hunting..

i went to see another house yesterday it was just wonderful.. i loved it and i am afraid i have started to dream about it just like the first one i fell in love with and we didn't get.. this time lord i leave everything with you and i ask  for your help..
 people say whats for you will be for you and i accept that with gods help he CAN make things for you and make it right for you..
 so i guess i am asking let my wish be your will o lord..  am not sure which order is best let your will be my  wish.. as you are the one that inspires then it is equal in all tings..
 help  us please, we don't have much but we want a start  to secure for our  children..
  on a good note on going there the song  playing was glorious God by nathaniel bassey and on leaving i saw a rainbow and i prayed to God and asked him just like we are told the floods ravaged earth in the time of noah and the rainbow is a sign of  the stop of the rain.. i have read in the Quran  noahs ark  set foot on a location so i prayed of yesterday God let this be a  sign of a blessing home/location for me and my family and like noah bless it for us and help us to secure it and help us with it,,

Blessed is the name of God in any language or race,,

This is going on my mp3 list...

 so simple yet potent

O paalanhaare, nirgun aur nyaare - 2 

Oh nurturant Lord, beyond description and beyond all

Tumre bin hamra kaunon naahin 

Without you, we have no one

Humri uljhan suljhaao bhagwan 

Ease our difficulties, oh God

Tumre bin hamra kaunon naahin 

Without you, we have no one

Tumhe humka ho sambhaale 

You are our only supporter

Tumhe hamre rakhwaale 

You are our only protector

Tumre bin hamra kaunon naahin 

Without you, we have no one

--CHORUS-- 
Tumre bin hamra kaunon naahin 

Without you, we have no one

--FEMALE-- 
Tumre bin hamra kaunon naahin 

Without you, we have no one

Chanda mein tumhe to bhare ho chaandni 

It is you who has filled the moon with moonlight

Sooraj mein ujaala tumhe se 

The sun's brightness is from you

Yeh gagan hai magan, tumhe to diye ho isse taare 

The sky is content, you have given stars to it

Bhagwan, yeh jeevan tumhe na sanwaaroge 

God, if you don't adorn this life

To kya koi sanwaare 

Then who will adorn it?

O paalanhaare, nirgun aur nyaare 

Oh nurturant Lord, beyond description and beyond all

Tumre bin hamra kaunon naahin - 2 

Without you, we have no one

--MALE-- 
Jo suno to kahe Prabhuji hamri hai binti 

If you will listen, Lord, I will make a plea

Dukhi jan ko dheeraj do 

Give patience to sorrowful people

Haare nahin voh kabhi dukh se 

So that they will never give in to the sorrow

Tum nirbal ko raksha do 

Provide the powerless with protection

Reh paaye nirbal sukh se 

So that the powerless can remain happy

Bhakti ko shakti do 

Provide your disciples with strength

--CHORUS-- 
Bhakti ko shakti do 

Provide your disciples with strength

--MALE-- 
Jag ke jo swami ho, itni to araj suno 

Since you are the world's master, please hear this plea

Hai path mein andhiyaare 

There is darkness in our path

Dedo vardaan mein ujiyaare 

Provide us with blessed light

--CHORUS-- 
(O paalanhaare, nirgun aur nyaare 

Oh nurturant Lord, beyond description and beyond all

Tumre bin hamra kaunon naahin 

Without you, we have no one

Humri uljhan suljhaao bhagwan 

Ease our difficulties, oh God

Tumre bin hamra kaunon naahin) - 3 

Without you, we have no one

http://www.myhindilyrics.com/translation-Lagaan/O-Paalanhaare.html

anxiety

 i am up again with the anxieties of work not letting me go back to sleep.
 this week, i have in effect 16 hours to work.. and next week its 20 hours.. ho wi  will find the time to do this work is something else.
 i doubt i will be able to manage new claims and i have diaries i have to attend to..
 i dont know what to do.
 i  am slightly anxious as i know i get given allocation more and whenever i am off they pretend like they dont know and allocate me work when ordinarily  i should not get the work.
 the pretend to  forget.
 i didnt go for overtime this weekend ether because of the time i had and o could not commit to the  backwork of post that cones with overtime.

i ask of a healing Lord on behalf of my heart..

My Lord the boy is suffering again with some skin issue and i  dont know what to do..
 he seems susceptible o these things and i am not sure how to help him..
 not that i can help him but the doctors say that  it can take up to 12 weeks and we are just sitting on 6 weeks now.. it has just ravaged his whole trunk that i dont know if  there is a come back from this.
 i try to console myself with the story of Job who  we are told suffered ailments and sores and the  Quran does mention him and his prayer - anii masaniya dhuru, anta arham rahimin..
 the best of prayers  is that which one utters for themselves but i am not even sure the prayer of a mother for her child carrys  weight.
 but i will try  because if he suffers then i too am suffering..
i am his mother and i want to see him well, i dont want to see him  the way he is - he looks like an eyesore.. i dont know what  to do to help him so i beg of the most gracious.
 we dont know if it is viral or fungal.. we think its the viral one... the doctors  think so too and say there is no treatment because he does not show any sign of distress. they say it will go by itself

 he is starting a new phase in his life and to have this in this crazy world where he will be looked at and pointed at bothers me and makes me feel bad for him.
 i am asking of thee lord to help him  please if not for him then on my behalf as his mother asking that you please care for my son.. that is him you have given me and it is him that i have dedicated to you.
 it is him with this little voice that remembers alhamdulilahi rabil alamin.. it is him that shouts with glee  - thank you God for everything.
 it is him o lord of ,mine please help me help him help us..