fallgate...

"i dont know what my reaction will be after fallgate as this is the first time that we will see.. maybe its petty but i cant seem to get it out of my mind. i am still trying to understand/analyse how it all happened and sometimes when i think of it, it gets me upset at him.....I m trying to be positive about it, yes!! prayer is the key i keep forgetting that.... i just ask myself where is my prince charmin... seems i got a devil in disguise... but i dont want to believe that because God works in ways that we do nto understand.. and i trust God sent this man for me.... so i am still hoping"

such was the conversation and how it began.

fallgate..
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let me no lie my dear Lord, i am afraid... afraid of the uncertainty that lies ahead of me.. afraid that the person i love does not really love me but married me for "marry sake".. i am afraid that i have yet fallen into another gullible test again and let it defeat me...
i am afraid my Lord.. but as i said earlier.. prayer is the key.. with you there is hope and light and with you, i cannot let fear to become a hinderance on me...
so boldly in the name of God i will to to this place..
just as it is in the scripture - when noah says - in the name of God shall be its sailing and its moorings( khalifa translation 11:41) so i too Gw say in the name of God shall be my depature and arrival....
i trust in thee heavily dear Lord, of this i have no choice nor do i seek to have a choice..
you are the Lord who has looked after me from infancy, cared for me, sustained me, guided me and inspired me.. i seek to rely on thee heavily these coming months and forever after and i ask for your help and blessings, your guidance, patience, inspiration and care and good favour...
i fear that i am weak, but whence i trust in thee i find strenght..
i have asked from thee and you have given me...what a remarkable feeling to say that i asked of the Lord and He answered me... i beg of thee to please make things ok and alright,

fallgate, still pizzles me tho