Naming Ceremony..

in my culture ,  new children are named on the 8th day.

 i do not subscribe to culture but rather subscribe to worshiping God alone - not that i look down on cultural practices - as long as it does not conflict in my worship to God  and i do not do or say anything that goes against this stance then what the heck - all things belong to God - customs, traditions and what nots..

  the naming ceremony involves calling in a religious leader to officiate and offer prayers on behalf of the new child.

 now i don't subscribe to anyone offering prayers for me or my children especially when i their mother have my own voice and can offer my own prayers to God.. i believe in direct contact with God as i have my own voice
 i don't know anyone's heart so i cannot say that they are in a better position than me to be able to offer prayers just because society accepts then as religious leaders. i do not subscribe to this

 it is this basis that i am not doing so - then again - i cannot guarantee that prayers will be offered to God alone because as is the norm with generalised "muslim" behaviors - one must offer praise/supplication to muhammed in the belief that God will favour  prayers.. All worship is to God alone  end off -  no other supplication/praise to anyone other than God is acceptable

 In the name of God the Most Gracious Most Merciful
All praise be to God, our Creator and Lord
It is said in the scripture that: (41:47) - With God is the knowledge about the Hour (end of the world). No fruits emerge from their sheaths, nor does any female conceive or give birth, without His knowledge. 

Glory be to God that He has provided me with a daughter, another child. - 
i am grateful and thankful.for this blessing and i ask your protection on her  on the strength of the verse i read in which marys mother invoked your protection on her daughter -  3:36 - I too, ask your protection on her.

 so Dear Lord - You have bestowed on me a baby girl, I invoke your protection on her and her descendants, from the evils and vices  in this world - I ask that you guide her and inspire her - keep in her heart  an unwavering love for you and grant her courage and understanding, guidance and steadfastness. Keep her walking a righteous path in thy service. Keep her as a submitter to thee in this life and the hereafter.

i ask from thee as you are the Provider, Creator. You that have initiated her and sustained her in the womb for 9 months and delivered her  out safely into this world. She is dedicated to you my Lord so i will call her Anais Maryam, Please accept her in thy service and shower your blessings and guidance on her always.

at this moment i will not forget my first - He too is dedicated to you and i ask these same things for him from you.. He is called Abdul Rahman. 

I am grateful to thee O lord for the lives of my children that is entrusted to thee, For their souls that are with thee, safeguarded from the evils and vice of this world - I beseech you to please keep them righteous, keep them praising and worshiping you always.

My heart is here

God I thank you that you listened to me again and I thank you for the wonderful people you directed my way to assist me.
I am grateful for the life of my second and I will call her maryam. She is a girl. I beseech you to guide and protect her from evil in this life and hereafter. I ask that you bless her and her descendants and shower on her your wonderous mercy..strenghten her with your grace.. She is of your stock, a righteous stock.. Inspire her right from youth to worship you and to love you. Help her to walk thriugh life with companions of righteousness..my mistakes let them not befall her and give her better judgement than I had.. Let her have self pride and worth, whilst not being arrogant, keep her humble in they service always
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unexpected Blessing..

i am overwhelmed with emotion right now because i never expected what just happened to  us.
 my dad gave me a gift that i did not expect out of the bloom and i am grateful to God Almighty for his provisions and his mercy  in that of the parents he gave to me.

 my relationship with my dad is weird because of the polygamous situation but  i am grateful that he remembered me and i thank God almighty for him.

 in my sanest and cool headed of moments - i am not bitter that his relationship with my mum is sour - i just want him to  be happy just as  i want my mum to be happy.
 i am not resentful that he chose my step-mum over my mum - that's life - i happen to like my step-mum and if she makes my dad happy then so be it..

 it doesn't mean i love my mum less - infact i love my mum more because she is my mum. and i especially like her more because she was there for me when i never expected her to be - she came through for me.

 i jut try to learn to live with the circumstances life has metted out for me in terms of family life,

 before i digress - God thank You very much for this blessing - help me O lord to do good with it to be charitable and considerate.

Most exalted are Thou O Lord and Thank you one again.

worried

my Lord i come to thee to hear out my fears in regards to going to the hi
ospital.
 i dont know who will look after AR for when i go in and i need our special grace that everything will be ok for him me and our new one.
i guess out of everything that is what worries me the most.. the care of AR..
 i beg of you oh lord to please make everything ok for him for me and our new one.
every one is sustained by you  and our protection comes from you so i turn to you to ask your help.
i do not trust MV to look after him because he seeks to control everything he does from what he plays with to what he eats/drinks.. i feel he does not want him to be a child.. he doesnt not know how to be a child..
 so i am fretting as to whose care AR will be in.. but the only carer, the very best of carers is You my Lord so i place myself, Ar and the new one all in they capable hands..