yesterday i thought of this and this is my number for what i want to use to praise the almighty..4 - 8 - 7.
Sunday, 10 April 2016
my praise
1
– Most High is God, the Possessor of Sovereignity. There is no God but He. The
Almighty Most Wise.
Praise
be to the Lord of the Universe, the God of Abraham – the monotheist – He is the
one God and there is no other God but He, the Knower of all secrets and
declarations. He is the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful.
Fata
ala llahu Malika-l-Mulki. La ilaha illa lahu Al Azzizu – l - Hakim.
Alhamdulilahi
rabbil a’lamin. Llahu Ibrahim, hanifan. Huwa llahu ahad, la ilaha illa huwa, Alimu
gaybi wa shahadati. Wa Huwa arhaman arrahim
2
– My God you are God. There is no other God but You. You are the King, The Most
Sacred, the Peace, You are the Most Faithful and the Supreme. You are the
Almighty and the Most Powerful. You are The Most dignified. Blessed are you, O
Lord, and Be you Glorified My Lord, far
above having any partners.
Allahuma
anta allahu. La illaha illa huwa. Al Mulku, al Qudussu, Asalam, alMuminu, Al
Muhayminu, Al azziz, Al jabbar Almutakabir .Subhanaka llahuma ama yashrikun.
3
–My God you are one the absolute God. The Creator, the initiator
and the designer. To you belong the most beautiful names and glorifying you is
everything in the heavens and the earth. Blessed are you O Lord for You are the
Almighty, the Most Wise
Allahuma
anta wahid.Allahu Samad. Khaliqu, Bariyu al musawiru. Llahu
asmau-l-husna.Yusabihu ma fi samawati wa ma fil ardhi. Tabaraka Llahu, Anta
Azzizu Hakim.
4 - Praise be to thee my Lord, Lord of the Universe. Glorifying you is everything
in the heavens and earth. You are the Almighty, the Most Wise. To God belongs
the Kingship of the heavens and the earth. He controls Life and death and He is
the Omnipotent. He is the Alpha and
Omega. You are the Outermost and the Innermost. Blessed are you O Lord for you
are fully aware of all things.
Alhamdulilahi
rabil alamin. Yusabihu mafi samawati wal ardhi. Wa anta Azzizu Hakim. Lahu-l-Mulku samawati wal
ardi.. Yuhyi wa yumitu wa huwa ala kulli
shayin Kadir. Huwa Awalu wal akhiru, wa zahiru wa-l-batinu. Tabaraka llahu wa
huwa ala kulli shayin Alim.
5 – Praise be to God My Lord the one who created the heaven and earth in six
days, then assumed all authority. You know everything that enters into the
earth and everything that comes out from it. You know everything that comes
down from the sky and everything that climbs into it. You are with us wherever
we may be. Blessed are you O Lord you are the seer of everything we do.
Alhamdulilahi anta rabbi lazi khalaqa samawati wal ardhi fi
sitatin ayamin thumastawa alal arshi. Yalamu ma yaliju fil ardhi wa ma yakhruju
minha. Wama yanzilu mina samai wa ma yaa’ruju fiha wa huwa ma a kum aynama
kuntu. Tabaraka Llahu wa huwa alimu bi
zati suduri.
6 -You O Lord are God -there is no other god besides Thee, You are the Living,
the Eternal. Never a moment of unawareness or slumber can overtake Thee. To You
belongs everything in the heavens and everything on earth. No one can intercede
with Thee, except in accordance with Thy will. No one attains any knowledge,
except as you will. Your dominion encompasses all the heavens and the earth,
and ruling them never burdens thee in the slightest. Blessed are you O Lord,
the Most High, the Great.
Allahu
anta allahu – la ilaha illa huwa Al Hayyu al Qayumu. La ta khuzuhu sinnatun wa
la nawm, llahu ma fi samawati wa ma fil ardhi. Maaza ladzi yashfau’ indahu illa
bi idzni, ya’lam ma bayna aydihim wa ma khalfau. Wa la yuituna bishayin min
ilmihi illa bi man shaa’, wasiya Qursiyu samawati wal ardha. Wa la yahuduhu ifzuhuma .Tabaraka llahu huwa
Aliyu – Azeem.
7 – My God you are God the possessor of all sovereignty. You grant sovereignty to whomever You choose, You remove sovereignty from whomever You choose. You grant dignity to whomever You choose, and commit to humiliation whomever You choose. In Your hand are all provisions. Praise be to God He is the Omnipotent.
Allahuma
anta allahu, Al Malikal Mulku. Tutti mulka man tashau, Wa tanziu’ mukla mimn
tashau’ wa tui’zu man tashau wa tudzilu man tashau’ bi yadika=l – khayru .
Subhannallahi wa huwa ala kulli shayin kadir.
8 - You O Lord, merge the night into the day, and merge the day into the night. You produce the living from the dead, and produce the dead from the living, and You provide for whomever You choose, without limits. Blessed are you My god, you are The Best Provider.
8 - You O Lord, merge the night into the day, and merge the day into the night. You produce the living from the dead, and produce the dead from the living, and You provide for whomever You choose, without limits. Blessed are you My god, you are The Best Provider.
tuliju
layla fi nahari wa tuliju nahara fi layli. Wa tukhriju-l haya minal mayyiti wa
tukhriju-l mayyiti minal haya. Ta tarzuku man tashau; bi ghayri hisabi.Rabaraka
llahuma anta Khayru razzikin
9a - You O Lord are the One who created the heaven and the earth
truthfully.Whenever you say Be, it is. Your word is the absolute truth. All
sovereignity belongs to you the day the horn is blown. You are the knower of
all secrets and declarations. Blesses are thou O lord, you are the omniscient,
the wise.
Alhamdu
lilahi rabbil Alamin. Allahu khalaqa samawati wal ardha bul Haqqi. Wa yawma
yakulu Kun faya Kun. Qaolukul ?Haqqu, wa llahu Mulku, yawma yunfaku fi
soori,alimul ghaybi wa shahadati. Tabaraka allahu anta A’limu hakim
9b- You O Lord, You bestow knowledge, and understanding. You are the Provider, the Posessor of all Power, the Supreme. O favor me with the knowledge, the understanding and the insight that come from you. Blessed are you, O Lord, the gracious giver of knowledge.
O Lord, I approach Thee through remembrance of Thee and I speak thine intercession with thyself. Bestow on me your favour and draw me close to your service. Inspire me O Lord to remember Thee in all things.
I give thanks to you that you are the Lord my God and the God of my fathers forever and ever. Through every generation you have been the rock of our lives, the shield of our salvation.I give you thanks and declare your praise for my life that is committed to you and for my soul that is entrusted to you, For your miracles that are daily with me, and for your wonders and your benefits that are with us at all times, evening, morning and noon. I put my hope in Thee. For all these acts may your name be blessed and exalted always, O our King, forever and ever. Glorifying you is everything in the heavens and the earth. My God, My Salvation. Blessed are you, O Lord, The Most Gracious and to whom it is fitting to give thanks and Praise.
Friday, 8 April 2016
work
before i begin, i have to say to thee o lord. thank you for everything in my life. for my trials and tribulations, for my struggles, for the glimpse of happiness and the joy of everything that my destiny has put me through.
the darkness my lord is eating into me and i don't know how to stop it.
i have now descended - if this is the right pun for it - into thoughts which are unbecoming of me and i am getting sucked in more and more.
taking my life is not part of me because it is not something that i have read in the scriptures to be desired - but i find myself thinking more and having thoughts of why dont i just jump off a cliff or drive head on into a tree.
my desire to drive to my mountain, i avoid because i dont want any temptations.
but at my mountain i feel close with the air i am able to focus my thoughts but i cry when i am there and i dont want to let my darkness come over me whilst i am there
it is the only thought of my children thinking of their anguish without their mother that gets me through sometimes but the lure and the thoughts resurface again.
i guess it all boils down to the fact that i feel extremely tired, stressed out- no energy - i am worn out at work before i even come home
my feelings of resentment towards this employer of mine is growing.
today i wrote a note to myself for work which i penned the legacy i leave behind at work.
- that i do my best at all times - ensuring that i am active and productive. I say this hand on heart because i want to do my best, - if not be the best - be among the best. i am punctual and i consider myself to be effective in what i have been asked to do - all the time trying to learn and understand how the business works so i can do things according to how the business wants it. I am punctual to work - i give them my all - more than i am contracted for my hours*** so i can feel and know my worth for the wages they pay me. I am always at work - baring family emergency and or the relative odd sickness - even with that as long as my hands are working and my eyes can see - i will still drag myself to work and do something - which i consider is better than nothing. the fear is always that any mounting work will be left for me to deal with because everyone else is struggling themselves. i have put the *** because the work gives me an uplift due to a previous role which they have continued that due to us changing roles they agreed to keep the same agreements we had - so with that i work extra hard to ensure that i deserve everything they give me. i dont take my job lightly. i may not understand the tennents of law but i do what they ask me to do and ask when i am not sure on what to do. I may not agree with decisions in regards to my customers and feel that we should fight a case even when the evidence says now but because of the systems of law we give in. i accept all that.
- that my customers who i consider to be my policyholders, the all solicitors on whose files i maintain, brokers and all sorts have the confidence that whenever they contact me i will attend and acknowledge their request very quickly. I wont keep them waiting, i will help them too move their files on as i too want to move my files on.
- that i am committed to work - all i have ever known since coming here is work - i work to earn money to live. I am not an idle sort of person - i work to learn to progress.
despite my working hard and toiling and trying to do what they want me to do - i am stuck in a role no progress. i see people who have just literally come in the door getting ahead having roles and developing themselves but i am stuck where i am. my hard work i feel counts for nothing at all. The ideology i feel in my work is that the lazier you are the more you will progress as long as you pally with management.
but i fail at this because for one i am not lazy( and i use this term loosely as my definition is not being bothered or taking responsibility about ones work) and i lack interpersonal skills. i dont make friends easily because i dont trust easily and i dont like to partake in idle chitchat and inquire about people when i dont really mean it. if i want to know something in particular i ask of it - and bearing this in mind my enquiries may be just outright crazy..
i dont pally with management because i come to work do my bit and more and leave - i dont socialise with work staff because one i dont have the time because i al looking after my family and attending to their needs - two because the activity which my work mates partake in that they use to bond is not something i do - i dont drink and i dont like visiting pubs/clubs -
- the occasional team lunch i will go to but even at that it messes up with my duties of prayer as i reserve my lunch time to pray which is my obligation to do.. and many at times when i go for the team lunch i forget to pray - feel as if someone is clocking me if i leave my seat for what is 5 mins and i feel as if i m not paid to take time out to pray as if i am shortchanging the business.. i try to pray in my seat but in reality the concentration is not there too because i have to switch off my phones still i feel like i am being clocked..
my 35hr day work for me i come in and do my work and yet other people doing overtime and getting paid more for their overtime - i am asked to do their work in my own working hours. i dont understand that.
i dont get acknowledgement for the extra help i give my colleagues in work - above and beyond what i do
i dont get paid or any incentive for it.
i am not aghast to assisting and helping because i do even without anyone asking me but i stopped because i felt like the above and also i felt like i was being taken advantage off.
there is no thanks from the people you assist and the impression i get is that it is taken for granted that i am there to fill in with their work for them
i need money too - if i could i would do some overtime but i cant - and i feel as though i am penalised/overlooked for progress because i cant commit to that and that i have raised my voice at what i see as unfair practices and the stress at the sheer volume of what i have been doing..
only of recent in the last 6 month i refused to be taken for a mug. and i use this term in all its ramifications because i don't see why and how i should be working for people who are paid to come in to work but come in doing the barest minimum and leave at the end of the day - why should i be doing their work or taking ownership of their work for them when they cannot be bothered to do the same.
i voiced my frustrations and with that the management have taken a dim view of me .
there is always an excuse for everything in this work of mine not really doing what they should do but giving excuse for shady behaviour with work and drawing a blind eye and expecting others to move the business on rather than those they have employed to do it.
why should i be working when others are idling and not really doing the work they should be doing.
the shady behaviour of being - fiddling figures to make it seem that they are working and we all know games people play and the disregard with their work - i have seen it all.
then there is the issue of wellbeing which is greatly overlooked in my work. with what we do we have no choice but to intrude into peoples lives often being aware of their intimate medical history and psychological details .. the effects that these have on us is overlooked..
i complained to my manager around xmas time that i was feeling stressed and all my manager could do was tell me how i was her i should nto be like her basically come in do your bit and leave dont care.. i was referred to some quacky service which in my opinion was just shit - i have tried in so many ways to tell my manager that i am stressed, the workload is demanding - they dont care.
we had a temporary manager once and his way of moving things is giving me others work to do because i was up to date.. i am up to date because i work damn hard to ensure i do - btu you keep getting piled on more work or expected to take on more work - it got to a point i was not sleeping, waking up thinking about work how to move files on - it just gets toooo much
i dont see why i should slave myself for someone who has not real appreciation for the work done - whose discussions with you end up all being about herself and her achievements. where is my development, where is my progress from their hands - it is null and void because they are not interested.
i dont know how to be fake so i avoid spending time with my manager as much as possible and i try and avoid her spending time with me because the fakeness is apparent for me. there is no real interest just an desire to further her name within the business.
the progression and movement to development is not clear and its is just whispers behind glass mirrors. managers promote those they want - there is no clear strategy as to who and why they develop who they want - what kind of a place is this.
i am grateful for my job Lord i am grateful for any Job in these hard times but there is a limit to non progress.
with all of this weighing on my mind i remind myself constantly that i am not perfect and who am i to judge because 1% imperfection is just as grave as 10% which is just as grave ad 50% but the discontent in how the work is managed is eating into me and contributing to my darkness.
i am resolved to leave if i can find another job but i love my job and it pains me to leave.. the sacrifice i make is i have a place to say my prayers at work - where else can i find that.. but is this sacrifice too much to bear if there is no progress or movement..
i want to succeed God in this job - i give them my all and more. i want to progress.
i ask myself is it because i am black that i am overlooked - is it because i dont tie myself emotionally with any one person with work - it is because my work is bad - and if my work is bad why are they not telling me - i will try to be better - i will try to do better and improve. am i that much of a hopeless case that they could not be bothered.
in spite and despite Lord of my issues and darkness and what i consider to be my problems let me thrive above the sight of my enemies - let me thrive and succeed. By thy grace and mercy. grant me it.
the darkness my lord is eating into me and i don't know how to stop it.
i have now descended - if this is the right pun for it - into thoughts which are unbecoming of me and i am getting sucked in more and more.
taking my life is not part of me because it is not something that i have read in the scriptures to be desired - but i find myself thinking more and having thoughts of why dont i just jump off a cliff or drive head on into a tree.
my desire to drive to my mountain, i avoid because i dont want any temptations.
but at my mountain i feel close with the air i am able to focus my thoughts but i cry when i am there and i dont want to let my darkness come over me whilst i am there
it is the only thought of my children thinking of their anguish without their mother that gets me through sometimes but the lure and the thoughts resurface again.
i guess it all boils down to the fact that i feel extremely tired, stressed out- no energy - i am worn out at work before i even come home
my feelings of resentment towards this employer of mine is growing.
today i wrote a note to myself for work which i penned the legacy i leave behind at work.
- that i do my best at all times - ensuring that i am active and productive. I say this hand on heart because i want to do my best, - if not be the best - be among the best. i am punctual and i consider myself to be effective in what i have been asked to do - all the time trying to learn and understand how the business works so i can do things according to how the business wants it. I am punctual to work - i give them my all - more than i am contracted for my hours*** so i can feel and know my worth for the wages they pay me. I am always at work - baring family emergency and or the relative odd sickness - even with that as long as my hands are working and my eyes can see - i will still drag myself to work and do something - which i consider is better than nothing. the fear is always that any mounting work will be left for me to deal with because everyone else is struggling themselves. i have put the *** because the work gives me an uplift due to a previous role which they have continued that due to us changing roles they agreed to keep the same agreements we had - so with that i work extra hard to ensure that i deserve everything they give me. i dont take my job lightly. i may not understand the tennents of law but i do what they ask me to do and ask when i am not sure on what to do. I may not agree with decisions in regards to my customers and feel that we should fight a case even when the evidence says now but because of the systems of law we give in. i accept all that.
- that my customers who i consider to be my policyholders, the all solicitors on whose files i maintain, brokers and all sorts have the confidence that whenever they contact me i will attend and acknowledge their request very quickly. I wont keep them waiting, i will help them too move their files on as i too want to move my files on.
- that i am committed to work - all i have ever known since coming here is work - i work to earn money to live. I am not an idle sort of person - i work to learn to progress.
despite my working hard and toiling and trying to do what they want me to do - i am stuck in a role no progress. i see people who have just literally come in the door getting ahead having roles and developing themselves but i am stuck where i am. my hard work i feel counts for nothing at all. The ideology i feel in my work is that the lazier you are the more you will progress as long as you pally with management.
but i fail at this because for one i am not lazy( and i use this term loosely as my definition is not being bothered or taking responsibility about ones work) and i lack interpersonal skills. i dont make friends easily because i dont trust easily and i dont like to partake in idle chitchat and inquire about people when i dont really mean it. if i want to know something in particular i ask of it - and bearing this in mind my enquiries may be just outright crazy..
i dont pally with management because i come to work do my bit and more and leave - i dont socialise with work staff because one i dont have the time because i al looking after my family and attending to their needs - two because the activity which my work mates partake in that they use to bond is not something i do - i dont drink and i dont like visiting pubs/clubs -
- the occasional team lunch i will go to but even at that it messes up with my duties of prayer as i reserve my lunch time to pray which is my obligation to do.. and many at times when i go for the team lunch i forget to pray - feel as if someone is clocking me if i leave my seat for what is 5 mins and i feel as if i m not paid to take time out to pray as if i am shortchanging the business.. i try to pray in my seat but in reality the concentration is not there too because i have to switch off my phones still i feel like i am being clocked..
my 35hr day work for me i come in and do my work and yet other people doing overtime and getting paid more for their overtime - i am asked to do their work in my own working hours. i dont understand that.
i dont get acknowledgement for the extra help i give my colleagues in work - above and beyond what i do
i dont get paid or any incentive for it.
i am not aghast to assisting and helping because i do even without anyone asking me but i stopped because i felt like the above and also i felt like i was being taken advantage off.
there is no thanks from the people you assist and the impression i get is that it is taken for granted that i am there to fill in with their work for them
i need money too - if i could i would do some overtime but i cant - and i feel as though i am penalised/overlooked for progress because i cant commit to that and that i have raised my voice at what i see as unfair practices and the stress at the sheer volume of what i have been doing..
only of recent in the last 6 month i refused to be taken for a mug. and i use this term in all its ramifications because i don't see why and how i should be working for people who are paid to come in to work but come in doing the barest minimum and leave at the end of the day - why should i be doing their work or taking ownership of their work for them when they cannot be bothered to do the same.
i voiced my frustrations and with that the management have taken a dim view of me .
there is always an excuse for everything in this work of mine not really doing what they should do but giving excuse for shady behaviour with work and drawing a blind eye and expecting others to move the business on rather than those they have employed to do it.
why should i be working when others are idling and not really doing the work they should be doing.
the shady behaviour of being - fiddling figures to make it seem that they are working and we all know games people play and the disregard with their work - i have seen it all.
then there is the issue of wellbeing which is greatly overlooked in my work. with what we do we have no choice but to intrude into peoples lives often being aware of their intimate medical history and psychological details .. the effects that these have on us is overlooked..
i complained to my manager around xmas time that i was feeling stressed and all my manager could do was tell me how i was her i should nto be like her basically come in do your bit and leave dont care.. i was referred to some quacky service which in my opinion was just shit - i have tried in so many ways to tell my manager that i am stressed, the workload is demanding - they dont care.
we had a temporary manager once and his way of moving things is giving me others work to do because i was up to date.. i am up to date because i work damn hard to ensure i do - btu you keep getting piled on more work or expected to take on more work - it got to a point i was not sleeping, waking up thinking about work how to move files on - it just gets toooo much
i dont see why i should slave myself for someone who has not real appreciation for the work done - whose discussions with you end up all being about herself and her achievements. where is my development, where is my progress from their hands - it is null and void because they are not interested.
i dont know how to be fake so i avoid spending time with my manager as much as possible and i try and avoid her spending time with me because the fakeness is apparent for me. there is no real interest just an desire to further her name within the business.
the progression and movement to development is not clear and its is just whispers behind glass mirrors. managers promote those they want - there is no clear strategy as to who and why they develop who they want - what kind of a place is this.
i am grateful for my job Lord i am grateful for any Job in these hard times but there is a limit to non progress.
with all of this weighing on my mind i remind myself constantly that i am not perfect and who am i to judge because 1% imperfection is just as grave as 10% which is just as grave ad 50% but the discontent in how the work is managed is eating into me and contributing to my darkness.
i am resolved to leave if i can find another job but i love my job and it pains me to leave.. the sacrifice i make is i have a place to say my prayers at work - where else can i find that.. but is this sacrifice too much to bear if there is no progress or movement..
i want to succeed God in this job - i give them my all and more. i want to progress.
i ask myself is it because i am black that i am overlooked - is it because i dont tie myself emotionally with any one person with work - it is because my work is bad - and if my work is bad why are they not telling me - i will try to be better - i will try to do better and improve. am i that much of a hopeless case that they could not be bothered.
in spite and despite Lord of my issues and darkness and what i consider to be my problems let me thrive above the sight of my enemies - let me thrive and succeed. By thy grace and mercy. grant me it.
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