Thursday, 19 November 2009

Remembrance

One has to be grateful to God for little mercies you know..
i remember when me and tonto, drove into flood water..
that day i could say i know what inspiration was.
i didnt know there was a dip in the road all i saw was small surface water not knowing what was underneath. and i decided to drive through it..
by the time i had reached the middle and i could see water at the bonnet, i cried out to my god please help me, dont let this be the end of my tonto..
I called out to God, Please dont leave me...
that moment i had an inspiration, " whatever you do fatima dont take your foot off the clutch, and drive carefully in high gears"..
now i dont know much about cars but this is what my mind told me to do..
as i drove through the water, by now tonto was well and truly swimming in this river, the car started to chug, chug chug chug... i called out hoping that the intensity of my cry will fuel up tonto and she will kick back into action,
i cried out, and i started to pray, i shouted and willed my heart to connect with the engine of my car i shouted and prayed to God, that please lord dont leave me, - the money to repair the engine flashed before my eyes - where the heck would i get that sort of money, the inconvinience of being without tonto also flashed before me... i prayed and shouted and slowly but surely tonto made it out of the water...

she made it through and after we got onto dry lane, she chugged chugged and cut off.. the oil light came on and i thought Yee pa!!

i thought my end had come at that point... i started to loose hope, but i still prayed to god, pleasse god dont let this happen to me, please help me please dont leave me.. another inspiration flashed before me, start the engine and she started , we moved about 5 feet and she cut off again.. i was in despair.. then i started tonto again and for whatever reason something just told me, drive all the way home in 4th gear but on low speed and that is what i done. tonto chugged a wee bit but she made it home..

it is in memory of this that i seek to God as i change micars name to tonto 2. for the help and the care and the blessing that God has given me... tonto 2 and me mearly got into a flood tonight, and i had a flash back to where we were before with tonto 1.

so my lord let it not be that i ever forget your blessing on me on that day, that i knew that my God heard my call, that i knew what inspiration felt like. let it not be that i dont remember to say thank you, for that day and many other days ..

Dear Lord, remember the day i went into a ditch, me and tonto on a back bendy road, unlit.. i was at the top of a hill, and me and tonto stopped just short of the edge of the hill, had we gone a foot then i dont know what i would be saying, the the last thing i remember lord, is that i called out to you begging you , i called out to you and i started to pray, and just at the last minute i had inspiration to brake and we stopped dead in a ditch,
that day you sent for me a kind person, who stopped and offered me his assistance. that kind hearted gentleman and his lovely wife who took me into their home and who waited with me the whole time until the police arrived and sent them off their way.

i said i would send him flowers but each time i forget, i remember that i sat in his car and i noticed thathe liked to read and i thought i would buy him a book and send him it, but each time i forget, i thought i would trace my way backto his house to say thank you, but each time i forget..
Wherever that kind man is my Lord, help me bless him, help me let him know that i am forever thankful to God for his kindness.. and i hope he thinks kindly of me and does not think me callous or ungrateful...

how many things should i count Lord, how many of your wonderous blessings and mercies in my life alone can i count lord, there are loads, those that i can remember vividly and some that with age memory faces away,

i remember lord again when the whole hfx thing dropped on me and i realised that i was a mule for a con artist, my stupidness and gullible head did nto do me any favours, but i called to thee lord, i sought your help and lo and behold you found a way for me, you brought me out of despair, and you found a way for me that did not in any way hinder me or stress me..

Forever Lord in my life i am forever indebted to thee... for indeed i can say with a firm mind that indeed the Lord is good and his mercies are endless...

how many times have i let myself down lord, before thee, how many times have i refused to listen to my heart, but when i call on you you still answered me, how many times have i done things unbecoming of me, things that under normal circumstances even i would go - Stupid! at someone else, but when i called you lord you still came to my rescue..

Lord today is the 19th November 2009. Today i say thank you dear lord, for all your kindness and mercy for all your care and attention and i pray my lord that you never let me forget your blessing upon me and that you allow me to be forever grateful to thee, that you allow me to praise thee always..

Protect me from balspheming against thee like others before me have done and protect me from sinning against thee, Mt lord, master of my fate and freedon, For all praise is yours all authority kingship and glory in this like and in the next, there is no other god but thee, so i say, be thou glorified Most gracious Lord.

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