passing dream

Weird mini dream of my mum leaving me a letter for me to read after her death.. i was crying in dream apologising why she never held me to her to know her understand her better. i just wanted her to be there for me..i didn't want anything off her i just wanted her to be there for me.... before i slept i watched a real how someone called a woman put of the blue.. her long lost family.. and i reminded myself i too am estranged from my dads family.. i dont know my mums family at all..  but i remember family wont get you to paradise..so family of righteousness people whether blood related or now is what i seek..

struck by being openly muslim

So i was on a work eoy special and one of the people in  leadership team recorded his message and the thing that struck me was the background photo which was a framed photo os a quranic phrase "Afahasibtum annamaa khalaqnaakum ‘abasanw wa annakum ilainaa laa turja’oon" which translate  roughly to mean "Did you imagine that We created you without any purpose, and that you will not be brought back to Us?”

I guess i was shocked first that he could flaunt his faith so openly like that.. and i think that was it...he could be himself openly and show his background faith proudly for everyone in business to see.

I also remember a training we attended where we were asked the q.. what inspires you each day.. i know i said my faith as this governs my moral code and interaction as much as possible.. i would not lie.. i felt naff saying that. Like i was a lost species and people would think me weird cos we live in a society where faith is a back burner...

Now am thinking of joining the muslim network at work but nah.. pas pour moi... because i dont subscribe to most things "mainstream muslim" hero worship and practice.  

Anyways..looking forward to 2026 insha Allah