Prayer

You know, each time i read this verse I again and again ask myself the same question...
*How does one call on God a secret call?*

the verse is Surah 19 Verse 3.

It starts.. In the name of God Most Gracious Most Merciful,
1)KHYAS
2)A narration about your Lord;s mercy towards His servant Zachariah
3)He called his Lord a secret call.....

in my heady thinking, I am maybe thinking.. if i too could call on God a secret call.. maybe... just maybe...

A secret call... Is that a call from the soul to its creator,
A secret call... Is that a call on a particular night
A secret call... How can I call on God a secret call....

if i were to call on God a secret call... what would I say?

My Lord, Master of my fate and freedom, My soul feels weary and my spirit is flagging, but as I implore Thee I shall not despair.. My Lord, I am tired and i feel lonely but I console myself that you are with me where i may be, My Lord, I need thy help and I need your support, If i hold onto thee i will not fail.. My Lord grant me righteousness in this life and in the hereafter, My Lord forgive me and redeem me. My Lord, protect me from blaspheming against thee My Lord have mercy on mee. My Lord keep me away from sin and keep sin away from me,My Lord you are redeemer and You answer all prayers...My Lord, increase in my praise and augument more faith for me, My Lord guide me in Your path. My Lord, keep hold of me and shine your Light for me, My Lord, Let me not fall to temptation. My Lord Master of my fate and destiny, One who knowest my starvation and sees my hunger, My Lord, do not forsake me, keep me in your service, My Lord tie me to thee with a bond so tight, My Lord do not grant me an escape..
My Lord, inspire me with your words and motivate me in your Service, You are my God, you are my Lord, My Lord you answer all prayers. I have called to thee o Lord, and I leave my soul in your care, I place before thee my hopes and dreams, My aspirations and longings, You know what is best for me. you know my future you know my past, Lead me in righteousness o Lord.
Provide for me O lord, all the good things from thee, grant me steadfastness, Protect me O LORD from blashpeming against thee. My Lord you alons are the best Provider, My Lord you answer all prayers. Whenever i feel Lonely help me to remember thee, and to hold on to thee, to praise thee, as such that the lonliness disappears,,,What ever my circumstances O LORD, KEEP ME PRAISING THEE...IF IT GOES MY WAY, Keep me praising Thee, EVEN IF IT DOESNT, Keep me praising Thee. My Lord, make me one who consistently observes her salat to thee and hwo consisistently gives her zakat, My Lord augument more faith for me. Include me with thy righteous servants, Grant me paradise My Lord. My Lord you answer all prayers.