i need ur help Mg totake hold of me,
to guide me and to inspire me
i meed ur help Mg to support me
in all things right, good and just
i need ur help Mg to direct me
in all things right, good and just
let me not alone dear Lord
lest i go astray....
in my every day, eveey thought every wish and every prayer
let me forever say - be thou glorified Most Gracious Lord.
Sunday, 25 July 2010
Thursday, 22 July 2010
simples
#My Lord, allow me to be appreciative of th eblessing that you have bestowed upon me and to do the righteous works that pleases thee.
Admit me by thy mercy into the company of thy righteous servants.
Admit me a honororable admitance and let me depart a honorable depature and grant me from thee a powerful support.
Admit me by thy mercy into the company of thy righteous servants.
Admit me a honororable admitance and let me depart a honorable depature and grant me from thee a powerful support.
Wednesday, 14 July 2010
c'est complique
i seek your forgiveness and pardon most gracious... over this matter - if i have overlooked and not understood properly.
i seek your pardon if i hve done as my mind wanted and i ask of thee to help me to do better in future.
i sek your help and assiatance over this matter Mg and i seek refuge with thee....
c'est complique - this is my plight this evening..
you have given me and i am grateful, je n'est cest pas comment dire
MG we need your help
i seek your pardon if i hve done as my mind wanted and i ask of thee to help me to do better in future.
i sek your help and assiatance over this matter Mg and i seek refuge with thee....
c'est complique - this is my plight this evening..
you have given me and i am grateful, je n'est cest pas comment dire
MG we need your help
Sunday, 4 July 2010
inspiration, tolerance and understanding
i say it now and i say it again,
THANKS IS DUE TO THEE MG FOR ALL YOUR INSPIRATION AND GUIDANCE.
when i feel that i am loosing my way - that i am loosing grip with the most important thing in my life - God , i find renewed strenght and inspiration in the most unlikely places.
I remember what i wrote to someone back in 2007 - i dont know why i was rummaging through my sent mail, but i just went there and i found this email - when reading it - i thought this was someone else - this cannot be me, but it was and is me. that determination that i had is gw my strenght and gw will inspire me to do the right things at all times in all circumstances
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I have contemplated writing to you but i had no real humph to do so but i am hoping at least you can help me by shedding some light on issues bothering me. I dont know why it is taking me long to do.
My first issue has to do with mind wandering during prayer. how do i combat this issue. I am asking God for forgiveness and help to keep my mind from wondering to silly things and to keep some crazy voices in my head at bay so as to allow me say my prayers. I dont mind if the mind wonders at other times, but not during prayers, if you have experienced this before what do you suggest. i am trying to keep an open mind during prayers but my crazy mind just wonders everywhwre. i have tried praying in a quiet room, so that the tv, or people noice dont affect or distract me. can you advise me pls.
the second issue at the moment is a long standing one. basically, i wanted to marry a lovely young man, who i loved deeply but i kept holding back because of my faith. i wanted to make sure that we both belived in god and in God only and when i was asking him he would say yes he did. he is christian.
When i took the courage to ask if he only believed in God only and that when he prayed does he pray to God directly then i fully knew the intentions in his mind. I stayed with him still hoping for a miracle that maybe we have cross wires somewhere and that maybe a miracle will happen becasue i did love him and i believed he did me. We even called the whole thing off but somehow we got back together. He does not mind to marry me as a muslin and he says he will allow me practice as a muslim, but i am reluctant to marry him because when he prays he prays in the name of jesus, and he has said he cannot pray in the name of God , the Creator, the Magnificient.
While still hanging in Limbo, he decded to give me an ultimatum and i did not fight his choice because it was the right thing to do( i was more cowardly to do it. but As God willed it, it happened that we split for goood as we both had to state our intentions fully) I delibrated over matters much and i decided that my relationship with God is much more important to me than any relationship with him or with any one person. but i have to admit that it is very hard moving on as i know that i do love him, but God has done so much more for me that I cannot forsake God for anyone. In a way i have always had suspicions from young that I may find myself in this situation. now i am not regretting my actions but if i am truthful i am finding it hard to move on because i still have feelings for him.
I have tried in so many ways to explain to him the beauty in God the beauty and the simplication in worshiping God alone, but he will not listen. Though he says he does listen to me, his mind is closed on the matter and i am aware of that.
So my situation, is how do i move on and be strong in heart.
I try to read the quran to affirm my spirit and i try to pray to God to give me strenght, but i still cry. I understand that i am human and the loss of what i thought was dear will cause me to grieve. the crying is much much much less as the year goes by but at times when i remember i still do.....
how can i fully detatch myself from this person???
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God be praised and magnified always, in my life, in my heart, in my thoughts, in my mind - whatever my circumstances Lord, keep me praising thee always.
On to another issue -
friday night was a strange night for me.
i went to see prince of persia and whilst the enthusiasm for playing and fooling around childishly left me early enough as my playmate didnt want to play - i was rather plunged into a melancholy mood and dispair - the movie was ok - not too great - but some interesting messages crept up in my mind and this reduced me to tears.
if i could turn back the hands of time - would i change anything?
this is the million dollar question that does not have a straight answer.
I would love to say yes and say that i wish that i was forever faithful to God all the years of growing up - that i was firm of mind and intentions, that i would not be so easily mislead by peer pressure, that i was devoted to God both in words,in acions and deeds.
at the same time, i will say no, because i know that my circumstances have helped in making me realise my devotion to God, have shaped me to accept what i feel to be true, and has helped me to become the better person/soul that i have always wanted to be.
and at the though of my life and past mistakes - and at the present thought of knowing that slowly i may be slipping away from my nightly devotions, i plunged into despair and i was crying. God dont let me go, Hold on to me forever and dont let me go, dont let the devil take control of me, dont let him succeed, keep me in thy service always, forever praising thee, God dont let me go. this is what was in my head all evening long back to the house.
it was weird, i was sad and i was distraught, and i forgot somethng Lord, my playmate that was with me, i didnt talk to him.
even that night when he wanted to talk to me, i didnt know what to say to him, to tell him that my mood although initially had something to do with him, had in actual fact nothing to do with him at all.
but i was able to talk and for the first time ever i said it out loud - that crazy dream which still haunted me, that dream that made me realise that i have to fight for my soul - with all heart and intention - that i have to deserve that place in paradise - that all the talking in the world is nothing compared with the intention and actions that follows it up. i told him -
help me to understand him and help him to understand me - this prayer i asked of thee O lord, and that night you made me realise that understanding isnt just by inspiration alone - it is by sharing our fears, hopes and aspirations. it is by communication.
i am not the best communicator my Lord, so please help me....
as with moses who asked of thee, " untie a knot from my speech that they may understand me" - or somethings to that effect.
i also learnt an big big lesson - Tolerance - and what it really means.
for me tolerance is - overlooking that which i dont necesarily understand or agree with. We are not the same, we can never be, our culture is not the same, our language is not the same, our up-bringing is not the same, our generations are not the same, there is about a good 9 years difference -
tolerance is knowing and accepting this fact - that there are some actions/behaviour that he may exhibit that i dont understand/ or cannot rationalise because i think they are weird but likewise there are some actions/behaviour that i may exhibit that he may not understand or be able to rationalise either.
tolerance is knowing to ask of thee my Lord, help us to understand each other - have patience with each other, support each other.
tolerance is knowing not to get upset when i cannot rationalise a behaviour or action, it is understanding that in these differences lies a strenght that with patience is revealed -
My Lord, in may things, i am not of strong mind, in many issues I dont know about life and i am very naive and trusting to my own detriment - but trusting in thee is not a misfortune, holding onto thee is not a calamity and it can never be.
So my Lord, i trust in thee wholly and i seek your support and assistance.
Mg i am grateful for every mercy, every guidance, every inspiration and every provision that you have allowed me and afforded me. I am thankful for every kindness and support that you show me. and I pray Mg that you continue this on me always - in this life and in the hereafter.
for all praise is yours, all authority, Kingship and Gloy, in this life and in the hereafter - Be thou Glorified Most Gracious Lord.
THANKS IS DUE TO THEE MG FOR ALL YOUR INSPIRATION AND GUIDANCE.
when i feel that i am loosing my way - that i am loosing grip with the most important thing in my life - God , i find renewed strenght and inspiration in the most unlikely places.
I remember what i wrote to someone back in 2007 - i dont know why i was rummaging through my sent mail, but i just went there and i found this email - when reading it - i thought this was someone else - this cannot be me, but it was and is me. that determination that i had is gw my strenght and gw will inspire me to do the right things at all times in all circumstances
-------------start---------
I have contemplated writing to you but i had no real humph to do so but i am hoping at least you can help me by shedding some light on issues bothering me. I dont know why it is taking me long to do.
My first issue has to do with mind wandering during prayer. how do i combat this issue. I am asking God for forgiveness and help to keep my mind from wondering to silly things and to keep some crazy voices in my head at bay so as to allow me say my prayers. I dont mind if the mind wonders at other times, but not during prayers, if you have experienced this before what do you suggest. i am trying to keep an open mind during prayers but my crazy mind just wonders everywhwre. i have tried praying in a quiet room, so that the tv, or people noice dont affect or distract me. can you advise me pls.
the second issue at the moment is a long standing one. basically, i wanted to marry a lovely young man, who i loved deeply but i kept holding back because of my faith. i wanted to make sure that we both belived in god and in God only and when i was asking him he would say yes he did. he is christian.
When i took the courage to ask if he only believed in God only and that when he prayed does he pray to God directly then i fully knew the intentions in his mind. I stayed with him still hoping for a miracle that maybe we have cross wires somewhere and that maybe a miracle will happen becasue i did love him and i believed he did me. We even called the whole thing off but somehow we got back together. He does not mind to marry me as a muslin and he says he will allow me practice as a muslim, but i am reluctant to marry him because when he prays he prays in the name of jesus, and he has said he cannot pray in the name of God , the Creator, the Magnificient.
While still hanging in Limbo, he decded to give me an ultimatum and i did not fight his choice because it was the right thing to do( i was more cowardly to do it. but As God willed it, it happened that we split for goood as we both had to state our intentions fully) I delibrated over matters much and i decided that my relationship with God is much more important to me than any relationship with him or with any one person. but i have to admit that it is very hard moving on as i know that i do love him, but God has done so much more for me that I cannot forsake God for anyone. In a way i have always had suspicions from young that I may find myself in this situation. now i am not regretting my actions but if i am truthful i am finding it hard to move on because i still have feelings for him.
I have tried in so many ways to explain to him the beauty in God the beauty and the simplication in worshiping God alone, but he will not listen. Though he says he does listen to me, his mind is closed on the matter and i am aware of that.
So my situation, is how do i move on and be strong in heart.
I try to read the quran to affirm my spirit and i try to pray to God to give me strenght, but i still cry. I understand that i am human and the loss of what i thought was dear will cause me to grieve. the crying is much much much less as the year goes by but at times when i remember i still do.....
how can i fully detatch myself from this person???
-------------End------------
God be praised and magnified always, in my life, in my heart, in my thoughts, in my mind - whatever my circumstances Lord, keep me praising thee always.
On to another issue -
friday night was a strange night for me.
i went to see prince of persia and whilst the enthusiasm for playing and fooling around childishly left me early enough as my playmate didnt want to play - i was rather plunged into a melancholy mood and dispair - the movie was ok - not too great - but some interesting messages crept up in my mind and this reduced me to tears.
if i could turn back the hands of time - would i change anything?
this is the million dollar question that does not have a straight answer.
I would love to say yes and say that i wish that i was forever faithful to God all the years of growing up - that i was firm of mind and intentions, that i would not be so easily mislead by peer pressure, that i was devoted to God both in words,in acions and deeds.
at the same time, i will say no, because i know that my circumstances have helped in making me realise my devotion to God, have shaped me to accept what i feel to be true, and has helped me to become the better person/soul that i have always wanted to be.
and at the though of my life and past mistakes - and at the present thought of knowing that slowly i may be slipping away from my nightly devotions, i plunged into despair and i was crying. God dont let me go, Hold on to me forever and dont let me go, dont let the devil take control of me, dont let him succeed, keep me in thy service always, forever praising thee, God dont let me go. this is what was in my head all evening long back to the house.
it was weird, i was sad and i was distraught, and i forgot somethng Lord, my playmate that was with me, i didnt talk to him.
even that night when he wanted to talk to me, i didnt know what to say to him, to tell him that my mood although initially had something to do with him, had in actual fact nothing to do with him at all.
but i was able to talk and for the first time ever i said it out loud - that crazy dream which still haunted me, that dream that made me realise that i have to fight for my soul - with all heart and intention - that i have to deserve that place in paradise - that all the talking in the world is nothing compared with the intention and actions that follows it up. i told him -
help me to understand him and help him to understand me - this prayer i asked of thee O lord, and that night you made me realise that understanding isnt just by inspiration alone - it is by sharing our fears, hopes and aspirations. it is by communication.
i am not the best communicator my Lord, so please help me....
as with moses who asked of thee, " untie a knot from my speech that they may understand me" - or somethings to that effect.
i also learnt an big big lesson - Tolerance - and what it really means.
for me tolerance is - overlooking that which i dont necesarily understand or agree with. We are not the same, we can never be, our culture is not the same, our language is not the same, our up-bringing is not the same, our generations are not the same, there is about a good 9 years difference -
tolerance is knowing and accepting this fact - that there are some actions/behaviour that he may exhibit that i dont understand/ or cannot rationalise because i think they are weird but likewise there are some actions/behaviour that i may exhibit that he may not understand or be able to rationalise either.
tolerance is knowing to ask of thee my Lord, help us to understand each other - have patience with each other, support each other.
tolerance is knowing not to get upset when i cannot rationalise a behaviour or action, it is understanding that in these differences lies a strenght that with patience is revealed -
My Lord, in may things, i am not of strong mind, in many issues I dont know about life and i am very naive and trusting to my own detriment - but trusting in thee is not a misfortune, holding onto thee is not a calamity and it can never be.
So my Lord, i trust in thee wholly and i seek your support and assistance.
Mg i am grateful for every mercy, every guidance, every inspiration and every provision that you have allowed me and afforded me. I am thankful for every kindness and support that you show me. and I pray Mg that you continue this on me always - in this life and in the hereafter.
for all praise is yours, all authority, Kingship and Gloy, in this life and in the hereafter - Be thou Glorified Most Gracious Lord.
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