Dear Lord, I come before thee yet again with more problems to place in front of thee.. You already know this issue of mine.
In a world which craves asthetic perfiction, here is me riddled with facial imperfection.. Growing up I used arrogance and bravado to cover up my pain at what I didn't inderstand: who am I plauged with acne troubles.. Now here I am old that I am and I am plauged again..
This time it is as a result of my hormones and breastfeeding being well and truly established..just like the first time..
When it happened the first time my husband deserted me when my face was all covered in buttons(large acne)
Now here I am and it is making me sad.. Because the voice again in my head is telling me make a choice: breastfeed with acne or dont breastfeed and no acne.. Choose btw what God has given me naturally for my child or vanity..
I have no choice to to choose breastfeeding and continue with it because that is the right thing to do.. But in this world which looks on us imperfect people and shuns us because of our imperfection how will I cope.. Nevertheless I bring myself before thee o lord with my shallowness of a problem.. I know better but yet it still bothers me.. Acceptance by Thee is the only acceptance one should crave yet we still want to be accepted by people in this world because we feel it makes our lives easy.. God be praised and glorified
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