dear God...

Dear Lord,

I need thy help and i need strenght courage and wisdon from thee.
i feel soooooooo lost and i am getting weary.
this year my Lord has tested me in many ways more than one - i have failed thee, i have failed to capture the zest in prayer to thee -
i have let life come before my relationship with thee.
but i am here to thee right now, asking for thy helping hand.
forvever my lord, le me be devoted to thee - to praise and exalt, to magnify and honour thee.

i have failed thee in that i have let life and mounting pressures disuade me from my obligations to thee - of that i stand guilty - and in as much as i confess - i put myself at thy feet - seeking mercy and comfort from thee.

you have provided me with a wonderful bounty - of which i am continually asking for good health and guidance with regards to it.. i need your help o lord.

tomorrow is my birthday - i will be 32 i guess, somepart of me is thinking i am suffering from some sort of depression - i feel so alone and lost - on a physical sense i feel alone - on a spiritual sense i feel lost - i need to find my way back to thee - to capture the zest to be able to sift through the maze of life with its misinformation with regards to thee - the only one i can rely on is you.
even your scriptures to an extent people have tainted with mistranslation - thereby confusing and confounding matters - but true understanding and knowledge lies with thee o Lord and you impart such knowledge unto whomever you will.

i need thee o lord for i dont know what to do - i need thee o lord
Dear lord, guide me to thee in this life and hereafter - thereby making my heart cognisant with your praise and worship - guide me to thee with thy light which illuminates all things 0 take me out of teh darkness which seems to cloud my days .
moving forward i ask for a good delivery, a healthy child - a righteous child - abled bodied with all faculties of hearing, speech, understanding - a child that will be devoted to thee as well - who will join me in praising and worshipping thee.
moving forward i ask for resolution of financial isues - i ask for approval and success from thee with work.
moving forward my lord i ask for contentment and happiness in all that i am and do
moving forward i ask thee o lord for forgiveness of my sins - keep me away from sin and evil and keep them away from me. keep my heart devoted to thee - through worship and praise, keep me glorifying thee night and day. let me never tire in this regard and let me not waiver in my obligations to thee. help me to understand my obligations - to understand them in truth and with logic in order that i may excel in them.
there is so much falseness and untruth in life - help me to overcome them - any obstacle in front of me help me to scale them.
my Lord i am needing thee more and more - i feel no guilt coming to thee for thou art my Lord - thou art my provider, my only source of help and comfort.
i need thee o lord i need thee