Most gracious Lord blessed in thy name and thank you tha lt tou have heard me call you and responded to me. Despite my many transgressions
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Thursday, 26 December 2013
Sunday, 22 December 2013
almost there
i don't even know how old i will be again..tomorrow is my birthday and each year ( apart from the last three) it has always been a source of joy and anticipation towards..
this year i have to do the calculation in my head to figure out my age.. and in amazement i wonder where all the years have gone.
My cherished memory as a child haunts me tonight.. because each year apart from the last three i am always in a spiritual mood( by that i mean prayerful) but i have struggled to get into that spirit and tonight it is no different. i am tired and my back hurts.. so all i am thinking is that i want to sleep.. but i know the right thing for me to do is to pray and offer prayers to God.. but what haunts me is the Question i pose to myself.. when was the last time you offered dedication to God for nothing.. i don't wan to feel like i am offering prayers just because its my birthday - i want it to be like before when i offered prayers just because i was enamored with the thought of God.. .
one of my cherished childhood moments is waking up at night and going to sit with my dad whilst he offered additional prayers.. it was a whole ceremony for my dad.. the smell of incense.. the one in the long green and white rectangular box, that incense.. my dad when he wanted to offer additional/special prayers would light the incense.. i don't know why but tonight i find myself doing the same thing.. maybe because the smell of it just reminds me of prayer/devotion from my childhood... in the background was a tape playing a medley of surah yasin, wakiah, nasr, back to back when just kept playing on and on an on.
it is through listening to them so many times that i had them memorised in my head...
nonetheless - at this time i take a reflection of my life and say
Dear Lord,
many a blessing you have bestowed on me in my life and i am very very grateful to you for them.
i fear that i do not do you justice because those blessings also take me a bit away from you.
not that i want them to stop my lord - who wants a good thing to stop - well not me
but what i am trying to say is that i am struggling to find balance with life living it and also worshiping you.
as a wife and mother, i find that my time is no longer mind and what i used to cherish - some time to myself is a luxury that i sometimes cannot afford..
nonetheless this is my challenge right now - to be charitable and to devote time to worship you.
and my challenge is my wish from thee and my hope for the year coming.
each time on my birthday i ask you lord for a gift and i do have to say you my lord always does provide for and i am grateful.
so this year that is my 34th by all accounts( of human calculations) this is what i want from thee - to draw me nearer to thee in worship and devotion, to make me charitable with all that you have bestowed upon me. see there i had to take a mental calculation to ask myself am i really going to be 34. Guide me to thee and help me in righteousness to worship thee alone. help me lord for a lost soul i am - always tethering on the brinks of desolation, but Lord , God my God help me and bring me back to thee.. never let me go but hold me close to thee for it is thee i want to worship and serve.
this is what i want from thee O lord - righteousness, worship and devotion to thee and acceptance by thee.
so Blessed are thou o Lord my God of ages and of all times. My God of yesterday, today, tomorrow and forever.
this year i have to do the calculation in my head to figure out my age.. and in amazement i wonder where all the years have gone.
My cherished memory as a child haunts me tonight.. because each year apart from the last three i am always in a spiritual mood( by that i mean prayerful) but i have struggled to get into that spirit and tonight it is no different. i am tired and my back hurts.. so all i am thinking is that i want to sleep.. but i know the right thing for me to do is to pray and offer prayers to God.. but what haunts me is the Question i pose to myself.. when was the last time you offered dedication to God for nothing.. i don't wan to feel like i am offering prayers just because its my birthday - i want it to be like before when i offered prayers just because i was enamored with the thought of God.. .
one of my cherished childhood moments is waking up at night and going to sit with my dad whilst he offered additional prayers.. it was a whole ceremony for my dad.. the smell of incense.. the one in the long green and white rectangular box, that incense.. my dad when he wanted to offer additional/special prayers would light the incense.. i don't know why but tonight i find myself doing the same thing.. maybe because the smell of it just reminds me of prayer/devotion from my childhood... in the background was a tape playing a medley of surah yasin, wakiah, nasr, back to back when just kept playing on and on an on.
it is through listening to them so many times that i had them memorised in my head...
nonetheless - at this time i take a reflection of my life and say
Dear Lord,
many a blessing you have bestowed on me in my life and i am very very grateful to you for them.
i fear that i do not do you justice because those blessings also take me a bit away from you.
not that i want them to stop my lord - who wants a good thing to stop - well not me
but what i am trying to say is that i am struggling to find balance with life living it and also worshiping you.
as a wife and mother, i find that my time is no longer mind and what i used to cherish - some time to myself is a luxury that i sometimes cannot afford..
nonetheless this is my challenge right now - to be charitable and to devote time to worship you.
and my challenge is my wish from thee and my hope for the year coming.
each time on my birthday i ask you lord for a gift and i do have to say you my lord always does provide for and i am grateful.
so this year that is my 34th by all accounts( of human calculations) this is what i want from thee - to draw me nearer to thee in worship and devotion, to make me charitable with all that you have bestowed upon me. see there i had to take a mental calculation to ask myself am i really going to be 34. Guide me to thee and help me in righteousness to worship thee alone. help me lord for a lost soul i am - always tethering on the brinks of desolation, but Lord , God my God help me and bring me back to thee.. never let me go but hold me close to thee for it is thee i want to worship and serve.
this is what i want from thee O lord - righteousness, worship and devotion to thee and acceptance by thee.
so Blessed are thou o Lord my God of ages and of all times. My God of yesterday, today, tomorrow and forever.
Friday, 20 December 2013
Allahu Aahad
Allahu Ahad, Allahu Samad, Lam yalid wa lam yulad, Wa lam yakun lahu, kufuwan Ahad.
This is my assertion this morning.
God is one God, the God of abraman, or Moses, of jesus and of Muhammed. Who is the same God of david, of solomon, of jonah, or lot, the only God of before, of today and forever.
That is my God, my Lord, the God whose dominion is everything and anything that we see or don't see. He alone is God in all the heavens and the earth, anywhere, everywhere.
I worship God alone as best as I can,I praise God alone as best as I can, and I accept God alone, in any language, in any culture, in any sect- these don't matter to me as long as it is to God alone...... And who is God?? God is the creator, the Provider, the only source of guidance,forgiveness and mercy, God is God
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This is my assertion this morning.
God is one God, the God of abraman, or Moses, of jesus and of Muhammed. Who is the same God of david, of solomon, of jonah, or lot, the only God of before, of today and forever.
That is my God, my Lord, the God whose dominion is everything and anything that we see or don't see. He alone is God in all the heavens and the earth, anywhere, everywhere.
I worship God alone as best as I can,I praise God alone as best as I can, and I accept God alone, in any language, in any culture, in any sect- these don't matter to me as long as it is to God alone...... And who is God?? God is the creator, the Provider, the only source of guidance,forgiveness and mercy, God is God
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Saturday, 14 December 2013
Don't leave me
Don't leave me my Lord don't leave me.. I feel your spirit withdrawing from me. Please don't leave me.whatever I do whereever I am don't leave me.. Let your spirit envelope me, please don't leave me. Le me forever feel your presence, please don't leave me..I beg of you to keep hold of me and save me from falling. Please don't leave me.
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Tuesday, 3 December 2013
rashad khalifa translation
i am even more convinced that rk translation is not authentic.. no disrespect to the person..
the example i will give is like the bible and its many versions based on translators, so is the quran with different translators.
what he has sough to do is interpret the verses via translation into modern language - but in doing do i believe it looses some o fits identity and looses some translation.
it cannot be used for reference purposes because he chooses to chop and change as he prefers..
but good on him for what he wanted to do.. however i believe that Gods words does not need any abrogation or watering down for anyone..
Blessed is God always and Forevre
the example i will give is like the bible and its many versions based on translators, so is the quran with different translators.
what he has sough to do is interpret the verses via translation into modern language - but in doing do i believe it looses some o fits identity and looses some translation.
it cannot be used for reference purposes because he chooses to chop and change as he prefers..
but good on him for what he wanted to do.. however i believe that Gods words does not need any abrogation or watering down for anyone..
Blessed is God always and Forevre
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