risen, and Thy testimony established, and Thy signs uncovered,—I beseech Thee to grant that I may be numbered with them that have quaffed the wine that is life indeed from the hands of Thy gracious providence, and have rid themselves, in Thy path, of all attachment to Thy creatures, and been so inebriated with Thy manifold wisdom that they hastened to the field of sacrifice with Thy praise on their lips and Thy remembrance in their hearts. Send down, also, upon me, O my God, that which will wash me from anything that is not of Thee, and deliver me from Thine enemies who have disbelieved in Thy signs.
Potent art Thou to do what Thou willest. No God is there beside Thee, the Help in Peril, the Self-Subsisting.
copied from.....http://www.bahaiprayers.org/sacrifice3.htmSunday, 12 April 2009
Blessings
I have to ask myself why do I keep this post.. why do I have a need to write these things..
hmm that is a tough one..
ever since i was young i have always had so much to say.. so much stuff going on in my head and no where to keep them. I have too many thoughts, to much thinking..
it makes good reading.... going through and seeing how far i have come, where i have come from and if i am ( my standards) on course or if i am still letting my body/desires take control of me.
Indeed i have to be thankful..
Most assuredly i have to be thankful
I have to be thankful for The Good Lord has not failed me
He has never let me down, He has never forsaken me..
And I am thankful..
sometimes, when life seems bleak and we cant see what is past out nose stub
sometimes when all seems lost and we have no where to turn
The Good Lord does provide and shines on us a light of hope.
that is what God has done for me..
It took me till this evenings prayer to remember that.. it is I asking these things my lord..
I have asked thee o Lord, keep me away from evil and keep evil away from me
Keep me away from sins and keep sin away from me
keep me away from evil people and keep evil people away from me
tis a hard road, i know but the end results are the best..
so while the outward view may look bleak and unbecoming
I have to remember that which i am seeking
to be closer to my God, to worship God better i guess
I will still always be the "crazy thought tutu2, who says as she sees it..
I will still always be the inward tutu who reflects on everything
i will still always be the searching tutu, looking to improve her stance
In all perspective, I have to be thankful.
Everything comes from God, everything for me is a lesson
God does provide it for me to learn and develop, to learn and improve
My people i have many cause to be grateful..
Because like i say, The good Lord has never let me down,
But has provided for me and provided a-plenty
So even when chips are down, My lord, let me as ever remember thee.. and let me always remember to thank thee, for all that you do for me, for all that you mean to me and for all that you are to me.. Let me never for once forget the blessings you have bestowed on me, day after day..let me be able to say thank you Lord and know that it is from my heart..
For indeed, the good Lord has been bounteous unto me..
hmm that is a tough one..
ever since i was young i have always had so much to say.. so much stuff going on in my head and no where to keep them. I have too many thoughts, to much thinking..
it makes good reading.... going through and seeing how far i have come, where i have come from and if i am ( my standards) on course or if i am still letting my body/desires take control of me.
Indeed i have to be thankful..
Most assuredly i have to be thankful
I have to be thankful for The Good Lord has not failed me
He has never let me down, He has never forsaken me..
And I am thankful..
sometimes, when life seems bleak and we cant see what is past out nose stub
sometimes when all seems lost and we have no where to turn
The Good Lord does provide and shines on us a light of hope.
that is what God has done for me..
It took me till this evenings prayer to remember that.. it is I asking these things my lord..
I have asked thee o Lord, keep me away from evil and keep evil away from me
Keep me away from sins and keep sin away from me
keep me away from evil people and keep evil people away from me
tis a hard road, i know but the end results are the best..
so while the outward view may look bleak and unbecoming
I have to remember that which i am seeking
to be closer to my God, to worship God better i guess
I will still always be the "crazy thought tutu2, who says as she sees it..
I will still always be the inward tutu who reflects on everything
i will still always be the searching tutu, looking to improve her stance
In all perspective, I have to be thankful.
Everything comes from God, everything for me is a lesson
God does provide it for me to learn and develop, to learn and improve
My people i have many cause to be grateful..
Because like i say, The good Lord has never let me down,
But has provided for me and provided a-plenty
So even when chips are down, My lord, let me as ever remember thee.. and let me always remember to thank thee, for all that you do for me, for all that you mean to me and for all that you are to me.. Let me never for once forget the blessings you have bestowed on me, day after day..let me be able to say thank you Lord and know that it is from my heart..
For indeed, the good Lord has been bounteous unto me..
Saturday, 11 April 2009
Highway
You know that feeling when you just feel like standing in the middle of the road and then you just hear the horns and shouts of cars and people passing by checking for you to move away..
Everything is a blur and the noise stops just short of penetrating your drums.. In short, you dont want to hear so you have blocked everyone out hence you are not concerned of the commotion and buzzle hapenning around you.
All you want to do is just continue walking on the road as far as your legs can carry you.
you stop briefly and glance back to see how far you have come,... Then it hits you...
You have taken this route for a reason, you want to get hit..
Everything is a blur and the noise stops just short of penetrating your drums.. In short, you dont want to hear so you have blocked everyone out hence you are not concerned of the commotion and buzzle hapenning around you.
All you want to do is just continue walking on the road as far as your legs can carry you.
you stop briefly and glance back to see how far you have come,... Then it hits you...
You have taken this route for a reason, you want to get hit..
Thursday, 9 April 2009
Broken Spirit
Today is the 9th of April 2009.
I admit defeat
I admit defeat because my strength is gone.
I do not have any fight left in me, I cant go on..
My zeal is broken and I am way laden with grief
As ever I seek to my Lord, to provide me with strength to hold on
I seek to my lord not to depart from me but to be near
I ask for patience and understanding..
I seek to my Lord for His guidance and help.
Seek help through steadfastness and prayer
Steadfastness I guess is holding on inspite and despite
Steadfastness is patience and fortitude
Steadfastness is a gun with a trigger
Prayer is an act of worship
Prayer is reverence and thought
Prayer is the bullet that feeds the gun
I admit defeat
I admit defeat because my strength is gone.
I do not have any fight left in me, I cant go on..
My zeal is broken and I am way laden with grief
As ever I seek to my Lord, to provide me with strength to hold on
I seek to my lord not to depart from me but to be near
I ask for patience and understanding..
I seek to my Lord for His guidance and help.
Seek help through steadfastness and prayer
Steadfastness I guess is holding on inspite and despite
Steadfastness is patience and fortitude
Steadfastness is a gun with a trigger
Prayer is an act of worship
Prayer is reverence and thought
Prayer is the bullet that feeds the gun
Parents part 1
Sometimes I don’t know why I bother with my dad because each time his action send me messages that he doesn’t care about me..
Apparently he is around the country,, visiting all his children as usual,, he will not come to visit me…
It is very interesting all the time he does this.. But there is a God and God does sees his actions towards me as he does see my actions towards me..
So in this matter I leave it to God to judge…
the last time he visited me he accused me and my mother of stealing his cap to do some juju of some sort.. god help me.. i went to meet him at the station .. infact three people went to meet him at the station, me my friend and my mother.. my dad said when he alighted from the train he was wearing his cap.. ant to the best of my knowledge as God who made me, when he alighted from the train he wasnt wearing the cap..even my friend will agree with me on this... but noo! my dad said it is a special cap that we have taken it.. i am quite sure we can go to the train station and ask for cctv evidence to this fact...infact i leave him to God to judge him for all his accusations without proof.. but he still wants to do his blind accusations.. God dey.
so does that mean he will never come and visit me... ok make those round trips round the children.. There is a God who sees you and me too for that matter.
This is not a matter btw you and my mother but a matter between me and You. Regardless of what you do to me i will always commit you to our creator.. Thats at best all i can do...
I understand my dad and my mum have issues,,, but what has that issue got to do with me.. I have always done my duty as a daughter to my parents as best as I can.. I insist I will not get involved in their dispute because frankly speaking that has nothing to do with me… though I am not close to both parents.. In terms of going to them for help and advice.. Does it mean that my dad will shun me?
One day the truth will out.. As it always does.. And whoever regardless in my mum and dads dispute that is wrong ...on their head be it.. Really in that respect.. I don’t give a shit.. Its their life,,, if they mess it up that’s btw them and their creator..
If they lie and do bad deeds that is btw them and their creator.. It is not for me to judge.. Though I may ponder on it…it is not for me to cast blame.. Though I may want to.. It is for them to sort out with their creator.. I wasn’t there when they were having sex and courting each other an dall whatever was happening.. So my reasoning is: if they didn’t call me to watch porn film of both of them then they are having a dispute, then don’t call me either (that’s a bit disturbing really but what I mean is.... what I haven’t witnessed or been party do.. its not my business.) If they ask my opinion I can only give then advise based on the info they give me.. If that info is severely flawed.. Then I can still only give me info based on what they present to me…
This father of mine… it is very interesting.. As usual I watch with gusto at what will happen.. “God dey” as we naija people say…
Even if he does not like my mother does that mean he should dislike me too
I don’t dislike him. He is my father.. Though I may not agree with his actions and choice but as my feelings go.. That’s life.. His choice his life his actions his consequences…
That is btw him and his creator..
My life my choice, my action my consequence..
On a logical “tit for tat level”,, person who don’t care about you,. You just have to forget about them too.
But this is different in respect to ones parents.. Regardless of how much he may hate me or dislike me… he will still be my father and I am duty bound as a daughter to observe my duties to him both on a religious level and a cultural level.. Though I don’t really bag that cultural view that much unless it makes sense..
But like I says “God dey”…. This particular subject moves me to tears.. Because…I don’t know what I have done to deserve parents like mine..
It is not a complaint.. It is a general observation..
I cannot complain at all. Far from that, I can only thank God.. For what He has given me..
Others may have had it worse.. dads raping them/murdering them etc just like stories you hear in papers..
But my dad thank God is not like that (well frankly I don’t know.. all I know is that he looked after me as best as he could given that I was a stubborn child and suffered a great many beating from both parents.. many were my fault and some were not but that’s life…) without the conditions I suffered going up , I may not be the person I am today, I have to thank God for that.. Because of them see in them in “action” I grow to appreciate my life and my experiences…
Lets watch this space…
Apparently he is around the country,, visiting all his children as usual,, he will not come to visit me…
It is very interesting all the time he does this.. But there is a God and God does sees his actions towards me as he does see my actions towards me..
So in this matter I leave it to God to judge…
the last time he visited me he accused me and my mother of stealing his cap to do some juju of some sort.. god help me.. i went to meet him at the station .. infact three people went to meet him at the station, me my friend and my mother.. my dad said when he alighted from the train he was wearing his cap.. ant to the best of my knowledge as God who made me, when he alighted from the train he wasnt wearing the cap..even my friend will agree with me on this... but noo! my dad said it is a special cap that we have taken it.. i am quite sure we can go to the train station and ask for cctv evidence to this fact...infact i leave him to God to judge him for all his accusations without proof.. but he still wants to do his blind accusations.. God dey.
so does that mean he will never come and visit me... ok make those round trips round the children.. There is a God who sees you and me too for that matter.
This is not a matter btw you and my mother but a matter between me and You. Regardless of what you do to me i will always commit you to our creator.. Thats at best all i can do...
I understand my dad and my mum have issues,,, but what has that issue got to do with me.. I have always done my duty as a daughter to my parents as best as I can.. I insist I will not get involved in their dispute because frankly speaking that has nothing to do with me… though I am not close to both parents.. In terms of going to them for help and advice.. Does it mean that my dad will shun me?
One day the truth will out.. As it always does.. And whoever regardless in my mum and dads dispute that is wrong ...on their head be it.. Really in that respect.. I don’t give a shit.. Its their life,,, if they mess it up that’s btw them and their creator..
If they lie and do bad deeds that is btw them and their creator.. It is not for me to judge.. Though I may ponder on it…it is not for me to cast blame.. Though I may want to.. It is for them to sort out with their creator.. I wasn’t there when they were having sex and courting each other an dall whatever was happening.. So my reasoning is: if they didn’t call me to watch porn film of both of them then they are having a dispute, then don’t call me either (that’s a bit disturbing really but what I mean is.... what I haven’t witnessed or been party do.. its not my business.) If they ask my opinion I can only give then advise based on the info they give me.. If that info is severely flawed.. Then I can still only give me info based on what they present to me…
This father of mine… it is very interesting.. As usual I watch with gusto at what will happen.. “God dey” as we naija people say…
Even if he does not like my mother does that mean he should dislike me too
I don’t dislike him. He is my father.. Though I may not agree with his actions and choice but as my feelings go.. That’s life.. His choice his life his actions his consequences…
That is btw him and his creator..
My life my choice, my action my consequence..
On a logical “tit for tat level”,, person who don’t care about you,. You just have to forget about them too.
But this is different in respect to ones parents.. Regardless of how much he may hate me or dislike me… he will still be my father and I am duty bound as a daughter to observe my duties to him both on a religious level and a cultural level.. Though I don’t really bag that cultural view that much unless it makes sense..
But like I says “God dey”…. This particular subject moves me to tears.. Because…I don’t know what I have done to deserve parents like mine..
It is not a complaint.. It is a general observation..
I cannot complain at all. Far from that, I can only thank God.. For what He has given me..
Others may have had it worse.. dads raping them/murdering them etc just like stories you hear in papers..
But my dad thank God is not like that (well frankly I don’t know.. all I know is that he looked after me as best as he could given that I was a stubborn child and suffered a great many beating from both parents.. many were my fault and some were not but that’s life…) without the conditions I suffered going up , I may not be the person I am today, I have to thank God for that.. Because of them see in them in “action” I grow to appreciate my life and my experiences…
Lets watch this space…
Saturday, 4 April 2009
Solution...
the answer was in the script all along..
The solution
"My lord do not condem me if I forget or make a mistake.. My Lord protect me from blaspheming against you like others before me have done..My Lord protect me from sinning until it becomes too late for me to repent.. pardon me and fogvive me you are my Lord and master. Grant me victory over disbelieving people..
as simple as that...
fats
The solution
"My lord do not condem me if I forget or make a mistake.. My Lord protect me from blaspheming against you like others before me have done..My Lord protect me from sinning until it becomes too late for me to repent.. pardon me and fogvive me you are my Lord and master. Grant me victory over disbelieving people..
as simple as that...
fats
Thursday, 2 April 2009
Initiatir or Originator
i was reading again and i came across this part where it says
BLRM.. "badiu samawati wal ardh"... as part of a verse in surah 2:117. Now the translation is what concerns me the most since i am not an arabic speaker and it was translated "initiator of the heaven and earth"...
now i jumped for a minute because there is also another part in the scripture that is translated "initiator of the heaven and the earth" and this is "fatiri samawati wal ardh"..
so how come two different arabic words are translated the same...
Now i googled it and came up with another translation for "badiu samawati wal ardh"... which is "originator or the heavens and the earth."..
which for me for some reason feels right. because as God is the originator.. because we have all come from him.. he created us, established us..
At the same time he is "fatiri samawati wal ardh" which is the "initiator of the heavens and the earth" because to create us we have to be initiated... if u catch my drift.. God conceptualised our creation and initiated us and established us... Our originins are from Him.. He is the one who know fully well where we come from..
just a note to put down
fats
BLRM.. "badiu samawati wal ardh"... as part of a verse in surah 2:117. Now the translation is what concerns me the most since i am not an arabic speaker and it was translated "initiator of the heaven and earth"...
now i jumped for a minute because there is also another part in the scripture that is translated "initiator of the heaven and the earth" and this is "fatiri samawati wal ardh"..
so how come two different arabic words are translated the same...
Now i googled it and came up with another translation for "badiu samawati wal ardh"... which is "originator or the heavens and the earth."..
which for me for some reason feels right. because as God is the originator.. because we have all come from him.. he created us, established us..
At the same time he is "fatiri samawati wal ardh" which is the "initiator of the heavens and the earth" because to create us we have to be initiated... if u catch my drift.. God conceptualised our creation and initiated us and established us... Our originins are from Him.. He is the one who know fully well where we come from..
just a note to put down
fats
voices in my head
some things are troubling me you know...some new and some old...
i thought i had a grip on it but i guess it is a constant thing in my mind whereby i have to overcome it as best as i can. God willing this is possible.
I am hearing voices... trust me i am already mad... but I am hearing voices.
The perturbing thing is that there are two voices. one which conforms to my thoughts and understands my stance.. and the other which just blasphemies until i get a grip on it...
untowardly this does not bother me at all because i like to know the far right and far left of every action and thought... it amuses me... but i have discovered that my left voice- the one which goes on and on nd blasphemies- is made up of words, actions and thoughts that i have witnessed from friends and people i surround myself with, from programmes i have watched of books that i have read. these culmination of words is thereby thrown at me "en masse" from time to time... which i dont mind, ( because i then have an internal arguement with myself and go on facts on logic alone) but the one that seems to bother me the most is when i am seeking solace through prayer and deep in thought.
Whilst i know that there is one God and i agree with that fact whole heartedly... I get this rather annoying voice going jesus jesus in my head... rather annoyying wont you think... because why jesus jesus...why not mohammed mohammed... or moses moses... lol
just like the other time that i was researching the hindu religion,,, all my head was going was hindu chants that i read and playing them back in my head and saying things that i consider as horrible and untrue
anyhow, of late i have been around my friends who are all christians and who at every moment exclaim jesus jesus and this reported speech /repeated speech is replayed in my head... over and over again.
Whilst i accept jesus as a messengerof God, i dont accept him as anything else. and that is that frankly..
some christians may say that is is a sign for me to finally accept jesus as lord and master... but i think not..
God be praised and glorified far above the heavens and earth.
My God is one God and all are subiervant to Him.
He is the one who is One God, He did not beget not was He begotten and no one equals him. no one comes even close to the magnitude of my Lord, least of all a mere human that he has creted.
i know who my Lord is.. and i affirm this choice day after day and on this stance i take and am proud to say that My Lord is God, The most gracrious. He is my lord and your Lord, jesus's Lord and mohammeds Lord and he is the same Lord of Abraham and moses and everything else He created.
Jesus is not my God, can never be, will never be.. Jesusu is a servant of my Lord and one of greater rank in my Lords cause.. as is mohammed as is every otehr messenger of my lord.
it is very easy for someone to be mistaken thinking that the voices are signs for them pointing them to what is good for them... but I am not someone.. I am adetutu.. I am beholded to my God so i know and my heart/soul knows that this voice is false..
Logic will always overide everything else. and truth will always stand out from falsehood.
on so many levels i cannot blame it, because i am the one who surrounds my self with the material for its onslaught on me.. i am the one who feeds it because of my long disregard for what was right and truth.. thereby giving myself the hard task of cleansing myself...
See how my mind works..... especially with what i hear and listen to...???everything is played back in my head... when i dont want it to... worse of becausei picture everything... full 360 degree playback.
I have given up watching some movies... because my head stores the pictures and replays then willy nilly, I also veto books that i read now adays due to the same thing... By and large this has helped me streamline where my head/voices gather from... but i guess i need to do more.
By admitting and freely speaking of it... i am able to get a first step and God willing i will be victorious...
suffice to say that before embarking on any film/book/ visit i should seek refuge with God and ask that my thought are not polluted by what i may be privy to even though i may not share their stance...
how do i reconcile these two statements...
one who does not persecute you because of religion you may be friends with them 60:8
one who is hopelessly stuck in disbelief you should not befriend them... 60:13
this is bothering me you know.....
i thought i had a grip on it but i guess it is a constant thing in my mind whereby i have to overcome it as best as i can. God willing this is possible.
I am hearing voices... trust me i am already mad... but I am hearing voices.
The perturbing thing is that there are two voices. one which conforms to my thoughts and understands my stance.. and the other which just blasphemies until i get a grip on it...
untowardly this does not bother me at all because i like to know the far right and far left of every action and thought... it amuses me... but i have discovered that my left voice- the one which goes on and on nd blasphemies- is made up of words, actions and thoughts that i have witnessed from friends and people i surround myself with, from programmes i have watched of books that i have read. these culmination of words is thereby thrown at me "en masse" from time to time... which i dont mind, ( because i then have an internal arguement with myself and go on facts on logic alone) but the one that seems to bother me the most is when i am seeking solace through prayer and deep in thought.
Whilst i know that there is one God and i agree with that fact whole heartedly... I get this rather annoying voice going jesus jesus in my head... rather annoyying wont you think... because why jesus jesus...why not mohammed mohammed... or moses moses... lol
just like the other time that i was researching the hindu religion,,, all my head was going was hindu chants that i read and playing them back in my head and saying things that i consider as horrible and untrue
anyhow, of late i have been around my friends who are all christians and who at every moment exclaim jesus jesus and this reported speech /repeated speech is replayed in my head... over and over again.
Whilst i accept jesus as a messengerof God, i dont accept him as anything else. and that is that frankly..
some christians may say that is is a sign for me to finally accept jesus as lord and master... but i think not..
God be praised and glorified far above the heavens and earth.
My God is one God and all are subiervant to Him.
He is the one who is One God, He did not beget not was He begotten and no one equals him. no one comes even close to the magnitude of my Lord, least of all a mere human that he has creted.
i know who my Lord is.. and i affirm this choice day after day and on this stance i take and am proud to say that My Lord is God, The most gracrious. He is my lord and your Lord, jesus's Lord and mohammeds Lord and he is the same Lord of Abraham and moses and everything else He created.
Jesus is not my God, can never be, will never be.. Jesusu is a servant of my Lord and one of greater rank in my Lords cause.. as is mohammed as is every otehr messenger of my lord.
it is very easy for someone to be mistaken thinking that the voices are signs for them pointing them to what is good for them... but I am not someone.. I am adetutu.. I am beholded to my God so i know and my heart/soul knows that this voice is false..
Logic will always overide everything else. and truth will always stand out from falsehood.
on so many levels i cannot blame it, because i am the one who surrounds my self with the material for its onslaught on me.. i am the one who feeds it because of my long disregard for what was right and truth.. thereby giving myself the hard task of cleansing myself...
See how my mind works..... especially with what i hear and listen to...???everything is played back in my head... when i dont want it to... worse of becausei picture everything... full 360 degree playback.
I have given up watching some movies... because my head stores the pictures and replays then willy nilly, I also veto books that i read now adays due to the same thing... By and large this has helped me streamline where my head/voices gather from... but i guess i need to do more.
By admitting and freely speaking of it... i am able to get a first step and God willing i will be victorious...
suffice to say that before embarking on any film/book/ visit i should seek refuge with God and ask that my thought are not polluted by what i may be privy to even though i may not share their stance...
how do i reconcile these two statements...
one who does not persecute you because of religion you may be friends with them 60:8
one who is hopelessly stuck in disbelief you should not befriend them... 60:13
this is bothering me you know.....
Praise
My praise goes out to the Initiator of all things.
The One who made the foundations of the heavens and the earth.
My praise goes out to the Creator of all
The One who created life :- the seen and the unseen
My praise goes out to the One i call the Most Gracious Lord
The Compassionate Most Merciful Lord
My praise goes out to the one who is the Ultimate Lord,
One whose Kingship is already established and whose sovereignty is Eternal and encompasses all dimensions.
My praise goes out to the One who has the Authority to forgive all sins.
The One who can redeem me an guide me to the truth.
My praise goes out to the One who is in need of no one.
One who possesses all knowledge and understanding
My praise goes out to the One who is Most Merciful, Most Kind and Most Generous
My praise goes out to the one who is God, the Eternal the Ever-Living
Above whom there is no one else
My praise goes out to thee O Lord for you are all these things and more
You are all these things and more and for the rest of my life
My praise goes out to Thee
Wednesday, 11 March 2009
managers
As a manager, you should allow your colleagues to flourish - provide guidance for them on what should be done and encourage them when they show that extra initiative even when it goes all balls up.
That is my view on a manager.. now i understand that my views and reality views may differ but, lets call a spade a spade and say that- if you want productive employees, them you should be able to put in place clear-cut structures that will imbibe in these employees, provide clear directions on how you want them to behave, allow them to use their natural strenghts and provide feedback behaviour and performance on an ongoing basis.
When i look at this as a compasiron to what is happening in my workplace then i know that we still have a long way to go yet before things get to normal. Generally i feel as if we just have manages who are more concerned with getting their paycheques at the end of the day than actually managing and bringing the best out of the people they are charged with.
Its no wonder that colleagues are offsick constantly.... There is no encouragement or even a culture of learning or openess.
A couple of things were set up- short termism- in my view because the main managers wanted things to perk up slightly for their records and everything was let to fly off the wayside..
How is that meant to motivate colleagues? Rather.. it will deflate their enthusiasm for the work when even the business cannot uphold the obligations it set the employees... bearing in mind that the obligations came in teh first instance from the managers of the business
That is my view on a manager.. now i understand that my views and reality views may differ but, lets call a spade a spade and say that- if you want productive employees, them you should be able to put in place clear-cut structures that will imbibe in these employees, provide clear directions on how you want them to behave, allow them to use their natural strenghts and provide feedback behaviour and performance on an ongoing basis.
When i look at this as a compasiron to what is happening in my workplace then i know that we still have a long way to go yet before things get to normal. Generally i feel as if we just have manages who are more concerned with getting their paycheques at the end of the day than actually managing and bringing the best out of the people they are charged with.
Its no wonder that colleagues are offsick constantly.... There is no encouragement or even a culture of learning or openess.
A couple of things were set up- short termism- in my view because the main managers wanted things to perk up slightly for their records and everything was let to fly off the wayside..
How is that meant to motivate colleagues? Rather.. it will deflate their enthusiasm for the work when even the business cannot uphold the obligations it set the employees... bearing in mind that the obligations came in teh first instance from the managers of the business
- Succession planning that was put in place by the managers went haywire. The selection process was not dont fairly and openly and after about 1 month in operation and it was forgotten.Do you understand how it feels to raise ones hopes and dash it without the slightest incling for how they will feel and react?.
- No business accumen from the managers . The managers dont care where the business is going. In short,they dont know where it is heading. yet senior leaders are utilising them to tell the ordinary folk how the business is performing. The monthly service pack does not get circulated. If it does , it is only to a select few of priviledged colleagues, who have a way of worming the managers round their fingers... ( fair play to them, if you can get away with it, then by all means carry on) How do we expect colleagues to feel proud of the business they woryk for when they dont know jack what happens in the business? No info as to where th company is heading, no clue as to what direction we are facing. They cant explain why the business is taking a certain position. yet these are the leaders we breed and allow to flourish to guide other employees
People are our most important assets, but if we continue to let them be exposed to incompetent managers who virtually have no training/desire to manage people then the outcome for the company is what we are experiencing.
Consistent underperformance which in the end of things has ended up in closure of the busness unit.
I have to be homest i hate it here now, the management have made me sooooooooooooo fraustrated with how this place is run and i am now quite admant that i want to leave.
I guess in the face of all things you have to look at things on the scale of what u have an influence on, what you may be able to extert an influence on and what u cannot exert an influence on.
simple as that!!
Change the things you can, apply elbow grease to those u can influence and stop bothering on those u can do nada with.
Friday, 6 March 2009
Proof.. chapter 98
- Those who disbelieved among the people of the scripture, as well as the idol worshipers, insist on their ways, despite the proof given to them
- A messenger from GOD is reciting to them sacred instructions
- In them there are valuable teachings
- In fact, those who received the scripture did not dispute until the proof was given to them.
All that was asked of them was to worship GOD, devoting the religion absolutely to Him alone, observe the contact prayers (Salat), and give the obligatory charity (Zakat). Such is the perfect religion. - Those who disbelieved among the people of the scripture, and the idol worshipers, have incurred the fire of Gehenna forever. They are the worst creatures.
- Those who believed and led a righteous life are the best creatures
- Their reward at their Lord is the gardens of Eden with flowing streams, wherein they abide forever. GOD is pleased with them, and they are pleased with Him.
- Such is the reward for those who reverence their Lord.
Translation from http://www.submission.org/.
Today is Jumah(congregational prayer day)
I get excited on jumah days…. I was listening to this verse today and it struck me by its message.
So a couple of things that I have for questions
Proof: Which proof….
For me proof could be a couple of things….
1. Proof of one God worthy to be worshiped
2. Proof that the person bringing the message was true
3. Proof that the religions were all the sameProof of 19 miracle maybe…( if applied to this time)
Secondly I am asking what are the sacred instructions…
Could it be the teachings in the Quran, or maybe other verbal teachings?
These are the two things that jump at me initially…
Then when I look at the surah as a whole..
Then for me I get that :Somebody has brought proof to people, but some people did not accept it.
The iconic part of this surah for me is verse 5..This for me I can safely say is the principles of islam..
Worshiping God- devoting the religion to God alone - This here is crucial since i guess it means God alone... not God and prophet.. not God and messenger but God alone
Salat/mandatory Prayer which is the action of bowing and prostration to God - specified as certain times each day and
Zakat/mandatory Charity which is the charity given on the day of harvest, given to parents, orphans, poor and traveling alien as described in the Quran teachings
In fact I can safely assume (assuming is not good though) that through out the verses in the quran… this is what is asked of us all…
When I look at as a means of joining people/religions together… it is a wonderful thing -God, Prayer and Charity… as simple as that…
On another note...
I always seem to wonder about the scriptures and what to do when reading them…
Generally I tend not to take single verses in isolation but rather read the whole chapter and then try to get an understanding of the whole thing as it relates to me and my experiences.. (Suffice to add here that may God guide be to the best understanding).
From my own logic, I look at it that a whole chapter/surah is giving us a message and the theme of such chapter is in the verses ....I guess.
In isolation, a verse may be ammunition or defense for a variety of acts, it may serve as justification for culpability and action… but when taken as a part of something whole, the verse can be understood in terms of intent and awareness…
Something to think about for later i guess...
fats
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