why am i scared...

As i sit here, taking apause from organising the house, packing my suitcase, i just realised that i am scared.....

God i am actually scared.... its one week, one full week, wow!!!

i am getting slightly overwhelmed at the thought of it and i think it is the nerves...

but God why should i be scared.. i have asked and you have given me, I asked for a break a holiday, time away from work, time away from the UK, and you have provided,, so what is there for me to fear....

see how my insecurities want to play with my mind... God never, by your grace and will never..

I wont be scared.. i will stop this mood... it just cannot be..

i may let my mind wonder to some worries, wonder to some crazy situations, but i should be excited, and i am excited, its just something that different i guess...

Dear God, keep me safe, guide me, protect me... Let me have a lovely wonderfull time, let me come back refreshed, filled with vigour, let me not forget my priorities whn i get there, but let your praise and devotion be in my mind all the time, let me be able to do that which i must do, my gratitude and my thanks for thee,

so madam tutu, no scary scary any longer, just be grateful and be glad the good lord has provided for you, everyhting gw will be fine and dandy, lovely and wonderful, peaceful and just lovely, sweet and cheerful, he he he