Quick question and observations....
how much of arab culture is rooted into the practice of islam... how do we distinguish culture from the practice of faith.
the practice of faith in my view, is independent of culture as it spreads to new lands and encounters new cultures and people..
Second thing which was on my mind today is an admission that with children and responsibility you do stray away from practices of worshipping God.
My responsibilities as a mother and sometimes as a wife.. seeks to take me away from the path and practice of worshipping God.. it should not be like this and as yet i am still trying to find a balance between the two.. and a third one will enter into the picture in terms of work..
God help me to stay on his path.. to worship Him, praise Him always, all days..
Tuesday, 3 July 2012
Thursday, 14 June 2012
missing da mosque
you know my Lord, I miss going to the mosque..
what i miss is really the kinmanship and the feeling of being among others of the same faith.
i miss the conjoined praises and sermons etc...
why do i not go to the mosque.. well mainstream mosque is not for me in that when they pray there is a very high regard for prophet muhammed over the other prophets.. there is emphasis on God and muhammed.. and all i want to concentrate on is God alone..
i do not find a prayer house near me where the concentration is on God alone without involving other prophets bla bla bla
i miss it.. i guess also because i grew up with it as part of me, in my psyche...
i do miss it...
subhanallahi, wa-l-hamdullilahi, wa lahillaha illalahu, wa llahu-l-hamdu, fi -l-ardi wa-l-akhirat, wa huwa azizu-l-hakim.
what i miss is really the kinmanship and the feeling of being among others of the same faith.
i miss the conjoined praises and sermons etc...
why do i not go to the mosque.. well mainstream mosque is not for me in that when they pray there is a very high regard for prophet muhammed over the other prophets.. there is emphasis on God and muhammed.. and all i want to concentrate on is God alone..
i do not find a prayer house near me where the concentration is on God alone without involving other prophets bla bla bla
i miss it.. i guess also because i grew up with it as part of me, in my psyche...
i do miss it...
subhanallahi, wa-l-hamdullilahi, wa lahillaha illalahu, wa llahu-l-hamdu, fi -l-ardi wa-l-akhirat, wa huwa azizu-l-hakim.
Wednesday, 13 June 2012
Hello.. is there love there?
i don't know if he really loves me.. or better i should say i don't feel as if he loves me.
I want to feel loved, cherished and wanted but i don't feel all these things.
Yes he cares for me, he provides for me in terms of food.. but food is not a high list on my priority. Yes it is important for nourishment but the Most Gracious provides that for me.
What i crave for is affection and intimacy - something i feel he cannot provide me or he does not know how to provide it for me and therefore does not care to provide it for me
the whole episode from the beginning of the 9 months has left a bad taste in my mouth because in some ways he changed from what i knew.
Yes i understand in life that change is constant but this change is not something i accounted for, as i had told myself he seems the sort of person who would not be this way..
i feel i am treated at best as a sister or a friend - someone you feed and worry about their safety but that is all.
I want more than that, i need more than that...
i want to be his Queen, i want him to love and cherish me like his queen, madly love me and madly want me..
i don't want to feel like i am just another mouth to feed,
i want to feel that i am special, someone who sets me apart from everyone else..
someone for me as i want to be for him,
someone to share with me... in this regard i feel like he dictates and does for me rather than share with me..
I am not a possession but a partner...
do i even know what i am saying here??
i don't think he can show me love.. he has said he will change but some changes he has said he would do and he does/did not change..
i don't think he knows how to show me the love that i want/need
i worry about this, and its at the back of my mind..
the pregnancy pimples issues was a big turning point for me.
All i have in my head is despite what i was going through, he did not try to understand and embrace and support me, instead he distanced, regarded and treated me like a leper..
how can someone you love treat you like that,
It makes me think, if something worse were to happen further down the line.. is this how i will be treated the same.
I felt sad and i did not understand how..
see for me, when you love someone you accept them, imperfections and all.. you see in them perfection despite their imperfection.
a hard choice i am having to pay in this body conscious world of hours.. breastfeeding+ pimply face or No breastfeeding+no pimply face..
but the choice is easy for me.. but i then doubt.. my would-be lover did not deal very well with my pimply face.. so i should stop breastfeeding so i don't get pimply faced and he would not look down on me.
he does care.. there is some care in him....
but how much of a care is there to sustain a relationship/partnership/affectionaship/intimaship
he talks a good talk but the actions are not there
i want love, i need love..
i want to be his Queen, but i fear he is happy without one.
I want to feel loved, cherished and wanted but i don't feel all these things.
Yes he cares for me, he provides for me in terms of food.. but food is not a high list on my priority. Yes it is important for nourishment but the Most Gracious provides that for me.
What i crave for is affection and intimacy - something i feel he cannot provide me or he does not know how to provide it for me and therefore does not care to provide it for me
the whole episode from the beginning of the 9 months has left a bad taste in my mouth because in some ways he changed from what i knew.
Yes i understand in life that change is constant but this change is not something i accounted for, as i had told myself he seems the sort of person who would not be this way..
i feel i am treated at best as a sister or a friend - someone you feed and worry about their safety but that is all.
I want more than that, i need more than that...
i want to be his Queen, i want him to love and cherish me like his queen, madly love me and madly want me..
i don't want to feel like i am just another mouth to feed,
i want to feel that i am special, someone who sets me apart from everyone else..
someone for me as i want to be for him,
someone to share with me... in this regard i feel like he dictates and does for me rather than share with me..
I am not a possession but a partner...
do i even know what i am saying here??
i don't think he can show me love.. he has said he will change but some changes he has said he would do and he does/did not change..
i don't think he knows how to show me the love that i want/need
i worry about this, and its at the back of my mind..
the pregnancy pimples issues was a big turning point for me.
All i have in my head is despite what i was going through, he did not try to understand and embrace and support me, instead he distanced, regarded and treated me like a leper..
how can someone you love treat you like that,
It makes me think, if something worse were to happen further down the line.. is this how i will be treated the same.
I felt sad and i did not understand how..
see for me, when you love someone you accept them, imperfections and all.. you see in them perfection despite their imperfection.
a hard choice i am having to pay in this body conscious world of hours.. breastfeeding+ pimply face or No breastfeeding+no pimply face..
but the choice is easy for me.. but i then doubt.. my would-be lover did not deal very well with my pimply face.. so i should stop breastfeeding so i don't get pimply faced and he would not look down on me.
he does care.. there is some care in him....
but how much of a care is there to sustain a relationship/partnership/affectionaship/intimaship
he talks a good talk but the actions are not there
i want love, i need love..
i want to be his Queen, but i fear he is happy without one.
Sunday, 10 June 2012
Praise to The Lord, The Almighty, the King of Creation
I will Glorify the Lord
I will praise His Holy Name
I will Glorify the Lord
I will Praise His Holy Name
Oba N'la Oba Rere ( Great King, Good King)
Oba N'La Oba Rere
I will praise His Holy Name
I will Glorify the Lord
I will Praise His Holy Name
Oba N'la Oba Rere ( Great King, Good King)
Oba N'La Oba Rere
Thursday, 7 June 2012
Reform and Social Acceptability
There was something in the news that a convicted sex offender was on the same celebratory boat with the royals during the jubilee celebrations.
My first thought at this was so what?
this brought up an inner conversation on - repentance and social acceptability.
If a person truly repents from a previous bad action, then why should we not forgive and allow that person to start over again??
We are all to quick to judge, to label and to ostracise individuals that we deem have fallen fowl of social acceptability standards - sex offenders, rapists, murderers bla bla.. the list is endless
Whilst on some level I understand this as a natural preventative reaction within ones self for one's safety and the safety of our loved ones... but in all consciousness i have to ask myself... if i were in their shoes wouldn't i want society to allow me to reform?
take a longstanding position on forgiveness - "We all ask God to forgive our sins and allow us to reform and start again.. so why cant we afford the same for our fellow human beings?"
Granted God is the Most Merciful.. and his patience and love knows no bounds.. but still in that we would want some mercy and repentance for ourselves.. why cant we afford to give such to others who come across our paths?
The subject of repentance and reform, whilst on a broad angle is something we cannot truly know or understand.. i say this because the mind of another person is not something that we are privy to.. whilst an individual may show outwards behaviours of reform and remorse, this may just be an act to fool the society and inwardly they may have not changed in the slightest.. that is for God to judge and not for us to worry about.
Whilst on some level we would worry, but we can only deal with an open hand and make and informed decision based on what we see and also to a large extent what we feel.. this inner beacon of judging dangerous persons and dangerous situations...
there is also an issue in the sense of why can we not separate person/responsibility from action/crime committed. The example for this is that an experienced underwriter who is arrested/indicted for sex offence looses his job with a company he has worked for more than 20 years?
i personally do not think this is fair.. but i do understand the issues behind it.
Firstly i would think that the sex offence has nothing to do with his job or ability to perform his job.. in that sexual preferences are part of a persons make-up that has nothing to do with everyday contact in society.
Secondly i understand that if word gets out.. this persons fellow colleagues may find it hard to work with him as they may not be able to separate person/ability from action..
Thirdly i understand the adverse publicity for the company for the same reasons as above.
It will be an unfairness because in my view these people who commit crimes loose everything they have built up for ages, acceptance( which should not be underrated.. no man is an island), social standing, source of income... at the same time the effect on the victims should not be underplayed. If they truly reform/repent, they should be allowed to continue on with their lives.. it will be a lesson learned for them and a deterrent not to oblige the same crime.
I guess with tolerance/understand both parties may be able to come to a leeway.. if the perpetrator apologises and repents and tries to reform... this will only be possible in its full ramifications with the social pardon to allow then to rebuild and move on from the incident ( both parties) and not have the incident thrown in their face all the time.
This then brings on another issue in my mind re sexual offences and what we as a society finds acceptable.
i will pose the question... to criminalise a man for chatting with an underage minor when the underage minor was posing as an adult on a social chat room? the issues for me will be if the older man knew the person was underage or not.. if he did not know and assumes that he was having explicit sexual conversations with a consenting adult.. then personally i don't think he has done anything wrong.. if he knew that is another matter entirely.. will bring up issues of was the minor consenting as well/ how mentally aware was the minor etc..
This is a murky subject..
God help us all and guide us to truth.. May he accept our repentance and help us change our lives around.
My first thought at this was so what?
this brought up an inner conversation on - repentance and social acceptability.
If a person truly repents from a previous bad action, then why should we not forgive and allow that person to start over again??
We are all to quick to judge, to label and to ostracise individuals that we deem have fallen fowl of social acceptability standards - sex offenders, rapists, murderers bla bla.. the list is endless
Whilst on some level I understand this as a natural preventative reaction within ones self for one's safety and the safety of our loved ones... but in all consciousness i have to ask myself... if i were in their shoes wouldn't i want society to allow me to reform?
take a longstanding position on forgiveness - "We all ask God to forgive our sins and allow us to reform and start again.. so why cant we afford the same for our fellow human beings?"
Granted God is the Most Merciful.. and his patience and love knows no bounds.. but still in that we would want some mercy and repentance for ourselves.. why cant we afford to give such to others who come across our paths?
The subject of repentance and reform, whilst on a broad angle is something we cannot truly know or understand.. i say this because the mind of another person is not something that we are privy to.. whilst an individual may show outwards behaviours of reform and remorse, this may just be an act to fool the society and inwardly they may have not changed in the slightest.. that is for God to judge and not for us to worry about.
Whilst on some level we would worry, but we can only deal with an open hand and make and informed decision based on what we see and also to a large extent what we feel.. this inner beacon of judging dangerous persons and dangerous situations...
there is also an issue in the sense of why can we not separate person/responsibility from action/crime committed. The example for this is that an experienced underwriter who is arrested/indicted for sex offence looses his job with a company he has worked for more than 20 years?
i personally do not think this is fair.. but i do understand the issues behind it.
Firstly i would think that the sex offence has nothing to do with his job or ability to perform his job.. in that sexual preferences are part of a persons make-up that has nothing to do with everyday contact in society.
Secondly i understand that if word gets out.. this persons fellow colleagues may find it hard to work with him as they may not be able to separate person/ability from action..
Thirdly i understand the adverse publicity for the company for the same reasons as above.
It will be an unfairness because in my view these people who commit crimes loose everything they have built up for ages, acceptance( which should not be underrated.. no man is an island), social standing, source of income... at the same time the effect on the victims should not be underplayed. If they truly reform/repent, they should be allowed to continue on with their lives.. it will be a lesson learned for them and a deterrent not to oblige the same crime.
I guess with tolerance/understand both parties may be able to come to a leeway.. if the perpetrator apologises and repents and tries to reform... this will only be possible in its full ramifications with the social pardon to allow then to rebuild and move on from the incident ( both parties) and not have the incident thrown in their face all the time.
This then brings on another issue in my mind re sexual offences and what we as a society finds acceptable.
i will pose the question... to criminalise a man for chatting with an underage minor when the underage minor was posing as an adult on a social chat room? the issues for me will be if the older man knew the person was underage or not.. if he did not know and assumes that he was having explicit sexual conversations with a consenting adult.. then personally i don't think he has done anything wrong.. if he knew that is another matter entirely.. will bring up issues of was the minor consenting as well/ how mentally aware was the minor etc..
This is a murky subject..
God help us all and guide us to truth.. May he accept our repentance and help us change our lives around.
Wednesday, 6 June 2012
Find Someone
Find someone that isn't afraid to admit they miss you. Someone that knows you're not perfect but treats you as if you are. Someone who couldn't imagine losing you. Someone who gives their heart to you completely. Someone who says I love you and proves it. Someone who wouldn't mind waking up to you in the morning, seeing your wrinkles and grey hair but still find you attractive
Someone who sees beyond your physical flaws/attractions to the heart within
someone who isnt afraid to care for you in public
Someone who will support you
Someone who will talk to you.. not just talk with you but talk to you...
Someone who will kiss you with affection
Someone who will share with you..
Someone who does not think a womans place is in the kitchen
Someone who will cook for you also
Someone who sees beyond your physical flaws/attractions to the heart within
someone who isnt afraid to care for you in public
Someone who will support you
Someone who will talk to you.. not just talk with you but talk to you...
Someone who will kiss you with affection
Someone who will share with you..
Someone who does not think a womans place is in the kitchen
Someone who will cook for you also
Friday, 25 May 2012
No Love...
i just want you to love me.. to care for me..
i just want you to show me that you love me..
i need you to be intimate with me to share your love and feelings with me
I need you to want me, caress me, and love me
for insecure as i confess to be - I need this affirmation to bond me to you
what is a bond without affection, what is a life without love
What is love without intimacy...What is intimacy without showing it
What is love... that is the Question of the day
i just want you to show me that you love me..
i need you to be intimate with me to share your love and feelings with me
I need you to want me, caress me, and love me
for insecure as i confess to be - I need this affirmation to bond me to you
what is a bond without affection, what is a life without love
What is love without intimacy...What is intimacy without showing it
What is love... that is the Question of the day
Fear of Falling......Failing
Someone once asked me what did i want to do with my life.. and my answer without much thought was " to worship God".
Uncanny as it seems, i have no great desire for anything in life.
My view at present is that i am not ambitious enough to motivate me into any profession, I have no great love for riches other than to be comfortable -
just want to be.. me.. just worship God with the grand aim for peace and paradise and joy in the hereafter.
it is not a crime to want simplicity in life, not to want to be burdened by chaos that is life, job, family, money etc..
i do know through experience that ambitiousness causes me to be egoistic with despotic tendencies, i know that too much money brings on arrogance and pride...
contentment is the order of the day.. to be happy with/in what ever situation i find myself..
but with honesty in mind, i realise that i am not truly content in life.. for i fear i suffer from " i want what they have" syndrome.
this makes me crave things that ordinarily i may not want but for fear of being left behind in the "great movement of human race" i will pursue
Through this plague of a disease.. i come to slowly understand myself.. my capabilities.. my own desires...
I want to be in a place where there is no fear of worship.. where i can sing and dance my bubbly behind, where i can be eloquent with praises to my creator.
i want to be in a place where there is security and peace
I want to be with someone who will love me and share with me life, love, praise for God and worship
I fear though that i may not achieve all this..
I fear that i will fail in this regard..
i remember when i was younger about 20 yrs ago, i always told God in my heart, whatever i do in this life.. bad or good that He will grant me paradise..i always maintained that in my mind.. going through life never caring, never committing myself to Him.. until i was about 20yrs after much thought on this issue.. i then said to God that i wanted to know i deserved a place with Him so i then said that an easy ticket is too easy for me, i needed to deserve a place in paradise.. so i gave up my ticket and i said to God, i want to deserve my place.. i want to do the deeds that earn me a place, i want to give the praise that will earn me my place..
i dont know if this was foolish.. to give up the easy route for something much more harder.
I feel like life is getting in the way of my worship..
I feel like i am letting life get in the way of my worship
I feel like i am failing myself letting life get in the way of my worship
i need thee o Lord to guide me through.. for life is filled with temptations that may take me from thee. Steel my heart, and lead me back to thee. without any fear or favour - to be able to say that I am from thee, I am of thee, to serve thee, to praise thee... all of my life dedicated to thee
Uncanny as it seems, i have no great desire for anything in life.
My view at present is that i am not ambitious enough to motivate me into any profession, I have no great love for riches other than to be comfortable -
just want to be.. me.. just worship God with the grand aim for peace and paradise and joy in the hereafter.
it is not a crime to want simplicity in life, not to want to be burdened by chaos that is life, job, family, money etc..
i do know through experience that ambitiousness causes me to be egoistic with despotic tendencies, i know that too much money brings on arrogance and pride...
contentment is the order of the day.. to be happy with/in what ever situation i find myself..
but with honesty in mind, i realise that i am not truly content in life.. for i fear i suffer from " i want what they have" syndrome.
this makes me crave things that ordinarily i may not want but for fear of being left behind in the "great movement of human race" i will pursue
Through this plague of a disease.. i come to slowly understand myself.. my capabilities.. my own desires...
I want to be in a place where there is no fear of worship.. where i can sing and dance my bubbly behind, where i can be eloquent with praises to my creator.
i want to be in a place where there is security and peace
I want to be with someone who will love me and share with me life, love, praise for God and worship
I fear though that i may not achieve all this..
I fear that i will fail in this regard..
i remember when i was younger about 20 yrs ago, i always told God in my heart, whatever i do in this life.. bad or good that He will grant me paradise..i always maintained that in my mind.. going through life never caring, never committing myself to Him.. until i was about 20yrs after much thought on this issue.. i then said to God that i wanted to know i deserved a place with Him so i then said that an easy ticket is too easy for me, i needed to deserve a place in paradise.. so i gave up my ticket and i said to God, i want to deserve my place.. i want to do the deeds that earn me a place, i want to give the praise that will earn me my place..
i dont know if this was foolish.. to give up the easy route for something much more harder.
I feel like life is getting in the way of my worship..
I feel like i am letting life get in the way of my worship
I feel like i am failing myself letting life get in the way of my worship
i need thee o Lord to guide me through.. for life is filled with temptations that may take me from thee. Steel my heart, and lead me back to thee. without any fear or favour - to be able to say that I am from thee, I am of thee, to serve thee, to praise thee... all of my life dedicated to thee
Wednesday, 9 May 2012
Musings of a lonely heart
There is no right... no left.. no center... There is just God.
God knows our path.. He alone knows the route to our success..
In my view the true test of faith is to say.. to blazes with the world and everything/everyone in it.. I put my trust in God alone..
how many of us can say that with true convictions?
the world is attractive, very enticing...we rush around distracted by money, by power, by friendship.... however in the end of things.. it is not important at all...
i am not saying live like a hermit.. far from it.. what we have in this world.. that God has enabled us to achieve we should enjoy...the enjoyment of it all should endear us more to God.. but often than not we find that the enjoyment and the pursuit of life takes us away from the path of faith.. the path of God..
its a fine balance to strike.. enjoy life and be faithful to God.. but dont get trapped by life... remaining devoted to God..
God knows our path.. He alone knows the route to our success..
In my view the true test of faith is to say.. to blazes with the world and everything/everyone in it.. I put my trust in God alone..
how many of us can say that with true convictions?
the world is attractive, very enticing...we rush around distracted by money, by power, by friendship.... however in the end of things.. it is not important at all...
i am not saying live like a hermit.. far from it.. what we have in this world.. that God has enabled us to achieve we should enjoy...the enjoyment of it all should endear us more to God.. but often than not we find that the enjoyment and the pursuit of life takes us away from the path of faith.. the path of God..
its a fine balance to strike.. enjoy life and be faithful to God.. but dont get trapped by life... remaining devoted to God..
Saturday, 14 April 2012
Garments of righteousness
Surah 7:26 is where it talks about garments that God has provided us to cover our bodies as well as ornaments/accessories. however the garment of righteousness is the best.
What is the garment of righteousness?
in my view it is truth, honesty, straightforwardness in matters relating to God and to other fellow human beings.
Everyone is different, has different upbringings and words and actions can mean the same or different things.
Difference is good because it enables one to see the others viewpoint and have a taste of the other side in life and its experiences.
Difference is bad if one ( in my view) cant see past it and looks down on the other due to the difference.
Personal Style/Taste is another thing which is subjective... but one should not look down on another because of how they dress or present themselves.
surah 49:11 comes to mind as it goes along the lines of don't ridicule one another for they may be better then you.. somethings like that { actually i have read the verse but i am lazy to quote it verbatim (using RK translation)}
but when the apple of my eye makes a statement that i embarass him because of the way i dress.. then for me there is something wrong.
something is wrong because then i have to think and rethink and try to understand this... maybe i am looking at it from my own point of view - God forgive me..
i am trying not to be selfish and i have asked questions to the point of boredom re this situation so i can better understand what exactly it is.
some people may choose to settle for second best but in all fairness i will like to think that i am not one of those people..
Righteousness matters a great deal.. in this case righteousness for me is a sense and awareness of God and active steps to try to worship God alone.
Clothes - jewelry - shoes - hair - fades as it is only material and superficial.
if my simple is what you saw in the beginning - i don't understand how it can be embarrassing afterwards.
that is the question that puzzles me.....
I never seek to alter myself to induce adoration, or indulge in "fakery" to promote beauty that is not there.. but it seems that is what you want.
Which ordinarily is not a problem - in all fairness
The problem is the question - What sort of a person are you that you cannot accept a person at their simplest (let of say for want of punch - worst) but are only willing to accept them at their complicated ( let is say for want of punch - best).
If you cannot accept me for being me - the person God created... how then can you live with me?
because further down the line it will slowly create resentment and foster hatred.
when my dearest says that the way i dress embarrasses them -( i don't indulge in "fakery" - this is my interpretation) then what am i to do?
"fakerise" myself to make him happy -
Life is unfair i guess.. it is one rule for the man and another rule for the woman.
but in conclusion my Lord... i take responsibility for everything because it seems i did not make it clear enough about how i am.. i did not present myself in my natural light (even though i thought i did) i did not naturalize myself enough to let my inner beauty shine so that he could see it.
Granted i am not beautiful or pretty but i am not ugly either ( all is a matter of subjection by the beholder)... it is my simple heart that I offer from myself - not how i look, - If that is not enough, then the very essence of who i am is lost on you.
God rules my day, my night and my world every time... not life, not family, not society, and certainly not material/superficial things.
If you are ashamed/embarrassed to stand by me whatever the circumstances, then you cannot be for me... for even if i wore a garment of feaces, you should be able to see past that through to my heart and stand with me united against the world.. for in all fairness, no ambiguity and total honesty.. i would stand with you...
in all my circumstances - pimples, attire and all - i remember job - at his worst - the story is that people deserted him, laughed at him and his predicament.. He called out to his Lord - Adversity has befallen me and you are the Most Merciful Lord and the Lord was merciful unto him reinstated him.
so i like Job call out to God my Lord - Anguish and Adversity is overtaking me - as i implore thee i remember that Thou art the Most Gracious Most Merciful.
May my Lord - The Most Gracious forgive me and guide me to his path in this life and hereafter.
Friday, 6 April 2012
Good Advice
| 28:68 |
| Your Lord is the One who creates whatever He wills, and chooses; no one else does any choosing. Glory be to GOD, the Most Exalted. He is far above needing partners. |
| 28:69 |
| Your Lord knows the innermost thoughts hidden in their chests, as well as everything they declare. |
| 28:70 |
| He is the one GOD; there is no other god beside Him. To Him belongs all praise in this first life, and in the Hereafter. All judgment belongs with Him, and to Him you will be returned. |
| +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ |
These three verses struck me today. Glory be to God, in that such an eloquent praise for Him is in his scriptures... as a matter of my fact, such a many eloquent praise for God can be found in all his scriptures. very easily we overlook them but with repeated reading Gw God makes us aware of them and we prostrate to him as a sign of our gratitude.
So that i don't forget - this verse also keeps popping at me whenever i choose to open the Quran blindly - this is surah 41 - Fussilat. 30-36.
the advice therein is one that i often fail to remember - Such is my genes that i am one quick to anger and quick to rebuke - i forget to exercise patience and resort to God - Of this i stand guilty before God, my soul and self. My tongue is quick to fire off instantaneously if i am vexed/angered. sometimes it is only afterwards that i remember and i seek forgiveness from God for the many faults of this kind which no doubt seeks to take me away from him and i ask that i remember and heed the advise in future.
Patience as with all thing comes from God - its one of the things that evade me but by Gods mercy, he will provide me with it as well as with strength of mind and courage.... not forgetting contentment
| Those who proclaim: "Our Lord is GOD," then lead a righteous life, the angels descend upon them: "You shall have no fear, nor shall you grieve. Rejoice in the good news that Paradise has been reserved for you. |
| "We are your allies in this life, and in the Hereafter. You will have in it anything you wish for; you will have anything you want. |
| "(Such is your) ultimate abode, from a Forgiver, Most Merciful. |
| Who can utter better words than one who invites to GOD, works righteousness, and says, "I am one of the submitters"? |
| Not equal is the good response and the bad response. You shall resort to the nicest possible response. Thus, the one who used to be your enemy, may become your best friend. |
| None can attain this except those who steadfastly persevere. None can attain this except those who are extremely fortunate. | ||
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Wednesday, 28 March 2012
HELP
The Most Gracious is my Lord, there is no other god but He.
He is the one who will guide me and inspire me
He is the one who will help and support me.
The Most Gracious is my Lord, i have no other God but Him
He is my God and the one that will guide me
He is my source if Help, my creator and Saviour
The Most Gracious is my Lord, there is no other god but He
He is the one who will forgive me
My salvation and Trust.
The Most Gracious is my Lord, I have no other God but Him
He will shine his light for me to see, to lead me through my darkness
He will hold me close to him, accept my repentance and guide me
The Most Gracious is my Lord, i believe and trust in Him
He is the one who will guide me and inspire me
He is the one who will help and support me.
The Most Gracious is my Lord, i have no other God but Him
He is my God and the one that will guide me
He is my source if Help, my creator and Saviour
The Most Gracious is my Lord, there is no other god but He
He is the one who will forgive me
My salvation and Trust.
The Most Gracious is my Lord, I have no other God but Him
He will shine his light for me to see, to lead me through my darkness
He will hold me close to him, accept my repentance and guide me
The Most Gracious is my Lord, i believe and trust in Him
Patience, Tolerance and understanding
TOLERANCE
a fair, objective, and permissive attitude toward those whose opinions, practices, race, religion, nationality, etc., differ from one's own; freedom from bigotry.
a fair, objective, and permissive attitude toward opinions and practices that differ from one's own.
interest in and concern for ideas, opinions, practices, etc., foreign to one's own; a liberal, undogmatic viewpoint.
the act or capacity of enduring; endurance
PATIENCE:
the quality of being patient, as the bearing of provocation, annoyance, misfortune, or pain, without complaint, loss of temper, irritation, or the like.
an ability or willingness to suppress restlessness or annoyance when confronted with delay: to have patience with a slow learner.
quiet, steady perseverance; even-tempered care; diligence: to work with patience.
UNDERSTANDING:
mental process of a person who comprehends; comprehension; personal interpretation: My understanding of the word does not agree with yours.
intellectual faculties; intelligence; mind: a quick understanding.
superior power of discernment; enlightened intelligence: With her keen understanding she should have become a leader.
knowledge of or familiarity with a particular thing; skill in dealing with or handling something: an understanding of accounting practice.
a state of cooperative or mutually tolerant relations between people
this is something i wrote back in 2008 - it still rings true now more than ever.
http://adetutu.blogspot.fr/2008/09/do-still-want-me-part-1.html
i have never sought to hide my true self away from others,
i have never sought to decieve or be untruthful about how i am, who i am and what my aspirations are.
To my own defult - I am too open about myelf - even if i am not able to say it face to face , i will write it here how my thoughts are developing and it is possible to see at a glance what my mood is like.
It is for each of us to search our souls and find out the true reasons for our actions.
I have been open about myself right from day one - but it seems that despite what is plain in view and sight to see, some people choose to be blind about it.
the analagy i can give is that - i knew i wanted a white shirt and i went to the market and i saw a red shirt. I bought the red shirt knowing fully well it was a red shirt, it was advertised as a red shirt. Despite wanting a white shirt, i bought the red shirt and took it home. when at home after some time i was disatisfied with the red shirt because it turned out not to be the shirt i originally wanted.
all in all - you wasted your time because you may now have to return the red shirt and go for your original white.
Questions one will ask is: why did you buy the red shirt when you wanted white.
there are some quotes in Quran that i feel is pertinent and it is making me have thoughts along the psycadelic lines
somewhere it says Good men for Good women, bad men for bad women, suran 24:26
if what i am experiencing is to be understood on some level - maybe i am a bad woman deep down afterall. and if i am may God forgive me a great forgiveness and turn me, my soul and my life around
I asked God for someone from my heart, someone who will love and care for me, be tolerant, have patience and understand me. someone that I am happy with, safe and secure – with them I am invincible – they will have my back, they will be my greatest friend, I can talk to them, tell them my heart and they will understand. they will support me and tell me their mind, tell me their truth – They will not be selfish with themselves, they will nurture me - with God overlooking us.
As it turns out maybe this is not what i have - dont get me wrong in everything in life there is adversity that one has to overcome - but sometimes too, when the adversity becomes too much for one to bear, one calls in help - the best help is God obviously without stating the obvious.
when you talk to someone and it seems they dont understand, or care to understand you, when it seems that all your efforts are futile and going no where sometimes the strongest thing to do is to accept defeat.
everyone has as an agenda in marriage - wether it is to be happy, to be controlling, to be selfish, to be loving, to get loved and taken care of bla bla - it is with time that these agendas come to light.
there is a prayer in the Quran - Our Lord let our children and spouses be a source of joy for us and keep us in the forefront of righteousness. 25:74.
this is uncanny innit (my circumstances refers) source of joy - being the operative word (never will i deem it upon myself to mock Gods words)
30:21 -Among His proofs is that He created for you spouses from among yourselves, in order to have tranquility and contentment with each other, and He placed in your hearts love and care towards your spouses. In this, there are sufficient proofs for people who think.
it is not a crime to asked to be loved and cared for - it is the basic right of anyone, any father, any mother, any husband, and child, brother or sister.
Love is love. unselfish love is accomodating of anything, it is not mislead by physical appearance, it is not selfish, it is given as a measure of Goodwill, you cant help who you fall in love with. such is life.
the greatest love is the Love of God - to put God before all things in life and death.
surah 9:24
Proclaim: "If your parents, your children, your siblings, your spouses, your family, the money you have earned, a business you worry about, and the homes you cherish are more beloved to you than GOD and His messenger, and the striving in His cause, then just wait until GOD brings His judgment." GOD does not guide the wicked people.
For me - i pray to God that he keeps me putting Him first always, each day, everyday, in whatever circumstances - favourable or not. May God keep me praising Him always.
i did not listen to my own advice...
For sooo long when you pray for something and you leave it to fate and accept Gods judgement - then you get an inspiration, a glimpse of what appears to be what you have asked for - you thank God and accept it.
its just like inspiration - God inspires us in our mind - but at the same time the devil whispers into our minds - It is only with Gods grace and light that the difference is known to us.
if we are inherently bad, we disregard Gods light and accept the devils advice and direction.
God forgive me, for i know countless of times whether through ommision or commision - knowingly or unknowingly do i sin everyday against my soul before my Creator - but i rely on Gods mercy that He does forgive me and help me to do better and that He accepts me into His fold
a fair, objective, and permissive attitude toward those whose opinions, practices, race, religion, nationality, etc., differ from one's own; freedom from bigotry.
a fair, objective, and permissive attitude toward opinions and practices that differ from one's own.
interest in and concern for ideas, opinions, practices, etc., foreign to one's own; a liberal, undogmatic viewpoint.
the act or capacity of enduring; endurance
PATIENCE:
the quality of being patient, as the bearing of provocation, annoyance, misfortune, or pain, without complaint, loss of temper, irritation, or the like.
an ability or willingness to suppress restlessness or annoyance when confronted with delay: to have patience with a slow learner.
quiet, steady perseverance; even-tempered care; diligence: to work with patience.
UNDERSTANDING:
mental process of a person who comprehends; comprehension; personal interpretation: My understanding of the word does not agree with yours.
intellectual faculties; intelligence; mind: a quick understanding.
superior power of discernment; enlightened intelligence: With her keen understanding she should have become a leader.
knowledge of or familiarity with a particular thing; skill in dealing with or handling something: an understanding of accounting practice.
a state of cooperative or mutually tolerant relations between people
this is something i wrote back in 2008 - it still rings true now more than ever.
http://adetutu.blogspot.fr/2008/09/do-still-want-me-part-1.html
i have never sought to hide my true self away from others,
i have never sought to decieve or be untruthful about how i am, who i am and what my aspirations are.
To my own defult - I am too open about myelf - even if i am not able to say it face to face , i will write it here how my thoughts are developing and it is possible to see at a glance what my mood is like.
It is for each of us to search our souls and find out the true reasons for our actions.
I have been open about myself right from day one - but it seems that despite what is plain in view and sight to see, some people choose to be blind about it.
the analagy i can give is that - i knew i wanted a white shirt and i went to the market and i saw a red shirt. I bought the red shirt knowing fully well it was a red shirt, it was advertised as a red shirt. Despite wanting a white shirt, i bought the red shirt and took it home. when at home after some time i was disatisfied with the red shirt because it turned out not to be the shirt i originally wanted.
all in all - you wasted your time because you may now have to return the red shirt and go for your original white.
Questions one will ask is: why did you buy the red shirt when you wanted white.
there are some quotes in Quran that i feel is pertinent and it is making me have thoughts along the psycadelic lines
somewhere it says Good men for Good women, bad men for bad women, suran 24:26
if what i am experiencing is to be understood on some level - maybe i am a bad woman deep down afterall. and if i am may God forgive me a great forgiveness and turn me, my soul and my life around
I asked God for someone from my heart, someone who will love and care for me, be tolerant, have patience and understand me. someone that I am happy with, safe and secure – with them I am invincible – they will have my back, they will be my greatest friend, I can talk to them, tell them my heart and they will understand. they will support me and tell me their mind, tell me their truth – They will not be selfish with themselves, they will nurture me - with God overlooking us.
As it turns out maybe this is not what i have - dont get me wrong in everything in life there is adversity that one has to overcome - but sometimes too, when the adversity becomes too much for one to bear, one calls in help - the best help is God obviously without stating the obvious.
when you talk to someone and it seems they dont understand, or care to understand you, when it seems that all your efforts are futile and going no where sometimes the strongest thing to do is to accept defeat.
everyone has as an agenda in marriage - wether it is to be happy, to be controlling, to be selfish, to be loving, to get loved and taken care of bla bla - it is with time that these agendas come to light.
there is a prayer in the Quran - Our Lord let our children and spouses be a source of joy for us and keep us in the forefront of righteousness. 25:74.
this is uncanny innit (my circumstances refers) source of joy - being the operative word (never will i deem it upon myself to mock Gods words)
30:21 -Among His proofs is that He created for you spouses from among yourselves, in order to have tranquility and contentment with each other, and He placed in your hearts love and care towards your spouses. In this, there are sufficient proofs for people who think.
it is not a crime to asked to be loved and cared for - it is the basic right of anyone, any father, any mother, any husband, and child, brother or sister.
Love is love. unselfish love is accomodating of anything, it is not mislead by physical appearance, it is not selfish, it is given as a measure of Goodwill, you cant help who you fall in love with. such is life.
the greatest love is the Love of God - to put God before all things in life and death.
surah 9:24
Proclaim: "If your parents, your children, your siblings, your spouses, your family, the money you have earned, a business you worry about, and the homes you cherish are more beloved to you than GOD and His messenger, and the striving in His cause, then just wait until GOD brings His judgment." GOD does not guide the wicked people.
For me - i pray to God that he keeps me putting Him first always, each day, everyday, in whatever circumstances - favourable or not. May God keep me praising Him always.
i did not listen to my own advice...
For sooo long when you pray for something and you leave it to fate and accept Gods judgement - then you get an inspiration, a glimpse of what appears to be what you have asked for - you thank God and accept it.
its just like inspiration - God inspires us in our mind - but at the same time the devil whispers into our minds - It is only with Gods grace and light that the difference is known to us.
if we are inherently bad, we disregard Gods light and accept the devils advice and direction.
God forgive me, for i know countless of times whether through ommision or commision - knowingly or unknowingly do i sin everyday against my soul before my Creator - but i rely on Gods mercy that He does forgive me and help me to do better and that He accepts me into His fold
Thursday, 23 February 2012
thanks to God
My Lord is wonderful,
My Lord is excellent
My Lord is Beautiful
My Lord is Good
Compassionate King, Merciful Lord You are my God you are my God
Compassionate King, Merciful Lord, you are my King you are My King
All i have is cause of your Mercy - Your are good to me, You are good to me
I am grateful Lord, I am grateful Lord
For all you have done, I am Grateful King
I am grateful Mightyful I am grateful o
Most High Most Wise - Arahman - Alal Arshi Istawa - The Most Gracious - who is firmly established on the Throne
i am grateful for your kindness and provision
i was going to lament and say how depressed i am but you have relieved a burden from my mind i am thankful and ever grateful....
My Lord is excellent
My Lord is Beautiful
My Lord is Good
Compassionate King, Merciful Lord You are my God you are my God
Compassionate King, Merciful Lord, you are my King you are My King
All i have is cause of your Mercy - Your are good to me, You are good to me
I am grateful Lord, I am grateful Lord
For all you have done, I am Grateful King
I am grateful Mightyful I am grateful o
Most High Most Wise - Arahman - Alal Arshi Istawa - The Most Gracious - who is firmly established on the Throne
i am grateful for your kindness and provision
i was going to lament and say how depressed i am but you have relieved a burden from my mind i am thankful and ever grateful....
Friday, 3 February 2012
interesting
http://www.scribd.com/doc/9495140/Conspiracies-Against-the-Quran
interesting read this link - very interesting indeed
interesting read this link - very interesting indeed
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