Forgive me pls

The other week I was.struggling.with my emotions how to.deal.with .not getting thru and dealing .it was a measley half point separating me.from.the next stage..
You dear lord have hindsight over everything and anything at all. and i trust it is for a reason and for a reason.
You always have my best interest at heart..you always look after me.. so why should this have been any different..
I seek refuge with thee dear lord as i ask for forgiveness.for my thoughts.
I remember a passage.. "if i ere it is cos of my shortcomings and if i succeed it is because of the grace of my lord up on me".. something like that..
My shortcomings are many
. I know..but by thy grace I am working on them..
Forgive me for my feelings then lord and help me to remember thy words and blessings upon me.. help me to progress and succeed in this life and hereafter..