the number 487

 yesterday i thought of this and this is my number for what i want to use to praise the almighty..4 - 8 - 7.

my praise

1 – Most High is God, the Possessor of Sovereignity. There is no God but He. The Almighty Most Wise.

Praise be to the Lord of the Universe, the God of Abraham – the monotheist – He is the one God and there is no other God but He, the Knower of all secrets and declarations. He is the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful.

Fata ala llahu Malika-l-Mulki. La ilaha illa lahu Al Azzizu – l - Hakim.

Alhamdulilahi rabbil a’lamin. Llahu Ibrahim, hanifan. Huwa llahu ahad, la ilaha illa huwa, Alimu gaybi wa shahadati. Wa Huwa arhaman arrahim

2 – My God you are God. There is no other God but You. You are the King, The Most Sacred, the Peace, You are the Most Faithful and the Supreme. You are the Almighty and the Most Powerful. You are The Most dignified. Blessed are you, O Lord, and Be you Glorified My Lord,  far above having any partners.

Allahuma anta allahu. La illaha illa huwa. Al Mulku, al Qudussu, Asalam, alMuminu, Al Muhayminu, Al azziz, Al jabbar Almutakabir .Subhanaka llahuma ama yashrikun.

3 –My God  you  are one the absolute God. The Creator, the initiator and the designer. To you belong the most beautiful names and glorifying you is everything in the heavens and the earth. Blessed are you O Lord for You are the Almighty, the Most Wise

Allahuma anta wahid.Allahu Samad. Khaliqu, Bariyu al musawiru. Llahu asmau-l-husna.Yusabihu ma fi samawati wa ma fil ardhi. Tabaraka Llahu, Anta Azzizu Hakim.

4 - Praise be to thee my Lord, Lord of the Universe. Glorifying you is everything in the heavens and earth. You are the Almighty, the Most Wise. To God belongs the Kingship of the heavens and the earth. He controls Life and death and He is the Omnipotent. He is  the Alpha and Omega. You are the Outermost and the Innermost. Blessed are you O Lord for you are fully aware of all things.

Alhamdulilahi rabil alamin. Yusabihu mafi samawati wal ardhi. Wa  anta Azzizu Hakim. Lahu-l-Mulku samawati wal ardi.. Yuhyi wa yumitu  wa huwa ala kulli shayin Kadir. Huwa Awalu wal akhiru, wa zahiru wa-l-batinu. Tabaraka llahu wa huwa ala kulli shayin Alim.

5 – Praise be to God My Lord the one who created the heaven and earth in six days, then assumed all authority. You know everything that enters into the earth and everything that comes out from it. You know everything that comes down from the sky and everything that climbs into it. You are with us wherever we may be. Blessed are you O Lord you are the seer of everything we do.

Alhamdulilahi  anta rabbi lazi khalaqa samawati wal ardhi fi sitatin ayamin thumastawa alal arshi. Yalamu ma yaliju fil ardhi wa ma yakhruju minha. Wama yanzilu mina samai wa ma yaa’ruju fiha wa huwa ma a kum aynama kuntu. Tabaraka Llahu  wa huwa alimu bi zati suduri.

6 -You O Lord are God -there is no other god besides Thee, You are the Living, the Eternal. Never a moment of unawareness or slumber can overtake Thee. To You belongs everything in the heavens and everything on earth. No one can intercede with Thee, except in accordance with Thy will. No one attains any knowledge, except as you will. Your dominion encompasses all the heavens and the earth, and ruling them never burdens thee in the slightest. Blessed are you O Lord, the Most High, the Great.

Allahu anta allahu – la ilaha illa huwa Al Hayyu al Qayumu. La ta khuzuhu sinnatun wa la nawm, llahu ma fi samawati wa ma fil ardhi. Maaza ladzi yashfau’ indahu illa bi idzni, ya’lam ma bayna aydihim wa ma khalfau. Wa la yuituna bishayin min ilmihi illa bi man shaa’, wasiya Qursiyu samawati wal ardha. Wa  la yahuduhu ifzuhuma .Tabaraka llahu huwa Aliyu – Azeem.

7 – My God you are God the possessor of all sovereignty. You grant sovereignty to whomever You choose, You remove sovereignty from whomever You choose. You grant dignity to whomever You choose, and commit to humiliation whomever You choose. In Your hand are all provisions.  Praise be to God He is the Omnipotent.

Allahuma anta allahu, Al Malikal Mulku. Tutti mulka man tashau, Wa tanziu’ mukla mimn tashau’ wa tui’zu man tashau wa tudzilu man tashau’ bi yadika=l – khayru . Subhannallahi wa huwa ala kulli shayin kadir.

8  - You O Lord, merge the night into the day, and merge the day into the night. You produce the living from the dead, and produce the dead from the living, and You provide for whomever You choose, without limits. Blessed are you My god, you are The Best Provider.

tuliju layla fi nahari wa tuliju nahara fi layli. Wa tukhriju-l haya minal mayyiti wa tukhriju-l mayyiti minal haya. Ta tarzuku man tashau; bi ghayri hisabi.Rabaraka llahuma anta Khayru razzikin

9a - You O Lord are the One who created the heaven and the earth truthfully.Whenever you say Be, it is. Your word is the absolute truth. All sovereignity belongs to you the day the horn is blown. You are the knower of all secrets and declarations. Blesses are thou O lord, you are the omniscient, the wise.

Alhamdu lilahi rabbil Alamin. Allahu khalaqa samawati wal ardha bul Haqqi. Wa yawma yakulu Kun faya Kun. Qaolukul ?Haqqu, wa llahu Mulku, yawma yunfaku fi soori,alimul ghaybi wa shahadati. Tabaraka allahu anta A’limu hakim

9b- You O Lord, You bestow knowledge, and understanding. You are the Provider, the Posessor of all Power, the Supreme. O favor me with the knowledge, the understanding and the insight that come from you. Blessed are you, O Lord, the gracious giver of knowledge.

O Lord, I approach Thee through remembrance of Thee and I speak thine intercession with thyself. Bestow on me your favour and draw me close to your service. Inspire me O Lord to remember Thee in all things.

I give thanks to you that you are the Lord my God and the God of my fathers forever and ever. Through every generation you have been the rock of our lives, the shield of our salvation.I give you thanks and declare your praise for my life that is committed to you and for my soul that is entrusted to you, For your miracles that are daily with me, and for your wonders and your benefits that are with us at all times, evening, morning and noon. I put my hope in Thee. For all these acts may your name be blessed and exalted always, O our King, forever and ever. Glorifying you is everything in the heavens and the earth. My God, My Salvation. Blessed are you, O Lord, The Most Gracious and to whom it is fitting to give thanks and Praise.

work

 before i  begin, i have to say to thee o lord. thank you for everything in my life. for my trials and tribulations, for my struggles, for the glimpse of happiness and the joy of everything that my destiny has put me through.

 the darkness my lord is eating into me and i don't know how to stop it.
 i have now descended - if this is the right pun  for it - into  thoughts which are unbecoming of me and i am getting sucked in more and more.
taking my life is not part of me because it is not  something that  i have read in the scriptures to be desired - but i find myself thinking more  and having thoughts of why dont i just jump off  a cliff or  drive head on into a tree.
 my  desire to drive to my mountain, i avoid because i dont want any temptations.
 but at my mountain i feel close with the air i am able to focus my thoughts but i cry when i am there and i dont want to let my darkness come over me whilst i am there
 it is the only thought of my children thinking of their anguish without their mother that gets me through sometimes but the lure and the thoughts resurface again.

 i guess it all boils down to the fact that i  feel extremely tired, stressed out-  no energy - i am worn out at work before i even come home

 my feelings of  resentment towards this employer of mine is growing.
 today i wrote a note to myself for work  which i penned the legacy i leave  behind at work.
 -  that i do my best at all times - ensuring that i am active and productive. I say this hand on heart because i want to do my best, - if not be the best - be among the best. i am punctual and i consider myself to be effective in what i have been asked to do - all the time trying to learn and understand how the business works so i can do things according to how the business wants it. I am punctual to work -  i give them my all - more than i am contracted for my hours*** so i can feel and know my worth for the wages they pay me. I am always at work - baring family emergency and or the relative odd sickness - even with that as long as my hands are working and my eyes can see - i will still drag myself to work and do something - which i consider is better than nothing. the fear is always that any mounting work will be left for me to deal with because everyone else is struggling themselves.  i have put the *** because the work gives me an uplift due to a previous role which they have continued  that due to us changing roles they agreed to keep the same  agreements we had - so with that i work extra hard to ensure that i deserve everything they give me.  i dont take my job lightly. i may not understand the tennents of law but i do what they ask me to do and  ask when i am not sure on what to do. I may not agree with decisions in regards to my customers and feel that we should fight a case  even when the evidence says now but because of the systems of law we  give in. i accept all that.
 - that my customers who i consider to be my policyholders, the  all solicitors  on whose files i maintain, brokers and all sorts  have the confidence that whenever they contact  me i will attend and acknowledge their  request very quickly. I wont keep them waiting, i will  help them too move their files on as i too want to move my files on.
 - that  i am committed to work - all i have ever known since coming here is work - i work to earn money to live. I am not an idle sort of person - i work to learn to progress.

 despite my working hard and toiling and trying to do what they want me to do - i am stuck in a role no progress.  i see  people who have just  literally come in the door getting ahead having  roles and developing themselves but i am stuck where i am.  my hard work i feel  counts for nothing at all. The  ideology i feel in my work is that the lazier you are the more you will progress  as long as you pally with management.

 but i fail at this because for one i am not lazy( and i use this term loosely as  my definition is not being bothered  or taking responsibility about ones work) and i  lack interpersonal skills. i dont make friends easily because i dont trust  easily and i dont like to partake in idle chitchat and inquire about people when i dont really mean it. if i want to know something in particular i ask of it - and bearing this in mind my enquiries may be just outright crazy..

i dont pally with management  because i come to work do my bit and more and leave  - i dont socialise with work staff because one i dont have the time because i al looking after my family and attending to their needs -  two because the activity which my  work mates partake in  that they use to bond is not something i do -  i dont drink and  i dont like visiting  pubs/clubs -
 - the occasional team lunch i will go to but even at that it messes up with my duties of prayer  as i reserve my lunch time to pray which is my obligation to do.. and many at times when i go for the team lunch i forget to pray - feel as if someone is clocking me if i leave my seat for what is 5 mins and i feel as if i m not paid to take time out to pray as if i am shortchanging the business.. i try to pray in my seat but in reality the concentration is not there too because i have to  switch off my phones still i feel like i am being clocked..

 my 35hr day work for me i come in and do my work and yet other people doing overtime and getting paid more for their overtime - i am asked to do their work in my own working hours.  i dont understand that.
 i dont get acknowledgement for the extra help i give my colleagues in work - above and beyond what i do
 i dont get paid or any incentive for it.
 i am not aghast to assisting and helping because i do even  without anyone asking me but i stopped because i felt  like the above and also i felt like i was being taken advantage off.
there is no thanks from the people you assist and the impression i get is  that it is taken for granted that i am  there to fill in with their work for them

 i need money too - if i could i would do some overtime but i cant -  and i feel as though i am penalised/overlooked for progress because i cant commit to that  and  that  i have  raised my voice at what i see as unfair practices and the stress at the sheer volume of  what i have been doing..

 only of recent in the last 6 month i refused to be taken for a mug. and i use this term in all its ramifications because i don't see why and how i should be working for people who are paid to come in to work but come in doing the barest minimum and leave at the end of the day - why should   i be doing their work or taking ownership of their work for them when they cannot be bothered to do the same.
 i voiced my frustrations  and with that the management have taken a dim view of me .
 there is always an excuse   for everything in this work of mine not really doing what they should do but giving excuse for shady behaviour with work and drawing a blind eye and expecting  others to move the business on rather than those they have employed to do it.
 why should i be working when others are idling and not really doing the work they should be doing.
the shady behaviour of being  - fiddling figures to make it seem that they are working and  we all know games people play and the disregard with their work -  i have seen it all.

 then there is the issue of wellbeing which is greatly overlooked in my work.  with what we do we have no choice but to intrude into peoples lives often being aware of their intimate medical history and psychological details .. the effects that these have on us is overlooked..

 i complained to my  manager around xmas time that i was feeling stressed and all my manager could do was tell me how i was her i should nto be like her basically come in do your bit and leave dont care.. i was referred to some quacky  service which in my opinion was just shit - i have tried in so many ways to tell my manager that i am stressed, the workload is demanding -  they dont care.
 we had a temporary manager once and his way of moving things is giving me others work to do because i was  up to date.. i am up to date because i work damn hard to ensure i do - btu you keep getting piled on more work or expected to take on more work -  it got to a point i was not sleeping, waking up thinking about work how to move files on - it just gets toooo much

 i dont see why i should slave myself for someone who has not real appreciation for the work done - whose  discussions with you  end up all being about herself and her achievements.  where is my development, where is my progress from their hands - it is null and void because they are not interested.
 i dont know how to be fake  so i avoid spending time with my manager as much as possible and i try and avoid her spending time with me because the fakeness  is apparent for me. there is no real interest just an desire to further her name within the business.

 the progression and movement to development is not clear and its is just whispers behind glass mirrors. managers promote those they  want - there is no clear strategy as to who and why they develop who they want - what kind of a place is this.

 i am grateful for my job  Lord i am grateful for any Job in these hard times but  there is a limit to  non progress.

  with all of this  weighing on my mind i remind myself constantly that i am not perfect and who am i to judge because 1% imperfection is just as grave as 10% which is just as grave ad 50% but the discontent in how the work is managed is eating into me and contributing to my  darkness.

 i am resolved to leave if i can find another job but i love my job and it pains me to leave..  the sacrifice i make  is i have a place to say my prayers at work - where else can i find that.. but is this sacrifice too much to bear if there is no progress or movement..

 i want to succeed God in this job - i give them my all and more. i want to  progress.
 i ask myself is it because i am black that i am overlooked -  is it because i dont  tie myself emotionally with any one person with work - it is because my work is bad - and if my work is bad why are they not telling me - i will try to be better - i will try to do better and improve.  am i that much of a hopeless case that they could not be bothered.

in spite and despite Lord of my issues and darkness and what i consider to be my problems let me thrive above the  sight of my enemies - let me thrive and succeed. By thy grace and mercy. grant me it.

darkness

the darkness seems to want to envelope me again dear lord. so i seek refuge with thee. it comes and goes most weeks more than others. i am trying to understand it trying to study it to figure out what triggers it..today it was a lit after work the feeling of despair and helplessness. the word on my head was i am loosing control of my life.
trying to stay upbeat with children and not let my demons affect them.. trying to stay upbeat and focus on them.. i still dont understand why i get these feelings and thoughts.. it seems easier to accept them but i dont know. the other day i read about someone who maybe took their life
and i saw a glimpse of their madness. it reminded me of me... we were not too far apart in thoughts. i am scared lord.
in everything guide me. with everything bless me. for everything show me. thy name be praised and glorified always.

mantra

rabbana la tuwakhisna innasina awakhtana
rabbana wa la tahmil alayna isran kama hamaltahu alla ladzina min qablina. rabbana wa la tuhamilna ma la taqata lana bihi. wa afuwana wa aghfirlana wa arhamna anta maulana fa ansurna ala alqaomil kafirin.

this translates for me as our lord do not condem us if we forget or make a mistake. our lord let us not blasphemy against you like others before us have done. our lord keep is from sinning until it is too late for us..pardon us forgive us and have mercy on us you are.our master. grant us victory over those that disbelieve.

the above is my mantra for the day..it reminds me how easy it is to forget simple prayers and thoughts..

work

I cannot sleep and I am trying to capture m exact feelings on a variety of issues.

 The most prominent being work  - though I think the most prominent should be about me and my soul.

 I looked at a colleagues work today who has been off and I can see that she is coming back to  about 2 weeks  worth of work and it makes me sad.

Sad that I wouldnot help.

 The state that is it with me and work and what I perceive as a lack of I don’t give a shit by some people in the work they do is such that I have decided for my sanity to leave everyone to their mess.

 The last time this person was off – I tried to manage my work, manage my work without being asked this is the thing that gets me – I do all these things without being asked because I want for our work to go ticking along.. when it comes to the surface then I was being piled on some more. I though  at the very least our manager would ask others to pull their weight but no.

When we had a interim manager – the same was the case in that he saw I what was urgent work which should have been picked up by the handlers but kept them on my pile because they had to be done.. now the od one or two but everyday is out of the question – that is me doing someones work.

 I get the feeling that in my work  we are happy with mediocre – heck we want less than mediocre. If we accept that people can not care about their contribution and level of work then we can accept that  shit will nto get done.

 Now I say this with full knowledge that everyone has different levels of ability and contribution – but it is that they contribute.

  If we all fight to be fit then we can all get there.

 This I don’t understand and I find it very hard to  digest.

 I felt bad because I refused to help – and that is worrying me.  but I wont bugdge because it is a point of issue.

 I feel taken advantaged of – the right expression is exploited without any genuine appreciation/thanks.

I know their system is systems thinking where hard work  is not encouraged or appreciated because they believe it is sending the wrong messages.

 But what is the wrong message when you will only stay and take work when you are being taken extra

 In the time that you are paid to do work you will do the barest minimum or nothing at all and let things compile -  I have always said I don’t understand this habit

  But I guess the worry is that I worry and I should  stop worrying because it is not good to worry as it affects my stress level, my health and well being.

 I worry because I cannot help.

 I worry because I don’t want to help – when did I get to that stage?

Because I have been given much I too must give – this has been a mantra for me to stop  selfishness and to give whether it be my time my effort or whatever else I can muster.

But I guess I am feeling underappreciated and I don’t like that.

But doing for other people is not about expecting thanks or appreciation. Its about doing for the sake of dong.

Not that anyone cares.

 I guess I am not cut out for adult world. ] am I cut out for any world?

worries

sometimes i feel lile jumping off a cliffe. the feelings gets greater sometimes and i try to push it away with music. i cant sleep and i worry too mucj. i dont know what or how to deal with bed wetting or potty training. i am afraid i am failing children. i am afraid i am failing self

mantra

this morning  my mantra for today
 illa llahi aqibatil umuru.
Ina ma amruhu idza arada shayan
an yakula lahu kun fa ya kun
subhanallahi bi yadihi ma la kuntu kulli shayin
wa ilayhim turjaoon.

 for me this translates to
 with God is the end of all matters - ( control over all things)
 for anything to be done He just has to command Be and it is
so glory be to God, in whose hands is the dominion over all things and to him we  are all returned.

My God I am sorry i have let the void grow between us but as ever you remain in my heart
 but the void of separation that stops me from offering you more praise by way of meditation should stop
the void that stops me from concentrating on finding you should stop
the void that is slowly taking me away from you should stop
the void that slowly prevents me from offering my charity should stop
the void of separation by your grace and mercy will stop.

 I am sorry my lord,

For all praise is yours, all authority Kingship and glory.
in this life and in the next
Be thou Glorified My Lord.

light in darkness

lord you have shined a light on my darkness.. I am very grateful and I thank you for looking out for AR..now by your grace we shall see the end to this affliction and it wont bother us again..thank you god.. thank you

la tahzan, inna llaha Ma'anaa - Do not grieve, God is with us

 this i read as a phrase from surah 9 :40.. and it struck within me..
May God be with me wherever I go, whatever i so, whatever my State..
May He continue to support and provide for me from amongst His bounties..
May his provisions to me be sufficient for me
May it  cause me to continually give Praise and Thanks to Him
God is a faithful and Caring Lord.

thanksgiving

I that I am F A O, with all that I have, offer up my thanks to the Most Gracious Lord, our creator for his speedy response to one of my cried for help. I am GRATEFUL my lord at your resolution, I AM THANKFUK FOR YOUR ASSISTANCE. MY God thank you very plentifully very muchly very ecstatically over this issue. you have lit up my darkness you have done for me.. thank you.
for All praise is yours, All authority and kingship, in this life and the hereafter there is no other God but Thee..

Supplication - arRaheem Khayru-l-Raziqin

this is my supplication to the Most Gracious Lord, in that  i seek His help, His Mercy and Provisions.. to please help me and provide for us a  nursery place for both children, at the nursery that is cheaper.
Ultimately Lord, you being my King have all knowledge of what is and what is to come.. you know what is best and You place as you will in regards the welfare of these Children.
It is not for my care but for they Grace and Love that these children live and are well and by thy Grace Long may it continue.

I start my supplication  seeking to reach thee Lord on they attribute of Mercy  - You are a Merciful God and i know this and can say this hand on my heart how merciful you have been with me. I rely yet again on they mercy on this issue.
you are also a Providing God and many a times you have provided for me whence i never expected it and you provided and surely your provisions are always fitting, adequate and satisfying.
ArRaheem and ArRazaq.

 i  continue my supplication with verse 5:114 in which the the scripture notes the prayer of JEsus to God. I implore my Lord with this  same prayer - asking that  he provide for me relief.
the verse Goes.. Our God, Our Lord, send down a feast from the sky. Let it bring plenty for each and every one of us and a sign from You. Provide for us. You are the best Provider.

The feast i seek from you, is one of  metaphorical hunger.. Hunger for the things which are thine and thine only.. hunger for progress and success.. hunger fo rthe goodness which thou doth provide.. Hunger for righteousness.. Hunger for Ease with life and safety for my childrens needs and welfare..

My God, who can i come onto to ask and put forward my case, to  beg and plead who else if not you.
 you have created me, and established me as i am.. You have helped me to know you. you have helped me to accept you and not run from you.. I am not perfect far from it.. every day I sin.. sin of emotion and anger.. sin of frustration with my life and my circumstances.. sin of arrogance..  but i will ask Lord that you overlook these faults of mine and help me please..

i dont want my children to lack.. and by thy grace they will not lack..
i beg of thee Lord please help me..

Allahuma rabbana, anta allahu,  anta ArRahman,warzuqna, wa anta khayru - l -  razziqin
Our God, Our Lord, you are my God, you are The Most Gracious, Provide for me, you are the best Provider

Om Jai Jagadish Hare.. Oh Lord of the Whole Universe

 so the other day i was watching  the many runs of  indian soaps and i came across this song.. which i have heard many a time on the film i watch and i wanted to know the meaning .

 i am happy to know the meaning of it because it astounds me that it is such a lovely song in praise and acknowledgement of God - just God that i too give it credence in that  it is a lovely supplication onto God.

 now obviously the many multifaceted nature that is indian cultural worship  aside - I am happy and i know who my God is.. God is the lord of the universe.. the one  and only and there is none other..Only He reigns supreme has always done and will always will..

Dear Lord wherever i am, let there be a part of me that will always appreciate praise for thee - in whatever language - let my heart accept it and   join in to give praise to thee..

http://www.shreehindutemple.net/hinduism/om-jai-jagdish-hare/
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jai_Jagdish_Hare

in arabic - alhamdullilahi, Rabbi - l - alamin - Praise be to God, Lord of the Universe

Om jai Jagdish hare
Swãmi jai Jagdish hare
Bhakt jano ke sankat
Dãs jano ke sankat
Kshañ men door kare
Om jai Jagdish hare

Jo dhyãve phal pãve
Dukh bin se man kã
Swami dukh bin se man kã
Sukh sampati ghar ãve
Sukh sampati ghar ãve
Kasht mite tan kã
Om jai Jagdish hare

Mãt pitã tum mere
Sharañ paðoon main kiski
Swãmi sharañ paðoon main kiski
Tum bin aur na doojã
Prabhu bin aur na doojã
Ãs karoon main jiski
Om jai Jagdish hare

Tum poorañ Paramãtam
Tum Antaryãmi
Swãmi tum Antaryãmi
Pãr Brahm Parameshwar
Pãr Brahm Parameshwar
Tum sabke swãmi
Om jai Jagdish hare

Tum karuñã ke sãgar
Tum pãlan kartã
Swãmi tum pãlan kartã
Main moorakh khalakhãmi
Main sevak tum swãmi
Kripã karo Bhartã
Om jai Jagdish hare

Tum ho ek agochar
Sab ke prãñ pati
Swãmi sab ke prãñ pati
Kis vidhi miloon Gosãi
Kis vidhi miloon Dayãlu
Tum ko main kumati
Om jai Jagdish hare

Deen bandhu dukh harta
Thãkur tum mere
Swãmi Thãkur tum mere
Apne hãth uthao
Apni sharañi lagão
Dwãr paðã hoon tere
Om jai Jagdish hare

Vishay vikãr mitãvo
Pãp haro Devã
Swãmi pãp haro Devã
Shradhã bhakti baðhão
Shradhã bhakti baðhão
Santan ki sevã
Om jai Jagdish hare

Om jai Jagdish hare
Swãmi jai Jagdish hare
Bhakt jano ke sankat
Dãs jano ke sankat
Kshañ men door kare
Om jai Jagdish hare

Oh Lord of the whole Universe
Mighty Lord of the whole Universe
All Thy devotees’ agonies
All Thy devotees’ sorrows
Instantly Thou banisheth
Oh Lord of the whole Universe

He who’s immersed in devotion
He reaps the fruits of Thy love
Lord, he reaps the fruits of Thy love
Floating in a cloud of comforts
Floating in a cloud of comforts
Free from all the worldly problems
Oh Lord of the whole Universe

Thou art Mother and Father
At Thy feet I seek eternal truth
Lord, at Thy feet I seek eternal truth
There’s none other than Thee, Lord
There’s none other than Thee, Lord
Guardian of all our hopes
Oh Lord of the whole Universe

Thou art Godly perfection
Omnipotent Master of all
Lord, omnipotent Master of all
My destiny’s in Thy Hand
My destiny’s in Thy Hand
Supreme Soul of all Creation
Oh Lord of the whole Universe

Thou art an ocean of mercy
Gracious protector of all
Lord, gracious protector of all
I’m Thy humble devotee
I’m Thy humble devotee
Grant me Thy divine grace
Oh Lord of the whole Universe

Thou art beyond all perception
Formless and yet multiform
Lord, formless and yet multiform
Grant me a glimpse of Thyself
Grant me a glimpse of Thyself
Guide me along the path to Thee
Oh Lord of the whole Universe

Friend of the helpless and feeble
Benevolent saviour of all
Lord, benevolent saviour of all
Offer me Thy hand of compassion
Offer me Thy hand of compassion
I seek refuge at Thy feet
Oh Lord of the whole Universe

Surmounting the earthly desires
Free from the sins of this life
Lord, free from the sins of this life
Undivided faith and devotion
Undivided faith and devotion
In eternal service unto Thee
Oh Lord of the whole Universe

Oh Lord of the whole Universe
Mighty Lord of the whole Universe
All Thy devotees’ agonies
All Thy devotees’ sorrows
Instantly Thou banisheth
Oh Lord of the whole Universe

help

 i have wondered what to say to you in the last weeks months and though i am able to speak in my head its now a struggle to find time to express my feelings.
 I am struggling lord,i am really struggling and as i struggle along i ask for thy help as  always as ever asking for thy Grace and assistance.

Rabbuna Allahu

Alayhi tawakaltu wa ilayhi unibu..
My lord is God.. in him I trust and to him I turn..
My lord your name be glorified and praised in all of the heavens and earth
Let me forever have cause to glorify and praise thee. Let me never forget thee. Let it be that my every thought begins with thee, seeking your acceptance and blessings upon every aspect of my life. Without a doubt you are a good lord to me, Helping me taking care of me... so this little girl thanks you for everything and more