Today was a tough day for me emotionally my lord.. I struggled to keep it together since the weekend as I was hovering on the edge of tearful downpour. So manythings get me down lord I complain to you and I seek redress from you with my emotional outbursts looking for what I call fast fixes and immediate action..
like the boys incessant runny nose and cough.. He started to scratch. The back of his head- for a moment thought it was lice but I didn't think could be- that got me down cos I am telling myself I could not be looking after him well enough if he is falling sick..then today I went into city to get his hair cut he fell asleep and the girl was wide awake with tears. Made things difficult for me but we managed to get him to the shop and the shop wasn't open despite the time saying they should and I already paid for parking so we had to come back.. That got me down even further lord...
But all in all we found another place that I am happy with and the boy sat by himself to get his hair cut.. So this I take my lord as my blessing for the day.
Thank you God for everything, even through my darkness thank you that I can hold my head and see the light thank you..
I am not there hundred percent but I am getting there.
I am reminded of this song:
Abide with me fast fall the eventide
The darkness deepens lord with me abide
Who like thyself my guide and stay shall be
Through Rain or sunshine Lord abide with me..
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