Reminiscing

I am reminiscing of a reply to a mail i sent to someone who was finding it difficult and wanted to unload some stress and just dump on mail..
i found it this evening.. and my thinking this early morning.. 2:46 is that God really has been good to me.. in all things i have no complaints.. but rather if i am truthful.. i have thank and undying in debt thanks for the Most gracious..

sometimes i can be so sanctimonious.. but i am far from that.. I am struggling in my own way too. i will not let other see these ways.. but God knows and i know that i am struggling..


Hello sandee and how are you,
I dont know how to start this writing this if I am honest, but i have been meaning to get in tough with you. I first got your mail as was sent to me on a list but i was going to get in touch with you but for one reason or not i did not.
anyhoo,
i dont know how to respond to your mail because i dont know what you are going through.
all I know is that each one has his/her own struggles with life and things and it is something that is between you and God .
God in all His Greatness knows our heart and knows what is best and what is good for us all. all I can say is to persevere and still try however much you can to observe God to the best of your ability. Your redemption is a thing that is btw you and God, so I can only say to still persevere and try to the best that you can and with whatever limitations that you have to observe God. God knows our intentions anyway and I am quite sure sees all your efforts. God willing all those efforts will meet you with a generous recompense at His side.
while it is not my remit to judge you how u live your live or how you cope with what life has thrown at you, it is also not in my remit to to say if you are or if you are not redeemed.
We all are struggling in each and every way of ours,

Prayer fasting etc are ways of affirming our faith and drawing us nearer to God ( as I understand it) but like I mentioned, God knows your intention and sees your limitations so do whatever you can.
Hajj is not mandatory either and can be done should you have the funds and means to do it. Like I said god knows our intentions and sees our limitations. God willing He will shower on you His mercies

A couple of things I do not understand about what you wrote so I seek to understand your views on it. Regarding the Hijab, I do not think it is a requirement for worshiping God. But should it rock your boat then I guess, if you want to wear it and are happy wearing it then nothing wrong with it. But it is not a mandatory requirement though.

The Quran as I understand it is a source of wisdom and guidance from God to draw us closer to God and by doing so redeem ourselves. And through worshiping god you surrender to His will. As long as it is Gods will you surrender to.
Now I do not think it is a requirement to learn Arabic (to the best of my knowledge) because the Quran can be found translated in several languages.
But should it help I can try to get you on CD English translation and Arabic reading of Quran, so you at least know what the verses are reading and saying.

I doubt that I live close to you, as I reside in Scotland , but should you provide me with your address I will make an effort to visit you from time to time, should you need some company.

As shy as I am and please do not take offence at all I ask what help I can give.
What ever my God will allow me to help then I will try my best to help.

Now please dont take offence at whatever I have written, I just say things as I think them and i never know how to compose writing to people. Please forgive my ignorance and lack of understanding of some of your issues.

So darling friend, tell me how i can help and in my own little way i will. God willing all your troubles will ease and God willing you find peace

in hindsight i am not even sure i sent it.. because i never got a reply at all... lol!!