in the Quran,there is a passage in which the person reffered to as Job says a prayer to God and it goes - Anni masaniya dhuru, anta arhamu rahimin.. the translation goes - adversity has befallen me and you are the Most Merciful of the Merciful..
i lay this plea before thee O Lord on behalf of my Son - who seems to be afflicted with some sort of skin problem.. it has reached a stage that there are sores on his head.. it is just eating his head and to compound issues there are now rashes on his skin.
Bible history goes that Job was afflicted with many issues that tested his resolve but he stood still and firm reaching out to God and God rewarded him for his faithfulness.
so my dear Lord - this is our AR -- why is he AR, he is AR because it is on you i laid my sights on when i asked for a son - It is on your name i meditated on when my husband was tapping my belly asking "where is my child" it is on you that i placed myself and AR is a miracle onto me.. in my anguish and my despair - it was you i looked onto and i laid my plea and you did not disappoint me and you answered me and i dedicated my child to thee and named him the servant of the Most Gracious.. this was a name that came to me in 2009 before i had him , he was my dream come true.. you God made him come true - Thank you, Most Gracious
I placed my child from his inception in your care, i placed his future at your feet, his everything and i ask of thee to help me and to stop this thing from ravaging him.
i dont have strength my lord, i am officially weak but i know that with everything i come to you and you who has answered me and given me these two will by your grace answer me and help these two.
who is my powerful lord if it is not you.. Who is my saviour if it is not you. who delivers me from adversity if it is not you.. so i beseech you My lord right this instance as it is the beginning of my ramadan to heal my son and to make him better.
and i in turn will lay praise at your feet as ever before for your help and mercy and your faithfulness and for not turning us away.
my mind is weary with worry and i dont have strength to keep going let alone be strong in the face of what seems like a hammer load.. i need you o lord to please help me help my son..
Tuesday, 16 June 2015
Wednesday, 10 June 2015
help please lord helpl
I need your help lord.. I feel the doctors are fobbing me off..please it is your AR.. please.. I dont know what to do, what else to say, how else to do..I am in your sight lord please help us..
Tuesday, 2 June 2015
blabberings
in th ename of God, the most gracious....
where do i start Lord..
I feel Lost..
I am Lost.
a couple of truths that i must acknowledge..
yes indeed.. children and family life takes you away from God.
slowly and slowly it churns you makes you tired forgetting your obligations to a point where you do not have the zeal to do that which you did before having them.
and this is what i feared.. and it is what is happening.
so people, be careful what you wish for..
i ask myself is it perfection that i strive for and am i tasking myself too much.
i remember God in my heart but do i remember him with actions.. i agree and accept that life does take me away.. work commitments, children commitments, husband commitments, friend commitments.. and i slowly am letting myself slip .
God however and whatever do not let me go but keep me tied to thee that i will forever glorify and praise thee. keep me in mind and hold me to thee and allow me to and give me the zest to praise you like before..
yesterday my mum rang me and said that someone called her to say that my father had died.. i was like duh!! no one had called me to inform me.. in a way i didnt believe it and even after putting down the phone i was still like duh!!
she rang me back to say that they said my dad was just tired no dead..
can you believe this..i am still like duh!!
to me it sounded like my mum was gleeful in reporting the demise of my dad thats how it sounded to me -
anyways.. i dont believe it.. didnt believe it .. i rather thought i would know if these things were told to me.. that i would feel it.. so i guess because i didnt feel anything it was not registered as truth to me.. as ever i plead with thee O lord for inspiratinal grace to help me sift truth from fiction and to reside in truth in everything - thought, word and action..
i want to by a house and i dont know where to start. i dont want debt of motrgage interest on my neck.. i am not the most savy of people when it comes to financial matters. infact i am not savy at all..but i reckon i want to get my own house for the children a nice lovely house with a garden either front or back.. back preferably but not choosy - with a kitchen i can call my own with my own stuff.. with two toilets a dining room/area and bedroom for my children... a work room for the computer person.. and some things that i am keeping close to my chest.. God you are the provider and My Provider as ever ..
this thing on Ar head has come back and i dont know how to get rid of it.. i worry and ask myself how did he get it where did he get it from.. its now bothering me because i want my children perfect and any flaw in them i see as a failure on my part..because how is it that i let him catch it and despite the treatments how is it that it is still there.. as ever God you are Provider and Healer so i plead with thee for thy healing grace on these children to make them better.
God i have no one else but you as my master and i want to write more.. you know what is in my heart before i think it before i say it to myself.. help me Lord to get back to you..
ramadan is approaching and as with each ramadan i have a theme and what i would like mostest is as follows..
* allow me O Lord to be appreciative of the blessings that you have bestowed on me and to do the righteous works that pleases thee and admit me by thy mercy into the company of your righteous servants
*Grant me O lord your grace to say my prayers to thee consistently and to give my charity always in any condition
*admit me a honorable admittance and let me depart a honorable depature and grant me from thee O Lord your powerful support.
*your grace and mercy and light to illuminate the darkness that i m ay see it for what it is.. your endless mercy and forgiveness of my many numerous sins and accepting me into paradise
on a superficial scale what i would like
*loose weight in hips and belly and get back to where i want to be
*save money and stop spending
*have our own house
*have our own car
*progress with work more money/promotion
on a family level it shall be the good health and safety and welfare and protection of my nearest and dearest,, Lord you know those i consider these to be..
where do i start Lord..
I feel Lost..
I am Lost.
a couple of truths that i must acknowledge..
yes indeed.. children and family life takes you away from God.
slowly and slowly it churns you makes you tired forgetting your obligations to a point where you do not have the zeal to do that which you did before having them.
and this is what i feared.. and it is what is happening.
so people, be careful what you wish for..
i ask myself is it perfection that i strive for and am i tasking myself too much.
i remember God in my heart but do i remember him with actions.. i agree and accept that life does take me away.. work commitments, children commitments, husband commitments, friend commitments.. and i slowly am letting myself slip .
God however and whatever do not let me go but keep me tied to thee that i will forever glorify and praise thee. keep me in mind and hold me to thee and allow me to and give me the zest to praise you like before..
yesterday my mum rang me and said that someone called her to say that my father had died.. i was like duh!! no one had called me to inform me.. in a way i didnt believe it and even after putting down the phone i was still like duh!!
she rang me back to say that they said my dad was just tired no dead..
can you believe this..i am still like duh!!
to me it sounded like my mum was gleeful in reporting the demise of my dad thats how it sounded to me -
anyways.. i dont believe it.. didnt believe it .. i rather thought i would know if these things were told to me.. that i would feel it.. so i guess because i didnt feel anything it was not registered as truth to me.. as ever i plead with thee O lord for inspiratinal grace to help me sift truth from fiction and to reside in truth in everything - thought, word and action..
i want to by a house and i dont know where to start. i dont want debt of motrgage interest on my neck.. i am not the most savy of people when it comes to financial matters. infact i am not savy at all..but i reckon i want to get my own house for the children a nice lovely house with a garden either front or back.. back preferably but not choosy - with a kitchen i can call my own with my own stuff.. with two toilets a dining room/area and bedroom for my children... a work room for the computer person.. and some things that i am keeping close to my chest.. God you are the provider and My Provider as ever ..
this thing on Ar head has come back and i dont know how to get rid of it.. i worry and ask myself how did he get it where did he get it from.. its now bothering me because i want my children perfect and any flaw in them i see as a failure on my part..because how is it that i let him catch it and despite the treatments how is it that it is still there.. as ever God you are Provider and Healer so i plead with thee for thy healing grace on these children to make them better.
God i have no one else but you as my master and i want to write more.. you know what is in my heart before i think it before i say it to myself.. help me Lord to get back to you..
ramadan is approaching and as with each ramadan i have a theme and what i would like mostest is as follows..
* allow me O Lord to be appreciative of the blessings that you have bestowed on me and to do the righteous works that pleases thee and admit me by thy mercy into the company of your righteous servants
*Grant me O lord your grace to say my prayers to thee consistently and to give my charity always in any condition
*admit me a honorable admittance and let me depart a honorable depature and grant me from thee O Lord your powerful support.
*your grace and mercy and light to illuminate the darkness that i m ay see it for what it is.. your endless mercy and forgiveness of my many numerous sins and accepting me into paradise
on a superficial scale what i would like
*loose weight in hips and belly and get back to where i want to be
*save money and stop spending
*have our own house
*have our own car
*progress with work more money/promotion
on a family level it shall be the good health and safety and welfare and protection of my nearest and dearest,, Lord you know those i consider these to be..
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