Better tings..

Prabhu.. rabbi.. my lord..So I got a response and i didnt get it.. I am not sure how to feel but i feel.ok..actually.. I kinda felt I won't get anywhere but this is me plotting my exit.. and with the grace it will be possible..
I am ready to go and just like you set me free before I know you will set me free to flying and better things..
I ask in the name.of.the most gracious Lord who is my lord and master.. I ask of my God seeking his bounties and blessings..
Be thou glorified my lord..

Help

The last.two days I have been very tired.i.am unable.to.wake.for.my isha prayers.i seek help ffrom thee o lord asking for strenght in mind and vigour to enable me fulfil my obligations..

Rabbi inni lima anzalta ilayya khayrin fakeerun

I put myself up for a role at work.God.. my success is in your hands.. my progress is im tour hands.. not just for now but has always been the case. I have also sent my application out and i await favourable.returns god willing..
Everything is achievable only with your grace and blessing.
So lord.. in as much as i dont like rejection.. in as much as i want to win all the time.. i leave my directions at your feet. Your will be done in my life here and after.. i am of your stock.. i want to be of your stock..
GOD'S will be done as he has control of everything and anything in this life..in this world..in all the universe.. he only has to command be and it will be.
On my part at this very moment...i say glory be to my lord the most gracious lord who is the best provider.. help me to progress lord...

My lord.. i am in need.of whatever provision you send to me..as you helped and responses to Moses.. please respond to me and lift me high for the glory of thy holy name..

In need of grace

I am soooooo disillusioned so i seek light from thee o lord. Help me.to progress.. i have sent my application and in this case i wont hokd back.. bu your grace if i get a position then off i go to bigger and better things.
Where i am its the same old feelings regurgitating and i dont want that.. i am done but i will work right as i have always done.. help me to move om quickly and swiftly.. i am seeking thee to exalt me o lord in work.. life and faith.. help me lord as i come to thee. Let not my detractors glee over my condition..but raise me up for the glory of thy name.. it is i who is in need of thee and thy grace. It is i who is seeking from thee o lord. Please answer my prayers.

Be and it is..

It is the last day if ramadan.. thank you lord for allowing me to observe this far. Thank you for sustaining me throughout.. thank you for holding me throughout. Your name be praised and thanks always.
On this day i reach surah 36.. which is fitting foe the end which states
Innama amruhu idha arada shayan.. anyakula lahu kun fa ya kun.. subhanaladhi bi yadihi malakuntu kulli shayin wa ilayhi turjauun.
All He(God) needs to do to carry out any command is to say be and it is.. glory be to the one in whose hands is all sovereignty and to whom we will all be returned..

Help me kunfayakun my progress and righteousness in this life and after.. help me fastrack my success and blessings  in this life and hereafter.. i am in need of your services and mercy and blessings and grace and provisions....provide for me abundantly in this life and hereafter..Draw me closer to thee o lord always.. guide me to thee alwaya and allow me to praise you always. Forgive me of my sins and grant me righteousness from thee.
You alone are my lord..for all praise is yours.. all authority kingship and glory. In this life and hereafter Be thou glorified most gracious lord...

Rambling

I dont want to loose my breasts lord and i dont want to have that thing. So i come before thee in face of my fears i come to my lord... maybe i am being delirious.. maybe i am loosing the plot..  eitherway help me.to be healthy and strong.. help me to be healthy and firm..

Thank you

Thank you God for my nomination of today at work.... i didnt win.. but it was a wonderful surprise.. i remember when i saw it i wanted to nominate myself.. i had open the email.amd then i gave up.. feeling unappreciated amd overworked.. i said i will not tout myself and my accomplishments so when i saw it today i was a bit blaaze about it. But in reality it was bittersweet because of where i am and how i feel about work right now.... regardless of this..in everything lord all glory is yours.. it is your mercy and glory that enables me to achieve and reach thus far.. thank you god for everything..
You exalt whomever you wish and you commit to humiliation whomever you will. Dear lord.. bless me and honour me in this life and the hereafter.. guide me to thee always and allow me to always praise and glorify thy name.

Better things from my lord

Allahuma faatira samawaati wal ardhi.. Aalimuul ghaybi wa shahadati..anta tahkumu bayna ibadika fiima kanuu yakhtalifuun..

Our God initiator of the heaven and earth..Knower of all secrets and declaration..you are the only one who judges among your servants regarding their disputes..

God i need a sizeable increase in my wage and i am very disillusioned with my job..i need your timely help amd assistance.. i need you God.. i need you.. come to my aid please.. if they cannot allow it.. please let me go and flourish elsewhere with those who can... i cannot.struggle and struggle and try to do the best and not see anything tangible come.out of it.. i cannot.seem to break their glass ceiling.. and if my face does now fit.. then God..let it be desirable elsewhere.. i cannot force a work to appreciate my dedication..i am ready to go and move on to better and more prosperous things...
I ask of thee lord at my halfway point.. i ask your help and mercy on this issue.. i ask from my gracious lord..

Low

Blessed is the name.of God our creator.
It is hard lord.. very hard.. sustain me please.and help.me..it is very hard...
My demons are surfacing.. keep them at bay lord...

Help me.progress o lord

Rabbi anzilni munzalan Mubarakan  wa anta khayru munzilin...
My lord, let me disembark onto a blessed location.. you are the best deliverer.

So today marks the day I leave my manager Whois leaving.. a. Lady I like... into the jungle of what i call.crazy management and people who manipulate and take advantage.. I seek Gods blessing with my new team and ask for his blessing and grace in my working life and my whole life.. I seek progress from my Lord and i seek advancement in work.. I.come.to the Most Gracious with my self as i ask of Him..He who is my sustainer and provider..
In everything in life and death..He is God..with control over all things.. so I ask of.the most gracious Lord to kunfayakun my progress and advancement..

Projecting to the Most Gracious...

Tabaraka llahu rabbil alamin.. Allah-ul hayyu -ul qayumu... la illaha illa huwa yuyhii wa yumitu.. fa idza Qaida amran..fa innama yakulu llahu kun fa yakun.

Blessed is God, lord of the universe. The Living, the self subsisting God..there is no other God but he who controls life and death. To have anything done, he.simply says  to it be and it is..

My lord... please kunfayakun my success and progress in this life and hereafter.. kunfayakun my righteousness and accept me in thy service.. kunfayakun my wishes and provide for me and my children abundantly in this life and hereafter.. keep us close to thee always.. to praise and glorify your name..guide us to thee and protect us from sin and harm..guide us to thee and provide for us success with thee in this life and hereafter.. For all praise is yours.. all authority kingship and glory.. in this life and the hereafter be thou glorified o lord..

i need your help and counsel...

i come before thee O lord.. this evening.. i come before Thee needing your counsel....

Arrahman

Arrahman anta llahu. Subhanallahi rabbil alamin.
Most Gracious is my God. Glory be to God Lord of the universe

Hoodwinkle

So I went there Lord.. I was not able to get a quick resolution bit o was asked to text the man and he will Check for me.. o habe done so and await.a response

hoodwinkled

so dear Lord,
 i cannot sleep.. and it may be that is is a slight issue but it worries me.
 yesterday my dad called to say the money i said i was to send them they never received it. that they think i have been hood-winkled.
 this money in question i wanted to send since  new year but something always held me back  and i just  felt  like  i could not part with so much to give but  i said i have not done any monthly  zakat to my dad and i had to send something in any fashion.
 on this day i plucked up the courage to  call my dad and ask him for his account number and i went to the shop to send money at the  shop.
   i gave the man the money and he said he will send it.
 not there are no issues here because i have sent money through him before and i left the shop.
 i had not called or spoken to my dad since until  yesterday when he called to drop me this bombshell.
 not its one of three issues
 1 - either  my dad is confused as he believes the money came from another person -  the account name of the sender will not be me so maybe  he did get money but he  is not linking it to me
 2 - either the man did not send the money  - in which case it will be a breach of trust for me because i have been to their shop since then as i buy other foodstuff from them - then i ask myself since them why not  tell me there is an issue
3 - either i am deluded and i didn't not send anymoney..
 i am quite clear i send the money as there is verification and i know in this instance i am not lying.
 4   - i am trying to  be hood-winkled by my dad.

 so in all likely-hood my mind is open and i am veering towards the first  because a similar situation occurred with my mum but she later came back to say she received it.. not i cannot be sure if she was trying to hood-winkle me but she was most efficiently clear when she accused me saying  she  never received any money until i went back to the people and challenged her again.

 so  i am in a quandary.. i am just rather put in a situation i don't like..
 i hate returning things in a shop - i just learn to live with it and move on
 - i hate challenging people  so to go back is for me to say to the man who send the money on my behalf that  he is lying that he sent it.
 it will be a easy thing to verify in all honesty but i am not relishing it..

 whatever the situation Lord - please give me courage to see it through - whatever the outcome help me to  deal with it.

 may your name be forever praised and glorified always..

Jaa al Haq qa zahaqa batila.. innaa batila kana zahukan