Lord I am failing.
I am failing because I am falling.
I feel like I am slipping away from you letting life come before you and all that I must/should/could do.
I feel desolate like a vessel with no spirit.
I feel empty.
Bitterness and rage so easily overcomes me.
Resentment and anger now defines me.
I need you Lord I need you.
I can't say where art thou Lord can I? Because you are there and always there. It is I that have taken myself away from you. I let my life take precedence over my obligations to you. I let friendship take prominence over you.
This is wrong. For me this is wrong.
I seek your help and forgiveness Lord as I come to you to ask for balance in my life, that I may be comfortable, content, happy and secure in they confines and with thy provisions you have bestowed on me.
I ask with the supplication that I find in the Quran- that which moses said to thee after he killed a soul. Rabbi inni zalamtu nafsi faghfirli.. my lord I have wronged my soul, forgive me.
Right this minute, help me turn my life around to where I want it to be- with thee first and foremost in everything and anything I do.
Arrogance,pride,resentment,despair,aanger, selfishness, banish them away from me.
Help me back on track to thee that I may feel again your love and care.
Help me to thee yet again my lord for I have no saviour but thee. Help me to thee to regain myself- to regain my soul in worship to thee. Help me Lord to withstand the trappings of life its vanity and allure that I may focus on you only.
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