the words to this hymn rings evermore true for me.. omJai jadish hare

Oh Lord of the whole Universe

Mighty Lord of the whole Universe

The agonies of devotees

The sorrows of devotees

In an instant, thou removest

Oh Lord of the whole Universe

He who's immersed in devotion

His mind's sadness ceases

Lord, his mind's sadness ceases

Joy, prosperity enter the home

Joy, prosperity enter the home

A body free of problems

Oh Lord of the whole Universe

Thou art my Mother and Father

Whom should I take refuge with

Lord, whom should I take refuge with

Without thee, there is no other

Without thee, there is no other

For whom I would wish

Oh Lord of the whole Universe

Thou art the ancient great soul,

Thou art the omnipotent master

Lord, thou art the omnipotent master

Perfect, Absolute, Supreme God

Perfect, Absolute, Supreme God

Thou art the Lord of everything and everyone,

Oh Lord of the whole Universe

Thou art an ocean of mercy

Thou art the protector

Lord, thou art the protector

I am a simpleton with vain desires,

I am a servant and thou art the Lord

Oh Lord,Grant me thy divine grace

Oh Lord of the Universe

You are the one unseen

Of all living beings

The Lord of all living beings

Grant me a glimpse

Grant me a glimpse

Guide me along the path to thee,

Oh Lord of the Universe

Friend of the helpless and feeble

Benevolent saviour of all

Lord, benevolent saviour of all

Lift up your hand

Offer me thy refuge

At thy feet

Oh Lord of the Universe

Removing faults of the mind(like ego,greed,selfishness etc.)

Defeating evil,Supreme Soul,

Lord, defeating evil

With all my Faith and devotion

Oh Lord,With all my faith and devotion

In Eternal Service Unto Thee,

Oh Mighty Lord of the whole Universe

Oh Lord of the whole Universe

Mighty Lord of the whole Universe

The agonies of devotees

The sorrows of devotees

Thou instantly removest

Oh Lord of the whole Universe

toilet nut

right now its a thank you.. thank you..  as simple as it is thank you.. i was trying for about 2-3 days to remove this safety nut and i just but went away and it  dropped off to the floor by itself.. this is nothing short of a miracle..
 i can try and apply logic to it but that itisself will not dilute my thanks to you God..
 possibly it is a lesson maybe  but thank you all the same.

Honouring..

And your Lord has decreed that you worship none but Him. And that you be dutiful to your parents. If one of them or both of them attain old age in your life, say not to them a word of disrespect, nor shout at them but address them in terms of honour.(23)And lower unto them the wing of submission and humility through mercy, and say: "My Lord! Bestow on them Your Mercy as they did bring me up when I was small."(24)

This is a rough translation that best explains my theme for tonight. 
long a time that i have wanted to  say to you lord and to offload my 
issue on this matter

 as best as i can say this is that i am failing.. and before i fall i come to God the most 
gracious Lord to save me..

 i have a couple of questions

 how can one maintain this - when that parent is  testing ones endurance  and resolve

 how can you maintain patience and best behavior when that parent has not shown you patience
 or best behavior.

how can you be better when you have been treated worse?

 i am failing this commandant lord i know that so i am coming to you to ask of you to 
PLEASE keep me away from this sin and keep me apart from this temptation  that is leading me 
to commit this sin

Free me of this bondage and help me to progress free.

 as the more i am here i fear i will descend and fall deep and deep  with this error.

 it is time for me to break free because i cannot be where i know you will sin.

 as i have always said to you, if there is something that  will make me sin once i acknowledge it 
help me be free of  it.

 if that thing is my mother and the  relationship i have with her then i am ready to forsake it,,  

 there are a couple of testy issues btw us and  i acknowledge that she is my mother, i may not like 
her way and i will not support  her in what i consider to be wrong but  i am  on the verge of trading
 insults 

and i will like to avoid this in all entirety.

 there os more to this and i am not sure how i can put this to words but for now lord.. i beg of thee and i 
implore thee my God to help me break free of this sin and help me to go with my family and give me
 the home that i have asked of thee.

 help me please.

 i have called on thee a secret call and a out there call to ask for a home from thee .. my home.. 
our home a home where the most gracious is  the only lord.. a home where we can be safe, a home 
that is dedicated to the most gracious and where his worship reigns. a home for my children and a
 sanctuary for our family.

that home that i have loved.. 

you and only you lord knows what is in my heart... i cannot lie to you and i cannot avoid even my 
own failings.. in everything o lord i come to you and i have tried to stay true to you and you only.. 
in the face of loneliness and social reclusim i still stay true to you oh lord  so i come to you.. 
this is a big  failing of mine and i fear i will fail if i have not already failed...

 so God let this not be a test for me for if it is i have already failed it..

 but my lord is full of  forgiveness and mercy so i implore him for his mercy to please help me..

 it is  me i am asking for help me and set me free..

God that set noah to his land, that set abraham apart from his family to set up on his own, that set up
 joseph  apart from his own.. That God who has incepted me and decreed my destiny that God 
is the most gracious that i trust  that i know, that i thank for bringing me this far that God i am asking 
of now to give us our house and set us free that we may like as one family to worship him.

 blessed be the name of God my Lord  for ever and ever

Rabbi anni Maghlubun fantasir

Who can i lament to.. Who should i complain to..to whom.can relay my despair.

We are trying to buy a house we want to live together but there is a game being played by sellers and i am not a.fan of game playing.

I appreciate they are trying to get more money for their.buck but we need a forever home. We are not game players we just want somewhere to live as a family. you have said the house is worth a certain amount so accept that amount.. you are already making a profit so why be greedy?
 i dont expect them to consider our situation i dont expect them to have pity on my children but have fear of God and remember for the future...

Everything is for a reason and meets with Gods approval and plan. And my god that has got me this far that has allowed me to achieve this much whence i never expected or could imagine.. that god who i have called on and still call on.. that one that i lay my hopes.on.......God.will make it.come.true by his Grace....

I dont have parents that have left me anything concrete nor.do i lay my sights on whatever they have achieved but i want to be able to leave for my two something tangible made.from graft and hard work...something truthful and good for their future.

 a house for us for our small family.. a house where  God alone is worship.. a house of peace and love for my children..

House wish list front receiving area before entering main hallway..  downstairs toilet.. and upstairs family bathroom.4 bedroom. Large lounge and dining area leading to garden. Cloakroom downstairs Large kitchen with utility room.. wide big flat garden (with a tree). Stairs leading to upstairs ideally family bathroom at top of stairs.. ensuite master bedroom( optional).. onstreet parking if not own driveway.. small front garden also. End terrace or semi detatched or standalone house. Straight windows that can take venetian blinds. Tall radiator in bathroom standalone toilet with family seat..wonderful storage cupboards in kitchen and bathroom.  I would want chest freezer and standing fridgefreezer unit in kitchen. Gas central heating. Preferably gas cooker and electric double oven....

I have asked.. my boy has asked.. and i ask of thee again o.lord. the first one.i wanted didn't happen.. the second one is now unravelling away into oblivion...so as with everything oh lord.. thy will be done in my life and may i forever live to praise thee.

 i lack patience for this o lord but as ever i live in hope of your mercy because i have tasted of your mercy so i know it to be true. help us to be successful in this endeavour..
you  are at the forefront of our plan and by your grace you will guide us through it.