Despair

I haven't had a chance to speak to you oh lord..
Sometimes I feel so weary like the weight of the world is on mm
Despair that's what it is.. I get into a state of despair and I don't know why.
Lord I reach out to you to lift me out of this mood. Lift me out and keep me strong.. God I am calling on you my defender and protector.. Help me and save me from the depths
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Give thanks

Today I give thanks to my Creator, the Most Gracious, for the life of the boy. Today he is 18months.
I thank thee O lord for the wonderful care and love that you have on him. I am grateful and feel soooooo blessed to be him mother and I ask thee for good health for both of us, forgiveness of our sins and your grace and mercy on us daily in this life and the hereafter.
God I have asked of thee secretly and I will ask of thee in public that you place your wisdom and guidance and love in the heart of my children. That you show them and guide them to you, that you help them to walk through this life heads held high, confidant in your care, love and blessings. Help them to see your truth and give them a timely understanding of your creations.
Guide then against darkness and instill in them your light which illuminates and clears all things.

Help me too my lord to show then, to give then a good example to follow, don't let me play lip service but let me show them with conviction and action. Guide me to you oh lord and keep me with you, to worship glorify, praise and exalt thee always each day in this life and the hereafter.
My lord I have believed in thee and I trust in thee as my Lord and master. You are my Most Gracious Lord, my lord and only God. Blessed is thy Name master of all Glory, worthy of all Praise.
I thank thee and praise thy great name for your goodness, kindness and blessings in my life each day, that which I see and that I don't. I thank you for your care and love and guidance. And I ask that may it continue each time each day, in this life and the hereafter.
For all praise is yours
All authority kingship and glory
In this life and the next
Be thou glorified my lord
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When to end fast - from when the white is distinguishable from dark at dawn till Night - not sunset

 it is the popular assumption that we end fasting at sunset..
 but  on reading the Quran - i fint that it is incorrect this assumption.

 in relation to fasting the arabic read from the Quran

2:187
Ohilla lakum laylata alssiyami alrrafathu ila nisaikum hunna libasun lakum waantum libasun lahunna AAalima Allahu annakum kuntum takhtanoona anfusakum fataba AAalaykum waAAafa AAankum faalana bashiroohunna waibtaghoo ma kataba Allahu lakum wakuloo waishraboo hatta yatabayyana lakumu alkhaytu alabyadu mina alkhayti alaswadi mina alfajri thumma atimmoo alssiyama ila allayli wala tubashiroohunna waantum AAakifoona fee almasajidi tilka hudoodu Allahi fala taqrabooha kathalika yubayyinu Allahu ayatihi lilnnasi laAAallahum yattaqoona 

 the red bold is in relation to what i want to discuss..

حِلَّ لَكُمْ لَيْلَةَ الصِّيَامِ الرَّفَثُ إِلَى نِسَائِكُمْ هُنَّ لِبَاسٌ لَكُمْ وَأَنْتُمْ لِبَاسٌ لَهُنَّ عَلِمَ اللَّهُ أَنَّكُمْ كُنْتُمْ تَخْتَانُونَ أَنْفُسَكُمْ فَتَابَ عَلَيْكُمْ وَعَفَا عَنْكُمْ فَالْآنَ بَاشِرُوهُنَّ وَابْتَغُوا مَا كَتَبَ اللَّهُ لَكُمْ وَكُلُوا وَاشْرَبُوا حَتَّى يَتَبَيَّنَ لَكُمُ الْخَيْطُ الْأَبْيَضُ مِنَ الْخَيْطِ الْأَسْوَدِ مِنَ الْفَجْرِ ثُمَّ أَتِمُّوا الصِّيَامَ إِلَى اللَّيْلِ وَلَا تُبَاشِرُوهُنَّ وَأَنْتُمْ عَاكِفُونَ فِي الْمَسَاجِدِ تِلْكَ حُدُودُ اللَّهِ فَلَا تَقْرَبُوهَا كَذَلِكَ يُبَيِّنُ اللَّهُ آيَاتِهِ لِلنَّاسِ لَعَلَّهُمْ يَتَّقُونَ

Please note there is the alif missing at the beginning of this arabic paste.

in my  view translation is as thus on the red bolded parts - 

وَكُلُوا

wakulū

And eat

 

وَاشْرَبُوا

wa-ish'rabū

and drink

ḥattā

until

يَتَبَيَّنَ

yatabayyana

becomes distinct

lakumu

to you

الْخَيْطُ

l-khayṭu

the thread

الْأَبْيَضُ

l-abyaḍu

[the] white

mina

from

الْخَيْطِ

l-khayṭi

the thread

الْأَسْوَدِ

l-aswadi

[the] black

mina

of

الْفَجْرِ

l-fajri

[the] dawn.

thumma

Then

أَتِمُّوا

atimmū

complete

الصِّيَامَ

l-ṣiyāma

the fast

إِلَى

ilā

till

اللَّيْلِ

al-layli

the night.

 it is clear that sunset is not the night - at least for it it is ..
 night begins when sunset ends..
 so forthwith - end of any fasting is the start of night..
God be praised for helping me to see and to understand.

 also on some other issues based on a discussion with my friend today - sighting the moon is not a requisite in the Quran for the start of ramadan - i could not find anything in relation to sighting the moon - sighting the moon comes from one of the many hadiths  some people attribute to muhammed/his companions -i dont know how accurate that is over time.

 nevertheless i made a concise decision not to follow hadith over Quran.. Quran is from God and when else is there that is best?

http://www.quranse.org/QueryEngine/index.php?Cmd=BS&mv=0&BL=en&SearchQuery=2%3A18

InshaAllah bidafhli llaha wa bi rahmatihi.

Bifadhlillaha wa birahmatihi...
With Gods grace and his mercy.

I like this phrase
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