Tuesday, 17 January 2017

Itchy businesses

I virtually ran out of work yesterday...itchy skin business again..started with slow heartburn then i felt bits of my skin warming till it got to my scalp..then it was all out war

Thursday, 12 January 2017

I AM IN NEED..Rabbi inni limaa anzalta ilayya min khayri faqir..

How do i cry out to  you o lord for help om this bed  wetting issue. I don't  know what to do. I don't  know how to help him. I  slowly turning into my mother. Help me please god help me with him
He doesn't want to learn and  he is just  as comfortable sleeping and  wetting himself. What do i do.. I  went to doctors they said its normal but this is not  normal
He cannot seem to wake from sleep to go and weee.the doctors dont see it as a problem at  his age... Where did i go wrong god..where did i go wrong.
Its either wee himself or wake him up every 2 hrs for a week. Or deprive him of liquid when he comes back
How can i help him please God how can i help him.
I am frustrated i don't  see a way out.. i am frustrated i dont see a light.  But as i come to you i shall try not to despair but i lament  to you and ask for your timely help with this issue. Where  have  i gone wrong..how can i bring it back..
This  is AR this is him oh lord..this is  him who i have asked you for him.. this is AR that is yours  my lord.. i am failing him.. i dont know how to help  him..please god help me help me please..
The other  day he said when he was in my belly he asked god to send him to me i am failing him as i cannot seem to teach him how to reach his  milestones.. i am failing  him as i dont have the  patience for  this.  It is killing me to be washing sheets everyday.. do i get him tp sleep on  floor or bare mattress ... i cant do that...he is a young boy still.. do i put him back in nappy?? What  do i do lord what do i do.. how can i help him learn how to  control this behaviour.. i am putting  a brave face.. i always put a brave face but its killing me because i feel  a failure a sham.. help me god help me what do i do how can i help him...i am desperate for your help on this  issue please god help me..

Tuesday, 3 January 2017

my Lord, blame me not for what i forget and be not hard on me for this lapse of mine

 rabbi la tuwakhizni bima nasitu wa la turhiqni min amri u'sran.

 rabbana la tuwakhisna innasina awakhtana
rabbana wa la tahmil alayna isran kama hamaltahu alla ladzina min qablina. rabbana wa la tuhamilna ma la taqata lana bihi. wa afuwana wa aghfirlana wa arhamna anta maulana fa ansurna fi dunya wal ahirat,wa anta arhamnu khayru razziqin

My Lord do not condem me if i forget or make a mistake. my  lord let menot blasphemy against you like others before me have done. my lord keep me from sinning .pardon me forgive me and have mercy on me . you are. my  master. grant me victory in this life and the hearafter, you are the most gracious, the best provider.

 this starts my prayer for 2017. i ask the most gracious for his mercy and guidance as  always on my and my children.. i ask of the most gracious to increase in my guidance and understanding to  help me to  grow and learn and progress in all good things in life and he hereafter and to always  keep me praising him always.