Wednesday, 28 March 2012

HELP

The Most Gracious is my Lord, there is no other god but He.
He is the one who will guide me and inspire me
He is the one who will help and support me.
The Most Gracious is my Lord, i have no other God but Him
He is my God and the one that will guide me
He is my source if Help, my creator and Saviour
The Most Gracious is my Lord, there is no other god but He
He is the one who will forgive me
My salvation and Trust.
The Most Gracious is my Lord, I have no other God but Him
He will shine his light for me to see, to lead me through my darkness
He will hold me close to him, accept my repentance and guide me
The Most Gracious is my Lord, i believe and trust in Him

Patience, Tolerance and understanding

TOLERANCE
a fair, objective, and permissive attitude toward those whose opinions, practices, race, religion, nationality, etc., differ from one's own; freedom from bigotry.

a fair, objective, and permissive attitude toward opinions and practices that differ from one's own.

interest in and concern for ideas, opinions, practices, etc., foreign to one's own; a liberal, undogmatic viewpoint.

the act or capacity of enduring; endurance



PATIENCE:
the quality of being patient, as the bearing of provocation, annoyance, misfortune, or pain, without complaint, loss of temper, irritation, or the like.

an ability or willingness to suppress restlessness or annoyance when confronted with delay: to have patience with a slow learner.

quiet, steady perseverance; even-tempered care; diligence: to work with patience.



UNDERSTANDING:
mental process of a person who comprehends; comprehension; personal interpretation: My understanding of the word does not agree with yours.


intellectual faculties; intelligence; mind: a quick understanding.


superior power of discernment; enlightened intelligence: With her keen understanding she should have become a leader.


knowledge of or familiarity with a particular thing; skill in dealing with or handling something: an understanding of accounting practice.


a state of cooperative or mutually tolerant relations between people


this is something i wrote back in 2008 - it still rings true now more than ever.
http://adetutu.blogspot.fr/2008/09/do-still-want-me-part-1.html
i have never sought to hide my true self away from others,
i have never sought to decieve or be untruthful about how i am, who i am and what my aspirations are.
To my own defult - I am too open about myelf - even if i am not able to say it face to face , i will write it here how my thoughts are developing and it is possible to see at a glance what my mood is like.
It is for each of us to search our souls and find out the true reasons for our actions.
I have been open about myself right from day one - but it seems that despite what is plain in view and sight to see, some people choose to be blind about it.

the analagy i can give is that - i knew i wanted a white shirt and i went to the market and i saw a red shirt. I bought the red shirt knowing fully well it was a red shirt, it was advertised as a red shirt. Despite wanting a white shirt, i bought the red shirt and took it home. when at home after some time i was disatisfied with the red shirt because it turned out not to be the shirt i originally wanted.
all in all - you wasted your time because you may now have to return the red shirt and go for your original white.

Questions one will ask is: why did you buy the red shirt when you wanted white.

there are some quotes in Quran that i feel is pertinent and it is making me have thoughts along the psycadelic lines

somewhere it says Good men for Good women, bad men for bad women, suran 24:26

if what i am experiencing is to be understood on some level - maybe i am a bad woman deep down afterall. and if i am may God forgive me a great forgiveness and turn me, my soul and my life around

I asked God for someone from my heart, someone who will love and care for me, be tolerant, have patience and understand me. someone that I am happy with, safe and secure – with them I am invincible – they will have my back, they will be my greatest friend, I can talk to them, tell them my heart and they will understand. they will support me and tell me their mind, tell me their truth – They will not be selfish with themselves, they will nurture me - with God overlooking us.

As it turns out maybe this is not what i have - dont get me wrong in everything in life there is adversity that one has to overcome - but sometimes too, when the adversity becomes too much for one to bear, one calls in help - the best help is God obviously without stating the obvious.

when you talk to someone and it seems they dont understand, or care to understand you, when it seems that all your efforts are futile and going no where sometimes the strongest thing to do is to accept defeat.

everyone has as an agenda in marriage - wether it is to be happy, to be controlling, to be selfish, to be loving, to get loved and taken care of bla bla - it is with time that these agendas come to light.

there is a prayer in the Quran - Our Lord let our children and spouses be a source of joy for us and keep us in the forefront of righteousness. 25:74.

this is uncanny innit (my circumstances refers) source of joy - being the operative word (never will i deem it upon myself to mock Gods words)

30:21 -Among His proofs is that He created for you spouses from among yourselves, in order to have tranquility and contentment with each other, and He placed in your hearts love and care towards your spouses. In this, there are sufficient proofs for people who think.

it is not a crime to asked to be loved and cared for - it is the basic right of anyone, any father, any mother, any husband, and child, brother or sister.

Love is love. unselfish love is accomodating of anything, it is not mislead by physical appearance, it is not selfish, it is given as a measure of Goodwill, you cant help who you fall in love with. such is life.

the greatest love is the Love of God - to put God before all things in life and death.

surah 9:24

Proclaim: "If your parents, your children, your siblings, your spouses, your family, the money you have earned, a business you worry about, and the homes you cherish are more beloved to you than GOD and His messenger, and the striving in His cause, then just wait until GOD brings His judgment." GOD does not guide the wicked people.


For me - i pray to God that he keeps me putting Him first always, each day, everyday, in whatever circumstances - favourable or not. May God keep me praising Him always.

i did not listen to my own advice...

For sooo long when you pray for something and you leave it to fate and accept Gods judgement - then you get an inspiration, a glimpse of what appears to be what you have asked for - you thank God and accept it.

its just like inspiration - God inspires us in our mind - but at the same time the devil whispers into our minds - It is only with Gods grace and light that the difference is known to us.
if we are inherently bad, we disregard Gods light and accept the devils advice and direction.
God forgive me, for i know countless of times whether through ommision or commision - knowingly or unknowingly do i sin everyday against my soul before my Creator - but i rely on Gods mercy that He does forgive me and help me to do better and that He accepts me into His fold