Spirituality VS Sexuality

how does one reconcile sexuality and spirituality?
for a long time I believed that it was one or the other

the old age battle of good and evil..
hmm
today at 28,
it has taken me a bit of time to realise that i do not need to...
yes i am a sexual being as much as i am a spiritual being..
the trick is to recognise and allow which ever part or state i am in to flourish...
it means i am able to collect sex tips, research and file them as i was doing before without feeling guilty
it means i am able to research sexual awakening... theory only by the way... with the same gusto as i do when attacking my prayers
It means knowing that I am not slave to my body that i am able to step back when things begin to bother me, when the horns start attacking me
It means that i can focus on my spirituality and serve my God as long as i know that i maintain morality and righteousness...
It means that i understand the powers of my sexuality and i dont use them to hinder/oppress other people...
it means that i am able to think of sex without feeling guilty...
I have always said that I am naturally perveted by nature becasue while growing up the rate at which i think of sex is alarming and it is a part of me that i have always been running from..
My earliest memory is one of watching a film which incited me to an extent of serious bodily harm.
I understand that my mind is perverted but i also understand that i have to get it under control.....
Growing up and not understanding this part of me has led me down the path of self manipulation and explorations - when i could not control the urges i felt and when i let loose my imaginations aon this yeye girls' reality...

I started my journey quite young...at age of 7, these feelings have been stirring inside of me and unable to talk about it , unable to ask for help i just went along with whatever i went along with....self exploration and manipulation... secret longings and desires... everything was bodily pleasure, bodily pleasure,,, right into the age of 24/25.
Guilty pleasures of doing and knowing that it has to be put under control.. but not understanding how.

The mind shall never be slave to the body rather! the mind must always have the upper hand....

my outlook is weird and is not standard, its is just a case of logic and what comes comes,
that being, I have strict rules on what i can and cannot do.... the mind being allowed to flourish in unimaginable concocted things- no restrictions
Adetutu you are growing up.... and you cannot be a slave top your body. God willing everything will be alright.
Ok so that being said and this status being realised, i can now be me and allow all parts of who i am to flourish....
I do not mean to incite, nor do i mean attract attention, I just want to be me...