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sometimes it is easy to bare one's soul out to the world and at times it is not so easy especially when things are of a sensitive nature.

My Lord, sometimes i want to talk to a human soul, but what will that gain me expcept a bit of relief and feeling that someone has heard me.

My Lord i know you hear me, and i know that you you know me, but i dont know what to do

You have said to ask with prayer and i am hoping i am doing just that.
I trust in thee and i am relying in thee. I have done all i could do, the rest is with you.

i am worried , yes I am and i am slowly loosing hope because i dont knwo the outcome.

i am reminded by a verse - hasbunallahu wa nima-al wa keel. and la hawla wa la kuwata illa bi llahi.

apart from constant recitation on my part i dont know what else to do
My Lord - you have said to ask in prayer and i am trying to do just that.

You know me and ultimately you know what is best for me.
but i am begging thee and pleading with thee to grant me, to allow me and to forgive me.
Forgive me the temptation which makes me think that others mischief may be the case in this instance but i know and fully realise that You My Lord, The Most Gracious God are in control of all things. Nothing happens except with you knowledge or in accordance with your will.
I wont say that i understand how your will and plans for us are meant to pann out, in fact i wont hazard a guess but i have to trust that you as my Sustainer will sustain me and provide for me.

in this instance if it were just me, i may not bother as much btu there are other people somewhat involved that will be involved and the recriminations and unknown shame/tanning response is frightening me.

My Lord please i dont know what to use to beg of thee, i can say i will stop doing this, i can say i will give this to this person but ultimately i know they are just promises, promises that i may not carry out.

but God i can only say that i will try my best to be more charitable, to lead a more righteous life, to Glorify thee more, exalt thee more, Praise thee more eloquently
This much i trust that by your Grace you will allow me.

I have done all i can do i dont know what else to do, Please My Lord help me.

I am begging thee Great Lord, to please help me.

Most Gracious Lord, of all the names you have this is the one that endears to me the most - the moment i heard it and it resonated with my heart i was in Love with it and this is the best name i call thee. The Most Gracious.
Most Gracious, you are my protector and you are my Lord please help me.
i was saying to myself today that your mercy is such expanse and so deep that with it you provide for the disbelievers, you provide for the idolaters, you provide for the believers.
i hope that you regard me as a believer my Lord and i am asking that you extend your mercy to me.
I am hoping in thee my Lord and i am begging thee to please please please please help me.
As i am feeling right now i am begging thee Lord that it is a blessing and i am begging thee to please please please help me.
i can sit and lament all day long, i can sit and cry all night long my Lord please i dont want to cry any longer i want to jubilate and sing and give thanks and praise, i want to shout so the whole world can hear i want to testify my thanks to the Lord. My God please help me Most Gracious please help me as i dont know what to do...