i am very reserved with my emotions but at the same time i am not

One of the things i have discovered about myself.. is that - i am a different person with everyone that knows me.

i choose carefully which side of me i let them see..
in addition to that i never really let anyone know how i truly feel on things...

i will give different answers to the same question,, i just dont want to be cornered into giving a specific answer...

so why do i do that....

is it a good thing? i dont know... yes for me i can say because the only one who knows my position on things apart from God, always because growing up i have learned to keep my stuff to myself, - partly because of the the situation in my house growing up and also because i have always had to fend for myself, i have never had someone i can confide in, tell my deepest secrets - one thing my mum used to do fr me and still does to an extent is that - i remember when i was younger and i told her something that i considered private - whenever she was upset with me, she would shout that thing out and then use it to insuult and ridicule me - how i hated that - the many times she said she wouldnt do that and she did, so i guess i never let people on to how i really feel on things - kind of protect my emotions from ridicule...

on another hand it is a bad thing because there are some times when you need to bite the bullet and say what you have to say. but i guess in life it is experience and gw you know when to and when not to say some stuff about you.