Why the headache.......

NO PAIN commeth at me,

No struggle, fight or worry

Nothing commeth at me that You are not aware of

As Such, As i implore Thee for thy Mercy

I never despair......

issues

you know what, its probably uncanny and not to disimmilar with other people,

but i hate to leave my house when on my period...

it is now becoming an obsession of some sort...

I hate it when i go to spend a short visit with someone and my period catches up with me...

the whole business of pain, grumpyness, food swings, and the nasty business of disposal...

i can handle that in my own house but to then handle that in someone elses house?

not everyone has a bathroom bin, so you feel like a MUG scoming out with a wrapper, and u have to wash ur hands, preferably after disposal not before... you see its complicated...



i dont want them to see me on all fours doing the doggy walk because that eases my pain, ot for them to catch me slapping mu behind in throes of pain because it loosens its grip will be mortifying....

I am having some real issues....

mummy

this my mum never ceases to amaze me you know....
i know its love and i know its the thought of caring...
but sometimes.....
in anycase dear Lord. the prayer still remains... keep me praising Thee always
let there not be anyone, mother. father, brother, sister, friend, foe, husband, child. spirit, or otherwise...
lete there not be anyone at all that will come between me and Thee.
eep me tied to thee with a bond so tight, Keep in my heart an dmind, your constant praise and devotion.
Help me to serve thee as best as i can.

Family or no family, relationship or no relationship, You are my God, regardless of what anyone does, says or thinks.. You are one God and You decide my path, decree my destiny and guideth me through.

Help me out of here...
In all Things my Lord keep me praising Thee, Glorifying Thee, Exalting Thee.
Most Glorious, Holy Lord,, who else but thee can I ask, who else but thee my guide and stay can be... Through rain or sunshine Abide with me...

childhood memories.. God you are my God

This month at great pains I am remembering this prayer that my dad taught us when we were young..
in remembering and with the passage of time on ones memories i realised that what i am saying in arabic has no semblance to what the real words in arabic are... I am just remembering rhymes of the words that i remembered when i was young.
But I am grateful to God that he has helped me in some magic way get the words of what i want to remember and also get the meaning of the words as well.

it starts with

Allahuma anta Allahu Rabbu Raufu Rrahim
Anta Allahu Arrahman Arrahim
Anta allahu Al-Afeez Al-Mueez
Al-Hayy Al- Qayum Al - Qayim

There is a part missing but it starts Kaf- Ha- Ya- Ain - Sad. I wont embarass myself by saying the rhymes of what i remember..

But it goes on thus

Subbuhun Subbuhun Quddusun Quddusun
Rabbul Malaikatu wa ruhu Alaa -Al-Arshi Istawa
La dafi 'a lima qada wa la mani'a lima a'taa
Yaf'aly man yuridu fi mulkihi
Wa yahkumu fi khalqihi bima yashau
Wa huwa ala killy shayin Qadir.

Meaning as thus

God you are my God, The Compassionate and Merciful Lord
You are my God, The Most Gracious and Merciful.
You are my God,The Preserver, The Honourer
The Ever Living, The Self Subsisting, The Sustainer

the middle part is missing..

Most Glorious Most Glorious, The Holiest The Holiest
Lord of the angels and the Spirit - Who is firmly established in His Throne
No one hinders what You(God) have decreed and no one prevents what You(God) give
You (God) do what You(God) will in Your dominion and You(God) rule Your creation with whatever You(God) will. You (God) are Omnipotent.

To Thee O Lord belongs all praise,, wether we admit it or Not..

You are God, will always be God and will always remain God.

In this life and in the hereafter.

Be Thou Glorified.. Most Gracious Lord.

mind machinery

Does there ever come a time in ones life when you overhear family members talking about you... that makes you ask yourself.. se my life wo wo reach that stage?

My reply is thus crafted easily...
Dear Lord, Let me hold on to Thee, guide me in your ways, Teach me your truth.. Keep me close to thee. That i may forever plead.. My Lord keep me praising Thee always.

When you hear or think of thinks that maybe are not right to think of that way.. its best ot ask God i feel, to ask God to help you to forget the incident, so that you dont bring it to mind .. so that your imaginations and mind machinery doesnt amplify it more that what it should be...

i have ripped this song from donnie mcclurkin

Hear my earnest pray O Lord
hear my humble cry
precious loving caring Lord
on whom i rely
everloving ever living God
of whom no one can compare
all i ask is that You hear my prayer

Give me strenght Most Gracious Lord
strenght to carry on
lead me by Your Holy word
guide me in Your way
for life is filled with winding turns and I do often loose my way
All i ask is that You lead always

keep me safe from harm O Lord
refuge sought with Thee
give me wisdon, patience too
help me understand
For in life some things may go my way
and some dreams may not come true
All i ask is keep me praising Thee.

Hear my humble prayer O Lord
Hear my earnest Cry
Cure my wandering rambling mind
Guide it in your ways
For with thee there's success, peace and light
With You everything is well
Guide me Lord and keep me me praising Thee

this is my own cry and my own song to my creator...