Darkness

My darkness falls on me yet again in lord. I seek refuge with thee.
Today my thoughts  were consumed by me the fact  that I am a bad mum and i think  i am a bad mum because I had a bad mum. But I love my kids i love them and i want the best for them.  And I ask am I the best for them. I want them to be better than me to do better  say better  and live better. But am I the right person to lay the right example for them. Ultimately  my lord your aim and the Destiny  you have for them will shape them this much i believe.
I think i understand now the cycle of misfortune. It breeds more misfortune. How do you break free..
I am searching on thee oh lord..as ever you are my help

Thank god

What else can I say other than thank you god for everything. What else can I say but to thank you Lord for everything.

On Thursday at work a lady said out loud that I was doing Ramadan.  This was in a room of 4.I never discussed with her before. The only person I had  said to was my manager of then by email and i had asked it be kept private. Now again she is stating it out in email for a team lunch.. What is wrong with people at work and why can't they understand that I don't like my business out there. I sent her an email back.  If I wanted the team to be aware I would have  said.
God help me in this place. Help me to leave and create a good and profitable exit for me. I do not like the place anylonger and I do not feel I am happy there again. Maybe it will pass but you never know.but I want to leave lord and find something else.please create an exit for me and let your light shine

Thank you God

This evening lord thank you . You honour me by allowing the boy to wake himself seeking the toilet. Thank You thank you

Itchy

I am crying to thee dear Lord. I am frail with no strength  and lack of sleep.  This year's Ramadan  is rough. And now I am itching all over.  Hives.  Please let it stop. Please let it not afflict me. Please dear  lots give me relief please.

Dear lord

.Be thou glorified lord.
If this is the path to getting us a house then lord please let it not be too stressful for me. Please  let it be speedy  and meet with your approval. I as ever rely on your mercy and benevolence.

Suntimes

Today is the longest  day in year. I checked Greenland and it's all sun. No sunset.  How does this  then compare for the prayers. Do people live in Greenland and the converse for the other side of equator. All the scriptures that  I have read talk of day and night. Hmmmm