June 2019

This month has not been successful for me..prayer wise..
I rarely got up to say morning prayers..i rarely got up to say evening prayers..
I just slept.. even when my alarm woke me..i rarely got up..i made excuses..and even on some days  i said to myself..i am not getting up.. i didnt even make any bargains with thee Lord..i just did not want to get up..
Dear lord.. let it be the end of this..
No more..
I have failed.. i have fallen.. but i rise up and i seek from thee energy and zest..i seek from thee strenght and fortitude to do that which i should do.. to do that which i must do.. to remember thee.. to learn thy word..
Abide with me dear Lord and help me to regain myself....

Postulate

I have long long had a suspicion that the hindi language..and arabic are entwined in some way.. largely because of similarities i find..
Qasam in hindi is to swear..
Wa qasamahuma..in 7:20..is he swore to them...

Even before this i had a thought and still hold to it in my head.  That the hindi are none other than the some from that timr generations(POSSIBLY) who left..not all perished there i think..
For me it ties in with their many idols and what i read in quran about the people of that time..
The same are found wherever you go..
But either way God be praised..before me and after me..God be praised in all directions right and left ..may his holy name be exalted always...

Ramadan 2019. Thank you God for everything

Let me take this moment to say thank you my God for seeing me through 2019 ramadan.. there was a time i didnt think i would make it.. but you pulled me through and you are seeing me through it..
Just a simple thank you..for everything.. for all things.. for this something.. for anything.. thank you dear God..

Ramadan 2019

At the start of tjis.. i asl your blessings and mercy as usual and as always.. i asl for progress in this life and hereafter..for your blessings of provisions.. you know what is in my heart.. you know what i want.. what i need.. dear lord.as always help me please

36:69..

Wa ma alamnahu shira. Wa ma yanbaghi lahu.. in huwa illa zikru wa quranu mubin..

I woke.up.today with this verse in my head..

Quran translation

I am still using the RK translation as a base for my understanding the arabic of the quran but even me in my limited knowledge i believe sometimes it's not the best.
I think the best is to review different ones and there was such a service called web qt amd another ine which directly translated  the words(that one i cannae find it again..what a shame)
I find words missed from being translated in the rk one and i ask myself..is there a message there??.
So many times i have thought to myself to collate these words but i am not a record keeper.. but gw the next time i start anew..i will try to record it..

Help please

Help.me.please my lord. I can feel the stressors back when i see this thing on his head..i ask for very speedy recovery. I remember how it ravaged him but i think it has come back..please please help.me.. i always think its my fault.. but i wash his head everyday with soap so how did he get it again..

7 years

7 years have flown by  just like that

7 years of wonders and learning about myself and another human being

He is a lovely boy – very thoughtful, caring – ever the peace keeper –

 He loves music he is artistic and crafty

I am very proud to be his mother and I am proud to know to date that he is my son.

Do I am very grateful for our journey

 As I have dedicated him to you when he was conceived I am still dedicating him to you asking for your  special grace on  his destiny and journey

I seek that you keep him aware from vice and evil and wrong behaviour.

I know not everyone is perfect and everyone has flaws but I ask for him for the gentle soul that he is  to please keep him away from  all the wrong behaviour and thoughts – people that may lead him astray.

I  ask for strength and  help   in myself so that I don’t lead him astray I ask that I set for him a good example  that he can follow.

I ask for guidance and tempering my emotions so I don’t hurt or harm him

help him lead with clarity and thought – help him be firm so people don’t take advantage of him

 Help him win hearts so they  listen to him.
He is yours my Lord.. i thank you for his life and that is entrusted with you. For your mercies and blessings on him that i see and i dont see. For protecting him and caring for him. I am grateful to thee o Lord as i ask that you continue your blessings and Mercy on him always. That you grant him righteousness and let him walk in your light in truth. Accept him lord in your service.. accept me too lord in your service.. and our AM also.. our little family our little unit..thy name is good and to Thee we must give praise and thanks.
For all praise is your
All authority and Kingship
Be thou Glorified most gracious Lord

Glory to God

You are God.. from beginning to the end.. there is no space for arguement..you are God all by yourself...

Missed daye

I have not felt like this for a while.. and i dont know why it is late.. but i have had
The tell tales signs it will come.. i am equally happy and sad and apprehensive all in the one go.. were it to be another how will i feel how will i say because it was not in my active plan at all..

Glorious God

Glorious God.. wonderful God.. miracle worker.. You are King..Omnipotent one.. i worship you.. your majesty is forevermore..
Right know i praise the name of my lord. The most Gracious Lord. I thank you for my life and that of my children that is entrusted to you. I thank you as i seek your mercies amd blessings in our lives..
I thank you as i seek forgiveness for our sins.. that which we commit knowingly and unknowing.. i give praise to thee o Lord as i ask for your blessing in my life as i ask for your guidance and support.. thou are my Lord. My Creator and sustainer..
This is not fancy words but a statement of fact from my soul to the one that has created it.. it is an affirmation of love to its lord.. the One that nurtures it..
In this life lord guide me to you.. keep me with you..support me and bless me.. provide for me and heal me.. that i shall need of nothing but that which only you have bestowed for me and on me.. that my eyes and spirit may not wander but for things which meet with your approval. In the hereafter accept me with you..
I thank you lord as i ask that you guide protect and shield my children from evil and vice.. let not my own mistakes visit upon them.. help me to be show them a good example help me to show them a great example.. help me to teach them about you and only you. Protect them and shield their mind from bad influences..
I commend my life and that if my children in the hands of a capable Lord.. the most Gracious Lord..
Thy name be praised in all the heavens and earth..

Guidance

Wa tawafani muslima, wa al hiqni fi rahmati bi salihin.
Let me die as a submitter and count my by thy mercy with the righteous.
Yusuf 12:101

Outburst

I am not upset with you lord. I can never be. I am just disappointed at my life and the stage i am at. This is causing me to feel frustrated and loose focus.
But as i read.. no one shall despair he that has trust in the lord and i trust in my god because i know and have felt his mercy and Grace.. and i seek that mercy and grace again and again..
Thy holy name be praised and exalted o lord my god in this life and the hereafter..be thou glorified

Thanks

Dear God.. thank you for everything.. let there not be a day that i dont shout out in praise to thee for your glory that is manifest with me.. let.me.forever be in awe of your greatness and wonder..
You WHO made what seemed impossible possible.. you who delivered my freedom.. you who set me on your path.. keep me praising thee o lord.. keep me i. Your service lord..
Even in fields so broad your duties i still perform and i ask for no reward except to worship thee...
For all praise is yours
All authority kingship and glory
In this life and hereafter
Be thou glorified my lord..

Lost family

Yesterday lord my mind went up to my family and those i grew up with and i reminisced about the fun times we all had before the division and alliances and hatred set in.. how did this happen.. when did this happen...god help us all..